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Hello friends! My name is Charles Munyao Katee I would like to share an educative content that would lead you along your relationship. Relationship its an intimidating and overwhelming factor. People have now destroyed the notion of relationships.
I remember the day that I ran away from school, we were a lot of students. We had even never changed our school uniform. We decided to go to the beach 🏖 and have some fun. My friends had their cameras, mobile phones and some had Bluetooth speakers 🔊.We listen to music, ate pizza 🍕, we created humor amongst ourselves. The day seemed so great. The sun ☀ was at it considerable temperatures. The sand was warm, the water was so cool 😎. That was the best day ever when I think of the days when I was in high school. We were group of 5 naughty boys.
Sometimes might be in groups just discussing about girls.I surely knew that most of my friends have their girlfriends.I was the odd one out.I really used to hate such topics but I couldn`t walk away from such conversation.they would get deeply in conversation about the girls they have next door.They would at last pause a question to me.
"Charles just tell us the truth,have you have had a girlfriend?"They would ask me.
"Hey! John come one what kind of question are you trying to ask me?"I would reply furiously.
"Just answer the question charles,we all know that you don`t have a girlfriend.You are so shy to face any girl."
I would slowly walk away from them pretending to go to the wash room.They actually knew I was leaving secretly.They would just come by and stop me,and try to make to speak with any girl around just to intimidate me.I was tensed,I only said hi,and I kept silent.
honestly I used to like girls but not to be in an intimate relationship with them.This made some of my friend think negative of me.I used to tell them that I don`t want to have a girl whom I will hurt,Simple because they had more than one girl.They really did cheat to them.I felt pity for the girls who blindly fell in love with my friends.
That the nature,being a boy sometimes,especially a teenager.You would wan`t to take chance to do multiple of things at a go without realising the worst of it.I used to say i`ll never hurt any girl whom i will be having and any chik who agrees to be with me will be so happy.I used to care so much.
The thing that I would like the chiks to know is that most of the boys if they are actually in love with you,it is so true and real,they will wish to sacrifice anything for you,but the problem arise when,the same girls tend to change,is when most of the boys think to look for a safe place to hide.If it is your first love you will actually never think of seeking to keep your heart at a safe place.You would love deeply and hoping that,the same girl is the one you are going to marry.That so fun of it,But at the moment when ,we get hurt ,everything changes you become so cautious,you don`t love that deeply,you just care a little bit. That is the fear of being hurt again.Sometimes boys do cheat for a reason.
Hello!
I would like to talk about something that most of us should never ignore when we need our relationships to works out.As we know most of the relationships might end up just because of tiny,petty issues that you have been ignoring from your partner or you have been ignoring to do them.Love has to be a two way traffic,by than more fun will be created out of it,the more fun the more the bond of the relationship will be.
Here are the few things we should not ignore from our partner:-
1.NEVER FORGET TO TELL THEM HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM
Love is mainly based on how much we talk and do with our partners.Words are so powerful,words can create and can break,words can make your relationship hold on too strong or the same words can terminate it.Remember,the same words you used when you were flirting with her,use the same words everyday and try to remind them how important they are to you.Use the same words to make them feel loved and cared for still.Express your feelings whenever you have the chance to do so.If you used to tell her you loved her so much every morning ,continue to use the same word every now and then,this will actually remind her how it feels to be in love with you.this will remind her how much she has to do for you in your relationship.The same aspect if it continues it will make a diamond bond,so hard to break no matter which negative influence is in between the two of you.
2.CUDDLE THEM,HUG THEM,MAKE A CONTACT WHENEVER YOU ARE AROUND EACH OTHER..
This is so important in a relationship.If you have your partner close,holding her,touching her,hugging her,make her lay on you.Make sure you do anything possible to make her feel secure and safe when she is in your hands.Girls like the simple things,and the simple things are what make a girl fall for you deeply in love.We should never ignore this aspect.When we ignore it for about a week ,you will actually see a change in the behavior in the relationship and it won`t be that pleasing.The contact between you two creates a strong bond between you and your partner.It creates a memory,and it strengthen what you feel for one another.This is what brings about the urge to have one another.Now, tell me if this aspect is out.How will you bring the feelings between you and your partner?You will be actually going to an edge of losing your partner.
3.COME BEARING SIMPLE GIFTS AND SURPRISES.
We always see in the movies where lovers comes with flowers to their loved ones,They bring even a single rose to them and this amuse them.Something I would like you to know is that,the simple things that we think they don`t matter anymore in our relationships,they do matter a lot.It doesn`t need to be valentine when we rush for red flowers and buying gifts to our partners.Who said that valentine day is the only day people should be buying flowers or giving gifts to their partners? Everyday it has to be a valentine between you and your lover.If you are still healthy and strong never lose even a single second with your partner.Make her feel loved with simple surprises you do for her.Make her feel she has a man who is ready for her for the future.Make this a habit.Make a day,be it once a week,once a month,just pick a special day that she will always know that,that kind of a day is always special to her.This will actually haunt her whenever she is far from you when she reads at the calendar and find that the day you would always surprise her,she is not available for the surprise.
4.TELL HER,THAT YOU ALWAYS APPRECIATE HER EFFORT IN ANYTHING.
If your partner finds out that you always appreciate anything positive she does for you.She will always be happy to do anything for you.She will always ask you what you need,she will always want to know what is bothering you.Just because she knows there is someone appreciating every bit of thing that she does.This will make her even be more happy to offer any kind of help.this will actually made her love you most.A lady needs appreciation,no matter what small action she did for you.Doing this will actually enable you to win her heart.Use words like,"Thank you so much bae for your hand,I really appreciate your help,You are the best girl I ever had."Make her feel so comfortable with you.When she finds that you really don`t appreciate anything positive she does for you,and another of her male friend really appreciate even her sending a text message to him,do you think your relationship will be at a safe path?
5.GIVE HER SPACE,DON`T BE OVER PROTECTIVE,TOO JEALOUS.
You should be protective to anyone you love because you wouldn`t afford to lose them,you should always care about who she is always speaking to in her phone,you should also sometimes deny her do interact with certain people.It is so cute at sometimes to be jealous.I can`t let anyone flirt with my bae while am around,i can`t let anyone touch my girlfriend when I`m around her.This is what i call being protective,but it should not be excess to an extend that when she says hi to someone else you are already asking who he was.Remember before you met her,she had different friends,she had another man who actually is not you.So don`t go by and give her strict measure on who she should be saying hi too.When you pressure her too much she will start admiring how other girls are being treated with their boyfriends.She will even wish she never met you,just because of the simple things you put strict measure on.If she accepted to be your girlfriend,she said she loves you too,then you should trust her.You should realize that whatever she is doing is for better of both of you,let her play her part and play your part,you will never grab shoulders with one another.
We should always focus on thinking on positive things.Think positive,be healthy.You should not worry about the negatives.We should only create an atmosphere full of positive vibes.Do something with all your best and hope for the best to occur.Do something with your passion hoping you would achieve the best from it.If we live with this kind of attitude we will never get depressed at all.Most of the time people get depressed,because of getting worried on things that will never even come to happen in the near time,they get to store their emptiness and only thing negative things are going to happen to them.They don`t take a chance to speak it out with their closest people.The emotions accumulate to a higher stage,where now they cause depression.Something that only started at a negative attitude.
No matter how hard the situation is going to be in some stages of our lives,we should always have a positive attitude, that everything will work out well.Having this positive attitude keeps you energetic and keeps you ready to receive any challenge you are facing.This is the same attitude that will enable you to live happily.Rising up with a smile that is full of enthusiasm.
You have your girlfriend or wife.Don`t think negative of her.Don`t bring the feeling of doubt to her.Just trust her fully and believe that she is always doing the right thing.Suspecting her of infidelity will eventually make your relationship with her start to deteriorate.You won`t love her much as you used to love her in the beginning,you won`t care as you used to care.This negative feeling you always keep having about her will only rise chaos in your relationship.It will keep love away and only drive enmity in the relationship instead of peace and harmony.
I do agree sometimes we tend to realize that our partners are cheating.We will realize
when they now start changing their passwords in their cell phone,they will start hiding some texts from you,they will start acting differently,in away you never expected,but this does not mean you starting having negative attitudes towards them.Learn to let positive vibes flow.Be a man and confirm,ask her what is wrong,try to understand why she does so.This will create a good atmosphere for both of you.What I`m trying to emphasize here,try as much as possible to be always positive.Suspense always lead to vices.
Understand that your life was mean`t to be full of joy but not pain. Have a positive belief. Work out in a positive way,talk in a positive,live in a positive way and all will work out in a positive path.This is simple because positivity encourages a way for better enhancement of your current state,provides you with a reason to work more hard and smart to attain the best. People keep on trying even after their failure just because they have a positive vibe that what they are achieving currently it is not going to be the same they will achieve after five years to come.
LOVE IS SELFISH
Love is selfish,due to these reasons.You fall in love with a girl.You only want her.You cherish her.You take good care of her.She becomes the only thing that matters to you.She captures your heart.You capture her heart.You all now exist for one another.
A day passing without you seeing her,it makes your day a hell of a living.Your heart will burn up with desires wishing she was around.You will only want her to be there for you.You will do anything never to let her down.You will do anything to please her.Only her.Here i get a reason to say love is selfish.
You will walk thousands miles,while your heart is left behind.Behind to the girl, your love longs for.You are willing to make a contact with her,but there is no possibility.She does no```````t reach you out.You think she is busy with someone else.You have no chance of reaching out to her,she thinks too you are not thinking about her.She does not realise that you try so hard just to hear her voice.
Dark creeps in.You wish she was there for you.Only memory are there for you.The distance separates you.Miles away but only feelings for her exist.You see beautiful girls,with ambitions and future,but you are still attached to her and you only want her.Love is selfish.
Love needs care.Loves needs attention.Love needs both souls attached to each.When one detaches,love is gone.Love need connection from both ends.It does not care about the status.It does not care of the condition.It only exist without barriers and keeps going deep in to the souls.
Obsession occurs.Burning the heart.The cure is Love.Missing someone so deeply,not eyes can tell,not touch can tell,only the internal connection can quencher the thirst and cool the heart.Love is selfish.It only cares for it existence.It only focus on two.When love focus on more than two,then love dies.
Love sprouts in a daylight.With a minimum sunlight intensity,with a cool weather around it.With too much of the sunlight,love drops.
Love fights.You need someone so bad,She does not appear.You feel down,alone wondering.You feel empty around of thousands souls.You care for none.Do you know why?
Love is selfish.you spend time alone.Listening to the music alone.Sad songs,But in real sense you only care about the lyrics.You are hurt,yet you cannot move on.You only feel her.Only her.
What love taught me,
In the current world world, most of us never understand what love really means. We tend to fall in love without caution. We love unconditionally. We care too much. Without understanding the out come of its effect.
Love never chose where to grow, love does not care how it is propelled, love only cares how it is perceived. Teenagers mostly, do engage in relationships so easily. Without having a specific intention in the relationship, but only hoping that love will last forever.
Who ever said that love is always forever? Who ever said that every relationship will end up in a marriage? How many relationships have you been? How many relationships never worked out, because of one or two reason? I learnt a lot from love. Do you wanna know?
I remember back then when I was in high school. Very energetic and confidence. In our school there was a girl, who had been admitted so recently from another school. She was so beautiful. Her beauty is what really amazed me. It is not that I never met anyone beautiful like her. She was unique in her own way, and that what made me fall crazily for her without giving a second thought.
She always liked to sit alone during break time. She went to the dinning hall alone, She never had friends at first. She seemed never interested to interact with any girl or boy. Silent, and cool that how she was. She was a short girl, with a complexion of an Arab and African. Her skin color, you could tell she was a half cast.
She had big brown eyes, with long black hair. She was never slim or fat. Brilliant was her nature, I could hear this from her classmates talking about her. She was pretty good in business study.
Many boys were after her. I couldn`t stand that chance seeing her in someone`s else hands. I took initiative. One day as it was games time i saw her sitting alone at the basketball pitch. I stood aside for some seconds to think of how I`m going to start a conversation with her. I took advantage of my leadership. I was a very respected class captain. Most of the teachers recognized me as a student who is focused and moral upright, different from most of my school mates. They always caused chaos in school, smoking in school and some even engaged in the trafficking of drugs.
"Hello! How are you doing Sophia?" I greeted her. She seemed surprised. I knew her name. Guess boys always try to search for what they want.
"I`m doing great," She answered. She looked down and never put an eye on me.
"Why are you sitting here alone, while most of the students are in the field playing football, volleyball, netball, aren`t you a fan of any of the games?"
"I`m not interested to play any kind of games," She replied quickly.
"I prefer you to be in the field than sitting here alone, the games teacher does not recommend this at all, we can go together because I was heading there too and I thought it would be better if I accompany. I know you don`t have friends. I can be one."
She smiled.
I slowly went with her to the field, but then she had no games kit, neither did I. We went to the field and sat on the ground watching the the students playing and shouting. I looked at her when she was silent, and she never said a word. She looked at me and realised that i was looking at her too. She asked me my name, and why was I not playing any of the games.
That how the conversation started. She now started being open to me. She told me she liked to play basketball, in her previous school she was in her school team. This made me also to be open to her. We had an amazing conversation. I knew that she was so talkative, but she only talked to people who seemed to understand her.
People were so surprised how I managed to make a quick friendship with her. Sophia would not talk to most of the boys. Most of them would approach her, start flirting with her, and I guess is something that Sophia looked upon from those boys. This was different from me, I think that what made me get her trust that quick, and she knew I was the only boy she could trust.
We used to meet under the mango tree, which was just in front of the school block. I forgot to mention something, we were in boarding school. Girls had their own dorms a bit far from boys. This was so amazing, because I had the whole time in the world to make her believe that something would be between us.
Stay in touch, I will be informing you the part 2 of the story.
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Days and months passed. I was so afraid to express my feelings to her. How could I told her that I wanted her to be my girlfriend? Yet many of the boys never managed to make friendship with her because of the same issues.
I started to avoid her. I would go break, even without passing across her class. I never even wanted to let her know what I was going through. By then she had some friends, One of them was called Tracy. A very cute girl who had also been admitted recently in our school. She was so hot as i can term her, but she was never hot like Sophia.
I decided to talk to Tracy after I realised she was her close friend. I told her about what I felt about Sophia. She asked why was I afraid to face her and tell her the truth. It was so hard for me. Thinking that I will break our friendship.
My friends knew what was going on. They knew because my whole character and behavior of being chicky and funny. It had been turned into the silent of the grave. I would not talk in class. I would late my Assistant Class Captain to take over the duties of the whole class. In the dormitory. I would only greet them, and lay on my bed looking at the white ceiling board. Wondering in my own world.
As time went. I knew this feeling would set me on fire. I decided to stand against my own fear. I knew i would lose her. Our friendship bond wasn`t gonna make it with such a silence. Many boys too, were after the same jewel!
One day as I was going outside of the class. Making my way out of the tuition block. I met her. She stared at me. I stood. I looked at her too. I abruptly told her that, i would like to talk to her. She never hesitated, She knew there was something wrong with me. She was eager to know what was it.
We went together to the basketball pitch.We sat around the pavements. Which were painted black at white that made the path ways looked so amazing. The same path ways would be cleaned everyday in the morning. The students who would come late to school, would be punished by cleaning the school compound. I was responsible for such kind of work. I would give each student their portion to work on. I would later come to check if the place had been cleaned up thoroughly.
"Sophia..." I started to talk to her. The voice was not clear. I cleared my throat.
"I know you have not been able to talk to me, to be honest I was the cause of us not communicating. I really do blame myself for that. I made you feel lonely, I made you feel so broke. I`m so sorry for that." I tried to let her understood why I had changed so suddenly. I thought she would say anything. She never said a word. She just looked at me while biting her lips.
It was a hard time for me to go on. I never knew how she was feeling about me. My thoughts were at race, while my heart was burning in flames. I felt the urge to hold her, hug her and tell her what i feel about her. This was not possible. I put more courage, and continued to talk to her.
"I know what I might say, may sound so offensive to you. I want you to understand, I don`t want you to hate me as you do to most of the boys in school. I don`t want you to break our friendship after I have told you what I feel about you. I want you to know, the moments that i was silent, never even want to see you. I was thinking on how i was going to express what I feel for you. I know it may sound crazy. We have been knowing each other for a short time, and such kind of feelings evolved so quick. Don`t feel like I just want to use you, being honest. I`m I love with you so much."
She looked at me and never said a word. She looked down. Her face frowned, in a way I never seen it before. I knew I had already annoyed her. I knew she will never want to talk to me anymore. Will she categorize me as the other boys in school? Will she accept my proposal? As I was thinking what to say next. She stood and walk away without even saying a word
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I was curious to know what she had decided. I was never at peace. My whole concentration in class was diverted. I never was able to listen to the lectures in class. I used to wake up very late for classes. I used to skip the morning preps too. The Morning preps, were supposed to start at exactly 5:30 am. I was not able to wake up at such a time.
I felt no need to continue with my studies. My esteem was so low. I guess this is why teachers in school kept on advising us not to engage in relationships. This would have great negative impact in our studies. I was in my own world. Sometimes I would just decide not to go class and spend the whole day in the school hall where I would write. I would write what I felt.
I used to find peace in writing. I had a diary, which I used only to write the things that were significant. The diary mostly involved love quotes, love stories and my own secrets that I would never allow anyone to know them. The secrets, carried the weaknesses, that I would never allow anyone to know.
Several weeks passed. I convinced myself I would be strong know matter what happened. "You have to appreciate the fact you are still alive and that what matters most. In this world you have to accept rejection and denial for you to move on. You will never always be accepted no matter how good you will be, before people."
I took back my responsibilities after two weeks. I focused much on my studies. I tried to forget even if she existed. It was noon when I was heading to the dining hall. I was alone, holding a novel in my hand. I saw Tracy, she seemed so happy.
"Hello, charles why are you so silent nowadays? Everyone is talking about you. Most of the student say that, it is not a usual thing for you to be like this, though I have known you so recently, it doesn`t mean I won`t ask you how you are doing."
"I`m fine Tracy, no need to worry about me." I replied as I continued to walk.
"Come on charles Have you forgotten what you told me some few weeks back? Are you turning against her!" She asked me loudly.
I stood and turned back to her. "I cannot turn against her, but I know she hates me, she do not see the good in me, nothing bad I ever did to her. If she finds it okay to be on her own it`s cool." I replied in a low voice, I never wanted some of my classmates who were passing to hear the conversation.
"Why are you giving up so easily? You should never give up on something that you want so badly. I know you, charles, you are so much in love with Sophia. I want to tell you that, she said she wants to talk to you. She was never able to come personally to you. She thinks that you are mad at her. She was so much afraid, Sophia thinks, she completely hurted your feelings. She is so much sorry."
Tracy walked away. I stood there frozen, filled with emotions.
I went to the dinning hall so happy. I knew that she had considered my request. My heart was enlighten, my face was filled with joy. That was the best feeling I ever felt the past two weeks. I now had hope, that everything will be alright.
The next day, was on Tuesday. The day begun so cool. I could hear noise from every part of the dormitory. My friends were shouting, talking about the football match that was played between Manchester United and Chelsea. I was not a fun of football, and I``m still not a fun. Some were putting on their uniforms readily for their classes.
I felt so light. It was like I had spent the whole night doing work out. I prepared myself and left the dormitory. I was the last to leave. The first lesson was mathematics. The teacher who taught us mathematics was so full of humor.
He really liked to tell stories. His lesson would be divided to two. The lesson only supposed to go for forty minutes. Those who were keen enough would find that, that teacher only used twenty minutes to teach Mathematics and the remaining twenty minutes to give out life skills. I really liked him, because sometimes he tried to make me understand that, a man should always be ready for anything. As a man responsibilities will always be there.
Time flew. The bell rang. You would hear noises all over the tuition block. Some students shouting, while others dragging their lockers, something that our principal really hated. If you would be found dragging lockers, you would spend the whole day in the field slashing.
I walked quickly outside the tuition block. As I was making my way to the canteen, I saw Sophia, she was sitting at the pavement. The same place we sat when we started talking. I never wanted her to see me. Unfortunately, she saw me. She called me.
It was so hard for me to resist her call. After all I was truly in love with her. I went close to her and sat by her side.
"I`m so sorry Charles, I never knew what to tell you, that why I walked away, I never wanted to annoy you. Please understand me. I know you are still mad at me." Sophia explained herself in a romantic manner, suggesting that she was so much in love too.
"It is okay."
"Is that what you all want to say?" She asked.
"The only thing right now I want to hear from you, is your final decision. Tell me, do you love me?"
"I still don`t know if I love you, but I feel something for you. I really don`t understand what I feel for you."
I was annoyed when I
heard her saying those words. I knew there was no chance for me. I tried to walk away. She held me back.She said, " I love you Abduljabbar."
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The relationship was so amazing everyone admired it. We loved each other so much. We were always available for each other. We would never let a day pass without us talking.
She made feel complete. I never thought to walk away from school even a single day. Though some days we would be allowed to go home, I would have never gone when Sophia was still in school.
We were not allowed as students to have a romantic relationship in school. I never cared, but the school was so strict. School captain, some used to call him the president of the school president used to appoint spies to write down those students who were dating in school.
If you would be found talking to a girl around six pm, you would be noted down by the spies. I never knew the spies though I was one of the prefects in school. This was a real secret. I never bothered to know them, because I was a class captain. I was a leader too.
It is so hard to reveal your fellow leader. As we know in schools sometimes we favor the people we work with.
The whole school knew Sophia and I were dating. No one could take us to the school principal. We were the best couple in school. We had some other students dating too, but their relationships compared to ours, we were the trending example of love in school.
During the weekends, we had entertainment within our school. All students would gather in the school hall where we would watch movies. The allocated time to watch movies was from seven pm to ten am where everyone would go back to their dormitories to sleep.
During this time, if you had your girlfriend, it would have been the perfect time to have fun, talk without restrictions, if you were clever enough you would do more. At this time the patron was busy in her room with her children singing for them lullaby.
Students took advantage of this time. Here, you would know people adequately when there are no restrictions. The world of school seemed so beautiful. Those who never used to like watching movies would be reading.
I used to let my girlfriend lay on my shoulder as we watched Indian movies. Most of the students enjoyed watching Indians movies. They had super love stories that were catchy. Emotionally and that would make one drop tears.
I remember we watched Aashiqui 2 together, I considered the best time we had in school together. I loved her so much. I used to think of her so much. She was all over my head, I never concentrated so much in class as I used to.
I would only think, of the time I was going out of the class to meet her. This made me change so much. I never was any longer responsible. I was obsessed. She was so much in love too. We became love birds. We were always together whenever we went, expect in the dormitory and washrooms.
We were inseparable. The bond was so strong. I would fight for her, she would do the same. I remember one day I almost beat my friend, he was flirting with my girlfriend and I couldn`t tolerate it. It was a habit and I had to stop it. I was short-tempered and that was my weakness.
She became the other weakness.
This made me lose focus on my studies. I remember I used to be Top five, but I dropped to position seven, and it went on until I was position Eleven is when I wake up from the love slumber.
Things started to take a negative turn. Challenges crept in. She was strong, she was performing well in class. I was the one having a problem. People started to talk of us in a negative way. The teachers also now started calling me in their offices. They would counsel me without knowing, what I was going through.
They thought, I was depressed, but I was in love, they never knew it. I held dearly to it. I was falling on the other side but rising on the love side. I was in my own heaven. I never wanted chaos.
Will I really make it out? Is the relationship going to be stable?
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We all have people whom we admire. We wish our relationship was like that of so and so. They seem to be happy together without any problems. You see them enjoying. Their posts in social media, you feel they are the perfect couples ever.
I would like to let you know that every relationship has it own fault. When you see people happy together it doesn't mean they do not face some shit. People go through a lot in their relationships, they just swallow up their shit and move on.
When you want to be happy in your relationship, you should ignore some of the things that will be happening. When you keep on trying to find fault in your partner, or trying to investigate your partner's connection, who she/he talks to, who he/she hangs with, this will be a point of bringing conflict in your relationship.
Don't go and check texts from his/her phone, just because you want to find out the people he or she talks to. Jealousy is good to some extend, but when it is excess it ruins. She/he said he loves you, then hold onto it, make her happy when you see she is also trying to do the same. Make it amazing. Trust your partner. This will be source of happiness to both of you.
When you are in a relationship don't expect that everyday, each one of you will wake up with joyous face. Sometimes everyone wakes up on their worst moods. They don't feel to talk to
anyone or greet anyone, but later during the day the mods will embark on normal.
Lovers will always fight for one or two reasons. I remember fighting with my bae just because who is supposed to text the other first. She insisted that I should take the fore front to do so. In real sense we both have to take initiative to text one another. People out there think that we are the happiest couples, when they see us walking in the streets laughing, holding hands,they think we are always in our right vows. A lot of shit do happen but we keep it that to ourselves, we sit down and solve the issues we have in decent way, we don't go putting petty issues in our hearts. This makes us the happiest couples.
You should hold on to your partner no matter how worst the situation. The problems will never be there everyday. The course of a true relationship will never run smoothly. You will have to be strong. We all expect the best in our relationships, we all want things to work out the way we want, but you also have to know that not all days things will work out.
You will have fights, you will even think of breaking up with your partner. I remember I was in this state, I spent hours thinking and tears doping. Love is so powerful. What comes from it needs a strong heart, weak hearts will always melt down. You might end up doing something that you will regret doing it in your life.
Shit do happen, but running away from it will never make it a solution, walking away from your partner will either be, stick with one another through your best and worst days. Challenges will always arise. The challenges are meant to make both of you strong, and teach you a life lesson. So that when you plan to make your life together, you should understand that shit will always happen.
Days and months went by. We continued to fall in love with each other so much. The extend of love and feelings was almost getting out of the edge of our skins. It was the best feeling, worth for our existence. The feelings became much bold. Nothing could be hidden from the two of us.
We yearned for more, we needed a physical contact. This was impossible to occur at the school compound. The feelings were so much that weakened her and I. Whenever we met, only smile and romantic hand shakes full of intimacy would follow. Love has a strong connection if it is real.
This is the period I found myself completely in love. Leave alone the relationship I had when I was in primary. Where I knew nothing much, than touching and hugging. The girl I had in primary was so beautiful too. She was a half cast of an Arab and Swahili. We meet in our primary school. We dated from class 5 to 8. Nothing much we would do than sharing food, and escort each other home.
The relationship between Sophia and I was mature. It had sense of intimacy. This made us to be in need of maximum privacy. We started meeting secretly when we had no classes. We would wonder in the field, sit in the trenches together. This was a cool place to sit when there was no rain. The trenches would be dry. The trenches were surrounded by tall tress, which give an inclusive shade.
We would share our family stories, how each of our parents would react when we fell in mistakes. We shared so much to a point, everyone knew about each other`s background.
The school rules and regulation did not allow a boy and a girl to be spotted speaking together at exactly 6 am. We never cared. We only allowed our feelings to drive us. One day, the old woman. The school matron saw us talking together at around 7am. She came and warned us. We never paid heed.
Students around the school realized that we were at danger. The school matron had reported us to the school principal. Some of my friends came to inform me. I was worried now! I knew it was a real issue and it will lead to something terrible. I started avoiding her. We talked about it. We had planned to stay away from each other until the issues of relationships in school subsided.
It was too hard for us. We were used to each other. The loneliness crept in. I started feeling like I was missing apart of me. The days that seemed to move in a flash, were now lagging behind. I could not stand the fact seeing her talking with other boys. This really hurted my feelings. At last I said,"Let whatever will happen, happen."
We continued hanging out as before. We thought nothing was going to happen until we were spotted again by the matron at the tuition block together. I remember it was on Friday. The next day which was Saturday we were all called to the principal`s office. We were all tensed. I was courageous enough not to care. I was only worried of her, forgetting that I also had my questions to answer and a punishment to be given.
We entered went to the principal`s office. We stood outside first. There was a visitor in his office so we had to wait until the visitor goes. We looked at each other for about one minute without saying a word. She started Asking,"Ara what will we say to the principal?"
"Nothing, we will wait for him to decide because we have gone against the school rules."
"I`m so sorry Ara, I have brought all these to you."
"Nothing you should be sorry about. If you love me hold onto me, we will get through this."
She held my hand looked into my eyes. She was so worried. I could tell how she reacted. After 5 minutes the visitor was out, the principal never realized that were outside waiting. I wanted to go into the office, but Sophia held my hand. She was so much afraid of what might come out of that office. We had no alternative. Even if we decided not to go in. We will still be found.
"Ara I love you so much." She said.
"I love you big Swerfie." That was her nick name. She loved it.
We enter in the principal`s office. It was my not my first time to enter the principal`s office. I entered the principal`s office to report some of the notorious students in my class. I took the list of noise makers to him when the teacher on duty or the class teacher was not available. Beside the the principal`s chairs there was 3 trophies. These trophies were won by mathematics student. I looked at the corner, I saw sticks that were used to punish the notorious students.
The principal gave us permission to sit down. We sat before him. He leaned on his black, leather chair and started turning right and left. He cleared his throat and starting asking.
"Are you the students that have decided that you will stay in this school with your own rules.?"
We remained silent, we never said a word.
He asked again,"I`m I talking to deaf people?"
"No sir," I replied.
"Is it true that the two are in a relationship?''
"No sir, we are only friends." She replied.
"When did you knew each other? Where did you two met?" The principal asked several questions at a go. This indicated a negative sign to us.
"We knew each other when were in primary school." I decide to lie. Sophia looked at me. She never expected this from me. She knew me as a honest person. What she never understood is that when it came to time of our safety we have to keep the good side of us away.
"The two of you have been seen several time together, on the time that is not recommended. We are not teaching students to be parents. We are educating student to have the best conduct. Do you want to portray the name of the school in a negative way?"
We kept quiet. The principal asked for my name and my ADM no. He pulled out a fulls-cap from his file. He started writing. Sophia looked so regretful. She started to cry. Tears rolling down from her pretty eyes. I was shocked too. I knew that was a letter for me to be expelled out of school. After two minutes the principal gave the paper with a stamp on it.
"I`m giving you 10 minutes, you should be out of this compound. From today hence forth you will be a day scholar. Go and pick whatever is yours in the dormitory and leave the school. As for the girl, you are going to have a punishment."
We left the principal`s office. I was so worried. I trembled within. I thought of what I was going to tell my sponsors. I knew I would lie my father and all will be fine. Outside the principal`s office Sophia held my hand. She pulled me closer and we kissed outside the office. I never felt anything, I was numb then. I held her back, though I was in hurrying to leave the school as I was instructed by the principle. I went down the stairs quickly as I was heading out of the tuition block.
Down the tuition block entry and exit, there was several students. They knew that I was going home. They saw the paper I was holding. I heard them talking about Sophia and I.
I went and packed everything that I knew I would use to prepare myself to come to school the coming Monday. I took my school uniforms which were about six pairs, my pair of shoes, shoe polish and my text books. It was dangerous to leave the books in the metal box.
I walked straight to the gate while my back pack was full. I was so sad, not because I had been suspended from the boarding school. I was afraid of the kind of life will Sophia have in school while I`m away. She was used to me. I felt the world was not fair at all. I developed hatred for the school. For everything that stood as an obstacles between the two of us.
When I reached at the gate. I showed the watchman the letter and passed. I heard someone calling my name while I was out of the school gate. It was her. She waved at me. I looked at her and turned away.
I arrived home safely with my heart on my palm. I never knew what to say. How could I tell my father that I had been suspended from school because I was involved in a relationship? How would I explain that I'm no longer going back to boarding?
My father received me without knowing what have been happening in school. I never gave him the letter. I kept it to myself. He asked why I was home that day, yet I was supposed to be at school then. I told him that I had missed home.
I stayed at home for about three days. This gave him a negative indication. He started questioning me again about my departure from school. I was stranded. I had no idea of how I could on how I could convince him to understand me.
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I brought up lame excuses so that he could transfer me to another school. In back of my mind I had the same idea of changing the school I was. I never liked it at the first place. I just got admitted because I had no another alternative. My sponsors had no enough time to look for a better high school for me.
What is offered to you take it, better a half bread than none. The following week that started I went back to school, but now as a day scholar. I used to wake up so early. Though my father never liked it, he was so much concerned of my safety since we used to live in a marginalized area with no security at all. I told him that I had to be in school on time. My father was pretty annoyed with me. I now had added another burden for him.
By then life was kinda rough. Paying our bills and make sure we get something to eat was the business of our daily life. I was not alone, I had siblings but they used to live with my mother. My parents had divorced since 2009. My dad had to take care of the family even if he had divorced with her.
It was like he was taking care of two houses. He found it hard giving me fare everyday. I started hating myself for such a huge problem I brought to my father. At the end of the day I said,"It is his responsibility."
Back in school was all chaos. I couldn't face her. I thought she was all the fault of what I had been through. She came to console me and asked me how my dad was doing. She knew I was staying with my dad only. I couldn't avoid her charm. Whenever I looked at her she drew me closer and even closer.
My heart was tied to her. All over a sudden we were all back to the normal lane. The different was that I wasn't able to spend more time with her. 5pm I had to be out of school compound. Student In school started talking and backbiting about us. Something they never understood is how I was a slave of her heart. I never cared.After all that is what humans always do.
Time was flying. It was in July 2016. I was in form two back then. Our candidates were preparing for the final exam. They planned a farewell party. The whole school had to contribute Ksh 50 and the officials were supposed to contribute 500 per head. I was one of the officials. I never contributed anything at all. We would be at the meeting and I would give thousands reason why I wasn't able to contribute.
In a period of two weeks time, the farewell party was held. The school was cleaned thoroughly. The hall was moped, the tables were cleaned. The decorations made the hall super amazing. In front of the wall of the wall there were white and blue curtain. The tables that were arranged in front were covered with blue and white coverings.
The bottles of Coca Cola and Mineral water were arranged in pattern at the table. The creates of Sodas were at the corner of the hall. Many schools had been invited. Girls and boys had prepared themselves adequately to receive these guests. Some planned to get new boyfriends and girlfriends. During such a function, it was the appropriate time to find your match.
I was helping the other officials to make sure that everything was in order. I had the responsibility to allocate students at the school gate where they would receive the visitors register them and usher them into the hall. Everyone was busy that day.
I remember I was heading to the tuition block when I met Sophia. She was so cool. That her usual nature. She had ironed her uniforms that fit so well in her slim body. She had worn a white hijab. That day she worn open shoes. She smiled and walked away to the dormitory.
She was in a good mood. Maybe it was all about the party that was going on. I went to the tuition block and pick my back pack which I had locked it in my locker. The tuition block was empty. No one was in the mood of learning that day. The atmosphere was of parting, celebrating and jumping all around the school compound.
I closed the class and walked out quickly. As I was walking towards the hall I saw students all over the school compound. They were in pairs, you would think it was a dating party. No teacher would bother you that day. The watchman never cared of who enters the school nor who leaves the school.
I took this as an amazing opportunity to hang out with my bae. I started looking for her. Later on after a thorough searching I found her behind the dormitory which was close to the back door of the hall.
"Hello! How are you doing?"
"I'm fine, as you can see me."
"The environment today seems so cool and everyone is happy, most people have been getting out of the school without any restriction, maybe we can make it out and have some fun." I said it while winking.
"It is a good idea, we can go and come back before the party is over." She said bravely.
This was made a plan. She yearned too much for privacy outside the school compound. I never hesitated. I really wanted it too. She quickly went to the dormitory and picked her bag. I also went to pick what we would use when we will be out for a short time.
I had Ksh 800 which is equivalent to 8 dollars which seems pretty much for a student. I put few clothes in the back and walked out of the dormitory. As a coincidence we both got out of the dormitory at the same time.
My friends asked me where I was going, but I kept it a secret. They knew I was leaving with Sophia since they also saw with her back pack. I was the first to leave the school compound and she followed back. The gate-man was not at the gate. This made it easy for us to walk out so easily.
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I remember the day that I ran away from school, we were a lot of students. We had even never changed our school uniform. We decided to go to the beach 🏖 and have some fun. My friends had their cameras, mobile phones and some had Bluetooth speakers 🔊.
We listen to music, ate pizza 🍕, we created humor amongst ourselves. The day seemed so great. The sun ☀ was at it considerable temperatures. The sand was warm, the water was so cool 😎. That was the best day ever when I think of the days when I was in high school. We were group of 5 naughty boys.
Sometimes might be in groups just discussing about girls.I surely knew that most of my friends have their girlfriends.I was the odd one out.I really used to hate such topics but I couldn`t walk away from such conversation.they would get deeply in conversation about the girls they have next door.They would at last pause a question to me.
"Charles just tell us the truth,have you have had a girlfriend?"They would ask me.
"Hey! John come one what kind of question are you trying to ask me?"I would reply furiously.
"Just answer the question charles,we all know that you don`t have a girlfriend.You are so shy to face any girl."
I would slowly walk away from them pretending to go to the wash room.They actually knew I was leaving secretly.They would just come by and stop me,and try to make to speak with any girl around just to intimidate me.I was tensed,I only said hi,and I kept silent.
honestly I used to like girls but not to be in an intimate relationship with them.This made some of my friend think negative of me.I used to tell them that I don`t want to have a girl whom I will hurt,Simple because they had more than one girl.They really did cheat to them.I felt pity for the girls who blindly fell in love with my friends.
That the nature,being a boy sometimes,especially a teenager.You would wan`t to take chance to do multiple of things at a go without realising the worst of it.I used to say i`ll never hurt any girl whom i will be having and any chik who agrees to be with me will be so happy.I used to care so much.
The thing that I would like the chiks to know is that most of the boys if they are actually in love with you,it is so true and real,they will wish to sacrifice anything for you,but the problem arise when,the same girls tend to change,is when most of the boys think to look for a safe place to hide.If it is your first love you will actually never think of seeking to keep your heart at a safe place.You would love deeply and hoping that,the same girl is the one you are going to marry.That so fun of it,But at the moment when ,we get hurt ,everything changes you become so cautious,you don`t love that deeply,you just care a little bit. That is the fear of being hurt again.Sometimes boys do cheat for a reason.
Hello!
I would like to talk about something that most of us should never ignore when we need our relationships to works out.As we know most of the relationships might end up just because of tiny,petty issues that you have been ignoring from your partner or you have been ignoring to do them.Love has to be a two way traffic,by than more fun will be created out of it,the more fun the more the bond of the relationship will be.
Here are the few things we should not ignore from our partner:-
1.NEVER FORGET TO TELL THEM HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM
Love is mainly based on how much we talk and do with our partners.Words are so powerful,words can create and can break,words can make your relationship hold on too strong or the same words can terminate it.Remember,the same words you used when you were flirting with her,use the same words everyday and try to remind them how important they are to you.Use the same words to make them feel loved and cared for still.Express your feelings whenever you have the chance to do so.If you used to tell her you loved her so much every morning ,continue to use the same word every now and then,this will actually remind her how it feels to be in love with you.this will remind her how much she has to do for you in your relationship.The same aspect if it continues it will make a diamond bond,so hard to break no matter which negative influence is in between the two of you.
2.CUDDLE THEM,HUG THEM,MAKE A CONTACT WHENEVER YOU ARE AROUND EACH OTHER..
This is so important in a relationship.If you have your partner close,holding her,touching her,hugging her,make her lay on you.Make sure you do anything possible to make her feel secure and safe when she is in your hands.Girls like the simple things,and the simple things are what make a girl fall for you deeply in love.We should never ignore this aspect.When we ignore it for about a week ,you will actually see a change in the behavior in the relationship and it won`t be that pleasing.The contact between you two creates a strong bond between you and your partner.It creates a memory,and it strengthen what you feel for one another.This is what brings about the urge to have one another.Now, tell me if this aspect is out.How will you bring the feelings between you and your partner?You will be actually going to an edge of losing your partner.
3.COME BEARING SIMPLE GIFTS AND SURPRISES.
We always see in the movies where lovers comes with flowers to their loved ones,They bring even a single rose to them and this amuse them.Something I would like you to know is that,the simple things that we think they don`t matter anymore in our relationships,they do matter a lot.It doesn`t need to be valentine when we rush for red flowers and buying gifts to our partners.Who said that valentine day is the only day people should be buying flowers or giving gifts to their partners? Everyday it has to be a valentine between you and your lover.If you are still healthy and strong never lose even a single second with your partner.Make her feel loved with simple surprises you do for her.Make her feel she has a man who is ready for her for the future.Make this a habit.Make a day,be it once a week,once a month,just pick a special day that she will always know that,that kind of a day is always special to her.This will actually haunt her whenever she is far from you when she reads at the calendar and find that the day you would always surprise her,she is not available for the surprise.
4.TELL HER,THAT YOU ALWAYS APPRECIATE HER EFFORT IN ANYTHING.
If your partner finds out that you always appreciate anything positive she does for you.She will always be happy to do anything for you.She will always ask you what you need,she will always want to know what is bothering you.Just because she knows there is someone appreciating every bit of thing that she does.This will make her even be more happy to offer any kind of help.this will actually made her love you most.A lady needs appreciation,no matter what small action she did for you.Doing this will actually enable you to win her heart.Use words like,"Thank you so much bae for your hand,I really appreciate your help,You are the best girl I ever had."Make her feel so comfortable with you.When she finds that you really don`t appreciate anything positive she does for you,and another of her male friend really appreciate even her sending a text message to him,do you think your relationship will be at a safe path?
5.GIVE HER SPACE,DON`T BE OVER PROTECTIVE,TOO JEALOUS.
You should be protective to anyone you love because you wouldn`t afford to lose them,you should always care about who she is always speaking to in her phone,you should also sometimes deny her do interact with certain people.It is so cute at sometimes to be jealous.I can`t let anyone flirt with my bae while am around,i can`t let anyone touch my girlfriend when I`m around her.This is what i call being protective,but it should not be excess to an extend that when she says hi to someone else you are already asking who he was.Remember before you met her,she had different friends,she had another man who actually is not you.So don`t go by and give her strict measure on who she should be saying hi too.When you pressure her too much she will start admiring how other girls are being treated with their boyfriends.She will even wish she never met you,just because of the simple things you put strict measure on.If she accepted to be your girlfriend,she said she loves you too,then you should trust her.You should realize that whatever she is doing is for better of both of you,let her play her part and play your part,you will never grab shoulders with one another.
We should always focus on thinking on positive things.Think positive,be healthy.You should not worry about the negatives.We should only create an atmosphere full of positive vibes.Do something with all your best and hope for the best to occur.Do something with your passion hoping you would achieve the best from it.If we live with this kind of attitude we will never get depressed at all.Most of the time people get depressed,because of getting worried on things that will never even come to happen in the near time,they get to store their emptiness and only thing negative things are going to happen to them.They don`t take a chance to speak it out with their closest people.The emotions accumulate to a higher stage,where now they cause depression.Something that only started at a negative attitude.
No matter how hard the situation is going to be in some stages of our lives,we should always have a positive attitude, that everything will work out well.Having this positive attitude keeps you energetic and keeps you ready to receive any challenge you are facing.This is the same attitude that will enable you to live happily.Rising up with a smile that is full of enthusiasm.
You have your girlfriend or wife.Don`t think negative of her.Don`t bring the feeling of doubt to her.Just trust her fully and believe that she is always doing the right thing.Suspecting her of infidelity will eventually make your relationship with her start to deteriorate.You won`t love her much as you used to love her in the beginning,you won`t care as you used to care.This negative feeling you always keep having about her will only rise chaos in your relationship.It will keep love away and only drive enmity in the relationship instead of peace and harmony.
I do agree sometimes we tend to realize that our partners are cheating.We will realize
when they now start changing their passwords in their cell phone,they will start hiding some texts from you,they will start acting differently,in away you never expected,but this does not mean you starting having negative attitudes towards them.Learn to let positive vibes flow.Be a man and confirm,ask her what is wrong,try to understand why she does so.This will create a good atmosphere for both of you.What I`m trying to emphasize here,try as much as possible to be always positive.Suspense always lead to vices.
Understand that your life was mean`t to be full of joy but not pain. Have a positive belief. Work out in a positive way,talk in a positive,live in a positive way and all will work out in a positive path.This is simple because positivity encourages a way for better enhancement of your current state,provides you with a reason to work more hard and smart to attain the best. People keep on trying even after their failure just because they have a positive vibe that what they are achieving currently it is not going to be the same they will achieve after five years to come.
LOVE IS SELFISH
Love is selfish,due to these reasons.You fall in love with a girl.You only want her.You cherish her.You take good care of her.She becomes the only thing that matters to you.She captures your heart.You capture her heart.You all now exist for one another.
A day passing without you seeing her,it makes your day a hell of a living.Your heart will burn up with desires wishing she was around.You will only want her to be there for you.You will do anything never to let her down.You will do anything to please her.Only her.Here i get a reason to say love is selfish.
You will walk thousands miles,while your heart is left behind.Behind to the girl, your love longs for.You are willing to make a contact with her,but there is no possibility.She does no```````t reach you out.You think she is busy with someone else.You have no chance of reaching out to her,she thinks too you are not thinking about her.She does not realise that you try so hard just to hear her voice.
Dark creeps in.You wish she was there for you.Only memory are there for you.The distance separates you.Miles away but only feelings for her exist.You see beautiful girls,with ambitions and future,but you are still attached to her and you only want her.Love is selfish.
Love needs care.Loves needs attention.Love needs both souls attached to each.When one detaches,love is gone.Love need connection from both ends.It does not care about the status.It does not care of the condition.It only exist without barriers and keeps going deep in to the souls.
Obsession occurs.Burning the heart.The cure is Love.Missing someone so deeply,not eyes can tell,not touch can tell,only the internal connection can quencher the thirst and cool the heart.Love is selfish.It only cares for it existence.It only focus on two.When love focus on more than two,then love dies.
Love sprouts in a daylight.With a minimum sunlight intensity,with a cool weather around it.With too much of the sunlight,love drops.
Love fights.You need someone so bad,She does not appear.You feel down,alone wondering.You feel empty around of thousands souls.You care for none.Do you know why?
Love is selfish.you spend time alone.Listening to the music alone.Sad songs,But in real sense you only care about the lyrics.You are hurt,yet you cannot move on.You only feel her.Only her.
What love taught me,
In the current world world, most of us never understand what love really means. We tend to fall in love without caution. We love unconditionally. We care too much. Without understanding the out come of its effect.
Love never chose where to grow, love does not care how it is propelled, love only cares how it is perceived. Teenagers mostly, do engage in relationships so easily. Without having a specific intention in the relationship, but only hoping that love will last forever.
Who ever said that love is always forever? Who ever said that every relationship will end up in a marriage? How many relationships have you been? How many relationships never worked out, because of one or two reason? I learnt a lot from love. Do you wanna know?
I remember back then when I was in high school. Very energetic and confidence. In our school there was a girl, who had been admitted so recently from another school. She was so beautiful. Her beauty is what really amazed me. It is not that I never met anyone beautiful like her. She was unique in her own way, and that what made me fall crazily for her without giving a second thought.
She always liked to sit alone during break time. She went to the dinning hall alone, She never had friends at first. She seemed never interested to interact with any girl or boy. Silent, and cool that how she was. She was a short girl, with a complexion of an Arab and African. Her skin color, you could tell she was a half cast.
She had big brown eyes, with long black hair. She was never slim or fat. Brilliant was her nature, I could hear this from her classmates talking about her. She was pretty good in business study.
Many boys were after her. I couldn`t stand that chance seeing her in someone`s else hands. I took initiative. One day as it was games time i saw her sitting alone at the basketball pitch. I stood aside for some seconds to think of how I`m going to start a conversation with her. I took advantage of my leadership. I was a very respected class captain. Most of the teachers recognized me as a student who is focused and moral upright, different from most of my school mates. They always caused chaos in school, smoking in school and some even engaged in the trafficking of drugs.
"Hello! How are you doing Sophia?" I greeted her. She seemed surprised. I knew her name. Guess boys always try to search for what they want.
"I`m doing great," She answered. She looked down and never put an eye on me.
"Why are you sitting here alone, while most of the students are in the field playing football, volleyball, netball, aren`t you a fan of any of the games?"
"I`m not interested to play any kind of games," She replied quickly.
"I prefer you to be in the field than sitting here alone, the games teacher does not recommend this at all, we can go together because I was heading there too and I thought it would be better if I accompany. I know you don`t have friends. I can be one."
She smiled.
I slowly went with her to the field, but then she had no games kit, neither did I. We went to the field and sat on the ground watching the the students playing and shouting. I looked at her when she was silent, and she never said a word. She looked at me and realised that i was looking at her too. She asked me my name, and why was I not playing any of the games.
That how the conversation started. She now started being open to me. She told me she liked to play basketball, in her previous school she was in her school team. This made me also to be open to her. We had an amazing conversation. I knew that she was so talkative, but she only talked to people who seemed to understand her.
People were so surprised how I managed to make a quick friendship with her. Sophia would not talk to most of the boys. Most of them would approach her, start flirting with her, and I guess is something that Sophia looked upon from those boys. This was different from me, I think that what made me get her trust that quick, and she knew I was the only boy she could trust.
We used to meet under the mango tree, which was just in front of the school block. I forgot to mention something, we were in boarding school. Girls had their own dorms a bit far from boys. This was so amazing, because I had the whole time in the world to make her believe that something would be between us.
Stay in touch, I will be informing you the part 2 of the story.
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Days and months passed. I was so afraid to express my feelings to her. How could I told her that I wanted her to be my girlfriend? Yet many of the boys never managed to make friendship with her because of the same issues.
I started to avoid her. I would go break, even without passing across her class. I never even wanted to let her know what I was going through. By then she had some friends, One of them was called Tracy. A very cute girl who had also been admitted recently in our school. She was so hot as i can term her, but she was never hot like Sophia.
I decided to talk to Tracy after I realised she was her close friend. I told her about what I felt about Sophia. She asked why was I afraid to face her and tell her the truth. It was so hard for me. Thinking that I will break our friendship.
My friends knew what was going on. They knew because my whole character and behavior of being chicky and funny. It had been turned into the silent of the grave. I would not talk in class. I would late my Assistant Class Captain to take over the duties of the whole class. In the dormitory. I would only greet them, and lay on my bed looking at the white ceiling board. Wondering in my own world.
As time went. I knew this feeling would set me on fire. I decided to stand against my own fear. I knew i would lose her. Our friendship bond wasn`t gonna make it with such a silence. Many boys too, were after the same jewel!
One day as I was going outside of the class. Making my way out of the tuition block. I met her. She stared at me. I stood. I looked at her too. I abruptly told her that, i would like to talk to her. She never hesitated, She knew there was something wrong with me. She was eager to know what was it.
We went together to the basketball pitch.We sat around the pavements. Which were painted black at white that made the path ways looked so amazing. The same path ways would be cleaned everyday in the morning. The students who would come late to school, would be punished by cleaning the school compound. I was responsible for such kind of work. I would give each student their portion to work on. I would later come to check if the place had been cleaned up thoroughly.
"Sophia..." I started to talk to her. The voice was not clear. I cleared my throat.
"I know you have not been able to talk to me, to be honest I was the cause of us not communicating. I really do blame myself for that. I made you feel lonely, I made you feel so broke. I`m so sorry for that." I tried to let her understood why I had changed so suddenly. I thought she would say anything. She never said a word. She just looked at me while biting her lips.
It was a hard time for me to go on. I never knew how she was feeling about me. My thoughts were at race, while my heart was burning in flames. I felt the urge to hold her, hug her and tell her what i feel about her. This was not possible. I put more courage, and continued to talk to her.
"I know what I might say, may sound so offensive to you. I want you to understand, I don`t want you to hate me as you do to most of the boys in school. I don`t want you to break our friendship after I have told you what I feel about you. I want you to know, the moments that i was silent, never even want to see you. I was thinking on how i was going to express what I feel for you. I know it may sound crazy. We have been knowing each other for a short time, and such kind of feelings evolved so quick. Don`t feel like I just want to use you, being honest. I`m I love with you so much."
She looked at me and never said a word. She looked down. Her face frowned, in a way I never seen it before. I knew I had already annoyed her. I knew she will never want to talk to me anymore. Will she categorize me as the other boys in school? Will she accept my proposal? As I was thinking what to say next. She stood and walk away without even saying a word
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I was curious to know what she had decided. I was never at peace. My whole concentration in class was diverted. I never was able to listen to the lectures in class. I used to wake up very late for classes. I used to skip the morning preps too. The Morning preps, were supposed to start at exactly 5:30 am. I was not able to wake up at such a time.
I felt no need to continue with my studies. My esteem was so low. I guess this is why teachers in school kept on advising us not to engage in relationships. This would have great negative impact in our studies. I was in my own world. Sometimes I would just decide not to go class and spend the whole day in the school hall where I would write. I would write what I felt.
I used to find peace in writing. I had a diary, which I used only to write the things that were significant. The diary mostly involved love quotes, love stories and my own secrets that I would never allow anyone to know them. The secrets, carried the weaknesses, that I would never allow anyone to know.
Several weeks passed. I convinced myself I would be strong know matter what happened. "You have to appreciate the fact you are still alive and that what matters most. In this world you have to accept rejection and denial for you to move on. You will never always be accepted no matter how good you will be, before people."
I took back my responsibilities after two weeks. I focused much on my studies. I tried to forget even if she existed. It was noon when I was heading to the dining hall. I was alone, holding a novel in my hand. I saw Tracy, she seemed so happy.
"Hello, charles why are you so silent nowadays? Everyone is talking about you. Most of the student say that, it is not a usual thing for you to be like this, though I have known you so recently, it doesn`t mean I won`t ask you how you are doing."
"I`m fine Tracy, no need to worry about me." I replied as I continued to walk.
"Come on charles Have you forgotten what you told me some few weeks back? Are you turning against her!" She asked me loudly.
I stood and turned back to her. "I cannot turn against her, but I know she hates me, she do not see the good in me, nothing bad I ever did to her. If she finds it okay to be on her own it`s cool." I replied in a low voice, I never wanted some of my classmates who were passing to hear the conversation.
"Why are you giving up so easily? You should never give up on something that you want so badly. I know you, charles, you are so much in love with Sophia. I want to tell you that, she said she wants to talk to you. She was never able to come personally to you. She thinks that you are mad at her. She was so much afraid, Sophia thinks, she completely hurted your feelings. She is so much sorry."
Tracy walked away. I stood there frozen, filled with emotions.
I went to the dinning hall so happy. I knew that she had considered my request. My heart was enlighten, my face was filled with joy. That was the best feeling I ever felt the past two weeks. I now had hope, that everything will be alright.
The next day, was on Tuesday. The day begun so cool. I could hear noise from every part of the dormitory. My friends were shouting, talking about the football match that was played between Manchester United and Chelsea. I was not a fun of football, and I``m still not a fun. Some were putting on their uniforms readily for their classes.
I felt so light. It was like I had spent the whole night doing work out. I prepared myself and left the dormitory. I was the last to leave. The first lesson was mathematics. The teacher who taught us mathematics was so full of humor.
He really liked to tell stories. His lesson would be divided to two. The lesson only supposed to go for forty minutes. Those who were keen enough would find that, that teacher only used twenty minutes to teach Mathematics and the remaining twenty minutes to give out life skills. I really liked him, because sometimes he tried to make me understand that, a man should always be ready for anything. As a man responsibilities will always be there.
Time flew. The bell rang. You would hear noises all over the tuition block. Some students shouting, while others dragging their lockers, something that our principal really hated. If you would be found dragging lockers, you would spend the whole day in the field slashing.
I walked quickly outside the tuition block. As I was making my way to the canteen, I saw Sophia, she was sitting at the pavement. The same place we sat when we started talking. I never wanted her to see me. Unfortunately, she saw me. She called me.
It was so hard for me to resist her call. After all I was truly in love with her. I went close to her and sat by her side.
"I`m so sorry Charles, I never knew what to tell you, that why I walked away, I never wanted to annoy you. Please understand me. I know you are still mad at me." Sophia explained herself in a romantic manner, suggesting that she was so much in love too.
"It is okay."
"Is that what you all want to say?" She asked.
"The only thing right now I want to hear from you, is your final decision. Tell me, do you love me?"
"I still don`t know if I love you, but I feel something for you. I really don`t understand what I feel for you."
I was annoyed when I
heard her saying those words. I knew there was no chance for me. I tried to walk away. She held me back.She said, " I love you Abduljabbar."
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The relationship was so amazing everyone admired it. We loved each other so much. We were always available for each other. We would never let a day pass without us talking.
She made feel complete. I never thought to walk away from school even a single day. Though some days we would be allowed to go home, I would have never gone when Sophia was still in school.
We were not allowed as students to have a romantic relationship in school. I never cared, but the school was so strict. School captain, some used to call him the president of the school president used to appoint spies to write down those students who were dating in school.
If you would be found talking to a girl around six pm, you would be noted down by the spies. I never knew the spies though I was one of the prefects in school. This was a real secret. I never bothered to know them, because I was a class captain. I was a leader too.
It is so hard to reveal your fellow leader. As we know in schools sometimes we favor the people we work with.
The whole school knew Sophia and I were dating. No one could take us to the school principal. We were the best couple in school. We had some other students dating too, but their relationships compared to ours, we were the trending example of love in school.
During the weekends, we had entertainment within our school. All students would gather in the school hall where we would watch movies. The allocated time to watch movies was from seven pm to ten am where everyone would go back to their dormitories to sleep.
During this time, if you had your girlfriend, it would have been the perfect time to have fun, talk without restrictions, if you were clever enough you would do more. At this time the patron was busy in her room with her children singing for them lullaby.
Students took advantage of this time. Here, you would know people adequately when there are no restrictions. The world of school seemed so beautiful. Those who never used to like watching movies would be reading.
I used to let my girlfriend lay on my shoulder as we watched Indian movies. Most of the students enjoyed watching Indians movies. They had super love stories that were catchy. Emotionally and that would make one drop tears.
I remember we watched Aashiqui 2 together, I considered the best time we had in school together. I loved her so much. I used to think of her so much. She was all over my head, I never concentrated so much in class as I used to.
I would only think, of the time I was going out of the class to meet her. This made me change so much. I never was any longer responsible. I was obsessed. She was so much in love too. We became love birds. We were always together whenever we went, expect in the dormitory and washrooms.
We were inseparable. The bond was so strong. I would fight for her, she would do the same. I remember one day I almost beat my friend, he was flirting with my girlfriend and I couldn`t tolerate it. It was a habit and I had to stop it. I was short-tempered and that was my weakness.
She became the other weakness.
This made me lose focus on my studies. I remember I used to be Top five, but I dropped to position seven, and it went on until I was position Eleven is when I wake up from the love slumber.
Things started to take a negative turn. Challenges crept in. She was strong, she was performing well in class. I was the one having a problem. People started to talk of us in a negative way. The teachers also now started calling me in their offices. They would counsel me without knowing, what I was going through.
They thought, I was depressed, but I was in love, they never knew it. I held dearly to it. I was falling on the other side but rising on the love side. I was in my own heaven. I never wanted chaos.
Will I really make it out? Is the relationship going to be stable?
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We all have people whom we admire. We wish our relationship was like that of so and so. They seem to be happy together without any problems. You see them enjoying. Their posts in social media, you feel they are the perfect couples ever.
I would like to let you know that every relationship has it own fault. When you see people happy together it doesn't mean they do not face some shit. People go through a lot in their relationships, they just swallow up their shit and move on.
When you want to be happy in your relationship, you should ignore some of the things that will be happening. When you keep on trying to find fault in your partner, or trying to investigate your partner's connection, who she/he talks to, who he/she hangs with, this will be a point of bringing conflict in your relationship.
Don't go and check texts from his/her phone, just because you want to find out the people he or she talks to. Jealousy is good to some extend, but when it is excess it ruins. She/he said he loves you, then hold onto it, make her happy when you see she is also trying to do the same. Make it amazing. Trust your partner. This will be source of happiness to both of you.
When you are in a relationship don't expect that everyday, each one of you will wake up with joyous face. Sometimes everyone wakes up on their worst moods. They don't feel to talk to
anyone or greet anyone, but later during the day the mods will embark on normal.
Lovers will always fight for one or two reasons. I remember fighting with my bae just because who is supposed to text the other first. She insisted that I should take the fore front to do so. In real sense we both have to take initiative to text one another. People out there think that we are the happiest couples, when they see us walking in the streets laughing, holding hands,they think we are always in our right vows. A lot of shit do happen but we keep it that to ourselves, we sit down and solve the issues we have in decent way, we don't go putting petty issues in our hearts. This makes us the happiest couples.
You should hold on to your partner no matter how worst the situation. The problems will never be there everyday. The course of a true relationship will never run smoothly. You will have to be strong. We all expect the best in our relationships, we all want things to work out the way we want, but you also have to know that not all days things will work out.
You will have fights, you will even think of breaking up with your partner. I remember I was in this state, I spent hours thinking and tears doping. Love is so powerful. What comes from it needs a strong heart, weak hearts will always melt down. You might end up doing something that you will regret doing it in your life.
Shit do happen, but running away from it will never make it a solution, walking away from your partner will either be, stick with one another through your best and worst days. Challenges will always arise. The challenges are meant to make both of you strong, and teach you a life lesson. So that when you plan to make your life together, you should understand that shit will always happen.
Days and months went by. We continued to fall in love with each other so much. The extend of love and feelings was almost getting out of the edge of our skins. It was the best feeling, worth for our existence. The feelings became much bold. Nothing could be hidden from the two of us.
We yearned for more, we needed a physical contact. This was impossible to occur at the school compound. The feelings were so much that weakened her and I. Whenever we met, only smile and romantic hand shakes full of intimacy would follow. Love has a strong connection if it is real.
This is the period I found myself completely in love. Leave alone the relationship I had when I was in primary. Where I knew nothing much, than touching and hugging. The girl I had in primary was so beautiful too. She was a half cast of an Arab and Swahili. We meet in our primary school. We dated from class 5 to 8. Nothing much we would do than sharing food, and escort each other home.
The relationship between Sophia and I was mature. It had sense of intimacy. This made us to be in need of maximum privacy. We started meeting secretly when we had no classes. We would wonder in the field, sit in the trenches together. This was a cool place to sit when there was no rain. The trenches would be dry. The trenches were surrounded by tall tress, which give an inclusive shade.
We would share our family stories, how each of our parents would react when we fell in mistakes. We shared so much to a point, everyone knew about each other`s background.
The school rules and regulation did not allow a boy and a girl to be spotted speaking together at exactly 6 am. We never cared. We only allowed our feelings to drive us. One day, the old woman. The school matron saw us talking together at around 7am. She came and warned us. We never paid heed.
Students around the school realized that we were at danger. The school matron had reported us to the school principal. Some of my friends came to inform me. I was worried now! I knew it was a real issue and it will lead to something terrible. I started avoiding her. We talked about it. We had planned to stay away from each other until the issues of relationships in school subsided.
It was too hard for us. We were used to each other. The loneliness crept in. I started feeling like I was missing apart of me. The days that seemed to move in a flash, were now lagging behind. I could not stand the fact seeing her talking with other boys. This really hurted my feelings. At last I said,"Let whatever will happen, happen."
We continued hanging out as before. We thought nothing was going to happen until we were spotted again by the matron at the tuition block together. I remember it was on Friday. The next day which was Saturday we were all called to the principal`s office. We were all tensed. I was courageous enough not to care. I was only worried of her, forgetting that I also had my questions to answer and a punishment to be given.
We entered went to the principal`s office. We stood outside first. There was a visitor in his office so we had to wait until the visitor goes. We looked at each other for about one minute without saying a word. She started Asking,"Ara what will we say to the principal?"
"Nothing, we will wait for him to decide because we have gone against the school rules."
"I`m so sorry Ara, I have brought all these to you."
"Nothing you should be sorry about. If you love me hold onto me, we will get through this."
She held my hand looked into my eyes. She was so worried. I could tell how she reacted. After 5 minutes the visitor was out, the principal never realized that were outside waiting. I wanted to go into the office, but Sophia held my hand. She was so much afraid of what might come out of that office. We had no alternative. Even if we decided not to go in. We will still be found.
"Ara I love you so much." She said.
"I love you big Swerfie." That was her nick name. She loved it.
We enter in the principal`s office. It was my not my first time to enter the principal`s office. I entered the principal`s office to report some of the notorious students in my class. I took the list of noise makers to him when the teacher on duty or the class teacher was not available. Beside the the principal`s chairs there was 3 trophies. These trophies were won by mathematics student. I looked at the corner, I saw sticks that were used to punish the notorious students.
The principal gave us permission to sit down. We sat before him. He leaned on his black, leather chair and started turning right and left. He cleared his throat and starting asking.
"Are you the students that have decided that you will stay in this school with your own rules.?"
We remained silent, we never said a word.
He asked again,"I`m I talking to deaf people?"
"No sir," I replied.
"Is it true that the two are in a relationship?''
"No sir, we are only friends." She replied.
"When did you knew each other? Where did you two met?" The principal asked several questions at a go. This indicated a negative sign to us.
"We knew each other when were in primary school." I decide to lie. Sophia looked at me. She never expected this from me. She knew me as a honest person. What she never understood is that when it came to time of our safety we have to keep the good side of us away.
"The two of you have been seen several time together, on the time that is not recommended. We are not teaching students to be parents. We are educating student to have the best conduct. Do you want to portray the name of the school in a negative way?"
We kept quiet. The principal asked for my name and my ADM no. He pulled out a fulls-cap from his file. He started writing. Sophia looked so regretful. She started to cry. Tears rolling down from her pretty eyes. I was shocked too. I knew that was a letter for me to be expelled out of school. After two minutes the principal gave the paper with a stamp on it.
"I`m giving you 10 minutes, you should be out of this compound. From today hence forth you will be a day scholar. Go and pick whatever is yours in the dormitory and leave the school. As for the girl, you are going to have a punishment."
We left the principal`s office. I was so worried. I trembled within. I thought of what I was going to tell my sponsors. I knew I would lie my father and all will be fine. Outside the principal`s office Sophia held my hand. She pulled me closer and we kissed outside the office. I never felt anything, I was numb then. I held her back, though I was in hurrying to leave the school as I was instructed by the principle. I went down the stairs quickly as I was heading out of the tuition block.
Down the tuition block entry and exit, there was several students. They knew that I was going home. They saw the paper I was holding. I heard them talking about Sophia and I.
I went and packed everything that I knew I would use to prepare myself to come to school the coming Monday. I took my school uniforms which were about six pairs, my pair of shoes, shoe polish and my text books. It was dangerous to leave the books in the metal box.
I walked straight to the gate while my back pack was full. I was so sad, not because I had been suspended from the boarding school. I was afraid of the kind of life will Sophia have in school while I`m away. She was used to me. I felt the world was not fair at all. I developed hatred for the school. For everything that stood as an obstacles between the two of us.
When I reached at the gate. I showed the watchman the letter and passed. I heard someone calling my name while I was out of the school gate. It was her. She waved at me. I looked at her and turned away.
I arrived home safely with my heart on my palm. I never knew what to say. How could I tell my father that I had been suspended from school because I was involved in a relationship? How would I explain that I'm no longer going back to boarding?
My father received me without knowing what have been happening in school. I never gave him the letter. I kept it to myself. He asked why I was home that day, yet I was supposed to be at school then. I told him that I had missed home.
I stayed at home for about three days. This gave him a negative indication. He started questioning me again about my departure from school. I was stranded. I had no idea of how I could on how I could convince him to understand me.
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I brought up lame excuses so that he could transfer me to another school. In back of my mind I had the same idea of changing the school I was. I never liked it at the first place. I just got admitted because I had no another alternative. My sponsors had no enough time to look for a better high school for me.
What is offered to you take it, better a half bread than none. The following week that started I went back to school, but now as a day scholar. I used to wake up so early. Though my father never liked it, he was so much concerned of my safety since we used to live in a marginalized area with no security at all. I told him that I had to be in school on time. My father was pretty annoyed with me. I now had added another burden for him.
By then life was kinda rough. Paying our bills and make sure we get something to eat was the business of our daily life. I was not alone, I had siblings but they used to live with my mother. My parents had divorced since 2009. My dad had to take care of the family even if he had divorced with her.
It was like he was taking care of two houses. He found it hard giving me fare everyday. I started hating myself for such a huge problem I brought to my father. At the end of the day I said,"It is his responsibility."
Back in school was all chaos. I couldn't face her. I thought she was all the fault of what I had been through. She came to console me and asked me how my dad was doing. She knew I was staying with my dad only. I couldn't avoid her charm. Whenever I looked at her she drew me closer and even closer.
My heart was tied to her. All over a sudden we were all back to the normal lane. The different was that I wasn't able to spend more time with her. 5pm I had to be out of school compound. Student In school started talking and backbiting about us. Something they never understood is how I was a slave of her heart. I never cared.After all that is what humans always do.
Time was flying. It was in July 2016. I was in form two back then. Our candidates were preparing for the final exam. They planned a farewell party. The whole school had to contribute Ksh 50 and the officials were supposed to contribute 500 per head. I was one of the officials. I never contributed anything at all. We would be at the meeting and I would give thousands reason why I wasn't able to contribute.
In a period of two weeks time, the farewell party was held. The schoo l was cleaned thoroughly. The hall was moped, the tables were cleaned. The decorations made the hall super amazing. In front of the wall of the wall there were white and blue curtain. The tables that were arranged in front were covered with blue and white coverings.
The bottles of Coca Cola and Mineral water were arranged in pattern at the table. The creates of Sodas were at the corner of the hall. Many schools had been invited. Girls and boys had prepared themselves adequately to receive these guests. Some planned to get new boyfriends and girlfriends. During such a function, it was the appropriate time to find your match.
I was helping the other officials to make sure that everything was in order. I had the responsibility to allocate students at the school gate where they would receive the visitors register them and usher them into the hall. Everyone was busy that day.
I remember I was heading to the tuition block when I met Sophia. She was so cool. That her usual nature. She had ironed her uniforms that fit so well in her slim body. She had worn a white hijab. That day she worn open shoes. She smiled and walked away to the dormitory.
She was in a good mood. Maybe it was all about the party that was going on. I went to the tuition block and pick my back pack which I had locked it in my locker. The tuition block was empty. No one was in the mood of learning that day. The atmosphere was of parting, celebrating and jumping all around the school compound.
I closed the class and walked out quickly. As I was walking towards the hall I saw students all over the school compound. They were in pairs, you would think it was a dating party. No teacher would bother you that day. The watchman never cared of who enters the school nor who leaves the school.
I took this as an amazing opportunity to hang out with my bae. I started looking for her. Later on after a thorough searching I found her behind the dormitory which was close to the back door of the hall.
"Hello! How are you doing?"
"I'm fine, as you can see me."
"The environment today seems so cool and everyone is happy, most people have been getting out of the school without any restriction, maybe we can make it out and have some fun." I said it while winking.
"It is a good idea, we can go and come back before the party is over." She said bravely.
This was made a plan. She yearned too much for privacy outside the school compound. I never hesitated. I really wanted it too. She quickly went to the dormitory and picked her bag. I also went to pick what we would use when we will be out for a short time.
I had Ksh 800 which is equivalent to 8 dollars which seems pretty much for a student. I put few clothes in the back and walked out of the dormitory. As a coincidence we both got out of the dormitory at the same time.
My friends asked me where I was going, but I kept it a secret. They knew I was leaving with Sophia since they also saw with her back pack. I was the first to leave the school compound and she followed back. The gate-man was not at the gate. This made it easy for us to walk out so easily.
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I remember the day that I ran away from school, we were a lot of students. We had even never changed our school uniform. We decided to go to the beach 🏖 and have some fun. My friends had their cameras, mobile phones and some had Bluetooth speakers 🔊.
We listen to music, ate pizza 🍕, we created humor amongst ourselves. The day seemed so great. The sun ☀ was at it considerable temperatures. The sand was warm, the water was so cool 😎. That was the best day ever when I think of the days when I was in high school. We were group of 5 naughty boys.
Sometimes might be in groups just discussing about girls.I surely knew that most of my friends have their girlfriends.I was the odd one out.I really used to hate such topics but I couldn`t walk away from such conversation.they would get deeply in conversation about the girls they have next door.They would at last pause a question to me.
"Charles just tell us the truth,have you have had a girlfriend?"They would ask me.
"Hey! John come one what kind of question are you trying to ask me?"I would reply furiously.
"Just answer the question charles,we all know that you don`t have a girlfriend.You are so shy to face any girl."
I would slowly walk away from them pretending to go to the wash room.They actually knew I was leaving secretly.They would just come by and stop me,and try to make to speak with any girl around just to intimidate me.I was tensed,I only said hi,and I kept silent.
honestly I used to like girls but not to be in an intimate relationship with them.This made some of my friend think negative of me.I used to tell them that I don`t want to have a girl whom I will hurt,Simple because they had more than one girl.They really did cheat to them.I felt pity for the girls who blindly fell in love with my friends.
That the nature,being a boy sometimes,especially a teenager.You would wan`t to take chance to do multiple of things at a go without realising the worst of it.I used to say i`ll never hurt any girl whom i will be having and any chik who agrees to be with me will be so happy.I used to care so much.
The thing that I would like the chiks to know is that most of the boys if they are actually in love with you,it is so true and real,they will wish to sacrifice anything for you,but the problem arise when,the same girls tend to change,is when most of the boys think to look for a safe place to hide.If it is your first love you will actually never think of seeking to keep your heart at a safe place.You would love deeply and hoping that,the same girl is the one you are going to marry.That so fun of it,But at the moment when ,we get hurt ,everything changes you become so cautious,you don`t love that deeply,you just care a little bit. That is the fear of being hurt again.Sometimes boys do cheat for a reason.
Hello!
I would like to talk about something that most of us should never ignore when we need our relationships to works out.As we know most of the relationships might end up just because of tiny,petty issues that you have been ignoring from your partner or you have been ignoring to do them.Love has to be a two way traffic,by than more fun will be created out of it,the more fun the more the bond of the relationship will be.
Here are the few things we should not ignore from our partner:-
1.NEVER FORGET TO TELL THEM HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM
Love is mainly based on how much we talk and do with our partners.Words are so powerful,words can create and can break,words can make your relationship hold on too strong or the same words can terminate it.Remember,the same words you used when you were flirting with her,use the same words everyday and try to remind them how important they are to you.Use the same words to make them feel loved and cared for still.Express your feelings whenever you have the chance to do so.If you used to tell her you loved her so much every morning ,continue to use the same word every now and then,this will actually remind her how it feels to be in love with you.this will remind her how much she has to do for you in your relationship.The same aspect if it continues it will make a diamond bond,so hard to break no matter which negative influence is in between the two of you.
2.CUDDLE THEM,HUG THEM,MAKE A CONTACT WHENEVER YOU ARE AROUND EACH OTHER..
This is so important in a relationship.If you have your partner close,holding her,touching her,hugging her,make her lay on you.Make sure you do anything possible to make her feel secure and safe when she is in your hands.Girls like the simple things,and the simple things are what make a girl fall for you deeply in love.We should never ignore this aspect.When we ignore it for about a week ,you will actually see a change in the behavior in the relationship and it won`t be that pleasing.The contact between you two creates a strong bond between you and your partner.It creates a memory,and it strengthen what you feel for one another.This is what brings about the urge to have one another.Now, tell me if this aspect is out.How will you bring the feelings between you and your partner?You will be actually going to an edge of losing your partner.
3.COME BEARING SIMPLE GIFTS AND SURPRISES.
We always see in the movies where lovers comes with flowers to their loved ones,They bring even a single rose to them and this amuse them.Something I would like you to know is that,the simple things that we think they don`t matter anymore in our relationships,they do matter a lot.It doesn`t need to be valentine when we rush for red flowers and buying gifts to our partners.Who said that valentine day is the only day people should be buying flowers or giving gifts to their partners? Everyday it has to be a valentine between you and your lover.If you are still healthy and strong never lose even a single second with your partner.Make her feel loved with simple surprises you do for her.Make her feel she has a man who is ready for her for the future.Make this a habit.Make a day,be it once a week,once a month,just pick a special day that she will always know that,that kind of a day is always special to her.This will actually haunt her whenever she is far from you when she reads at the calendar and find that the day you would always surprise her,she is not available for the surprise.
4.TELL HER,THAT YOU ALWAYS APPRECIATE HER EFFORT IN ANYTHING.
If your partner finds out that you always appreciate anything positive she does for you.She will always be happy to do anything for you.She will always ask you what you need,she will always want to know what is bothering you.Just because she knows there is someone appreciating every bit of thing that she does.This will make her even be more happy to offer any kind of help.this will actually made her love you most.A lady needs appreciation,no matter what small action she did for you.Doing this will actually enable you to win her heart.Use words like,"Thank you so much bae for your hand,I really appreciate your help,You are the best girl I ever had."Make her feel so comfortable with you.When she finds that you really don`t appreciate anything positive she does for you,and another of her male friend really appreciate even her sending a text message to him,do you think your relationship will be at a safe path?
5.GIVE HER SPACE,DON`T BE OVER PROTECTIVE,TOO JEALOUS.
You should be protective to anyone you love because you wouldn`t afford to lose them,you should always care about who she is always speaking to in her phone,you should also sometimes deny her do interact with certain people.It is so cute at sometimes to be jealous.I can`t let anyone flirt with my bae while am around,i can`t let anyone touch my girlfriend when I`m around her.This is what i call being protective,but it should not be excess to an extend that when she says hi to someone else you are already asking who he was.Remember before you met her,she had different friends,she had another man who actually is not you.So don`t go by and give her strict measure on who she should be saying hi too.When you pressure her too much she will start admiring how other girls are being treated with their boyfriends.She will even wish she never met you,just because of the simple things you put strict measure on.If she accepted to be your girlfriend,she said she loves you too,then you should trust her.You should realize that whatever she is doing is for better of both of you,let her play her part and play your part,you will never grab shoulders with one another.
We should always focus on thinking on positive things.Think positive,be healthy.You should not worry about the negatives.We should only create an atmosphere full of positive vibes.Do something with all your best and hope for the best to occur.Do something with your passion hoping you would achieve the best from it.If we live with this kind of attitude we will never get depressed at all.Most of the time people get depressed,because of getting worried on things that will never even come to happen in the near time,they get to store their emptiness and only thing negative things are going to happen to them.They don`t take a chance to speak it out with their closest people.The emotions accumulate to a higher stage,where now they cause depression.Something that only started at a negative attitude.
No matter how hard the situation is going to be in some stages of our lives,we should always have a positive attitude, that everything will work out well.Having this positive attitude keeps you energetic and keeps you ready to receive any challenge you are facing.This is the same attitude that will enable you to live happily.Rising up with a smile that is full of enthusiasm.
You have your girlfriend or wife.Don`t think negative of her.Don`t bring the feeling of doubt to her.Just trust her fully and believe that she is always doing the right thing.Suspecting her of infidelity will eventually make your relationship with her start to deteriorate.You won`t love her much as you used to love her in the beginning,you won`t care as you used to care.This negative feeling you always keep having about her will only rise chaos in your relationship.It will keep love away and only drive enmity in the relationship instead of peace and harmony.
I do agree sometimes we tend to realize that our partners are cheating.We will realize
when they now start changing their passwords in their cell phone,they will start hiding some texts from you,they will start acting differently,in away you never expected,but this does not mean you starting having negative attitudes towards them.Learn to let positive vibes flow.Be a man and confirm,ask her what is wrong,try to understand why she does so.This will create a good atmosphere for both of you.What I`m trying to emphasize here,try as much as possible to be always positive.Suspense always lead to vices.
Understand that your life was mean`t to be full of joy but not pain. Have a positive belief. Work out in a positive way,talk in a positive,live in a positive way and all will work out in a positive path.This is simple because positivity encourages a way for better enhancement of your current state,provides you with a reason to work more hard and smart to attain the best. People keep on trying even after their failure just because they have a positive vibe that what they are achieving currently it is not going to be the same they will achieve after five years to come.
LOVE IS SELFISH
Love is selfish,due to these reasons.You fall in love with a girl.You only want her.You cherish her.You take good care of her.She becomes the only thing that matters to you.She captures your heart.You capture her heart.You all now exist for one another.
A day passing without you seeing her,it makes your day a hell of a living.Your heart will burn up with desires wishing she was around.You will only want her to be there for you.You will do anything never to let her down.You will do anything to please her.Only her.Here i get a reason to say love is selfish.
You will walk thousands miles,while your heart is left behind.Behind to the girl, your love longs for.You are willing to make a contact with her,but there is no possibility.She does no```````t reach you out.You think she is busy with someone else.You have no chance of reaching out to her,she thinks too you are not thinking about her.She does not realise that you try so hard just to hear her voice.
Dark creeps in.You wish she was there for you.Only memory are there for you.The distance separates you.Miles away but only feelings for her exist.You see beautiful girls,with ambitions and future,but you are still attached to her and you only want her.Love is selfish.
Love needs care.Loves needs attention.Love needs both souls attached to each.When one detaches,love is gone.Love need connection from both ends.It does not care about the status.It does not care of the condition.It only exist without barriers and keeps going deep in to the souls.
Obsession occurs.Burning the heart.The cure is Love.Missing someone so deeply,not eyes can tell,not touch can tell,only the internal connection can quencher the thirst and cool the heart.Love is selfish.It only cares for it existence.It only focus on two.When love focus on more than two,then love dies.
Love sprouts in a daylight.With a minimum sunlight intensity,with a cool weather around it.With too much of the sunlight,love drops.
Love fights.You need someone so bad,She does not appear.You feel down,alone wondering.You feel empty around of thousands souls.You care for none.Do you know why?
Love is selfish.you spend time alone.Listening to the music alone.Sad songs,But in real sense you only care about the lyrics.You are hurt,yet you cannot move on.You only feel her.Only her.
What love taught me,
In the current world world, most of us never understand what love really means. We tend to fall in love without caution. We love unconditionally. We care too much. Without understanding the out come of its effect.
Love never chose where to grow, love does not care how it is propelled, love only cares how it is perceived. Teenagers mostly, do engage in relationships so easily. Without having a specific intention in the relationship, but only hoping that love will last forever.
Who ever said that love is always forever? Who ever said that every relationship will end up in a marriage? How many relationships have you been? How many relationships never worked out, because of one or two reason? I learnt a lot from love. Do you wanna know?
I remember back then when I was in high school. Very energetic and confidence. In our school there was a girl, who had been admitted so recently from another school. She was so beautiful. Her beauty is what really amazed me. It is not that I never met anyone beautiful like her. She was unique in her own way, and that what made me fall crazily for her without giving a second thought.
She always liked to sit alone during break time. She went to the dinning hall alone, She never had friends at first. She seemed never interested to interact with any girl or boy. Silent, and cool that how she was. She was a short girl, with a complexion of an Arab and African. Her skin color, you could tell she was a half cast.
She had big brown eyes, with long black hair. She was never slim or fat. Brilliant was her nature, I could hear this from her classmates talking about her. She was pretty good in business study.
Many boys were after her. I couldn`t stand that chance seeing her in someone`s else hands. I took initiative. One day as it was games time i saw her sitting alone at the basketball pitch. I stood aside for some seconds to think of how I`m going to start a conversation with her. I took advantage of my leadership. I was a very respected class captain. Most of the teachers recognized me as a student who is focused and moral upright, different from most of my school mates. They always caused chaos in school, smoking in school and some even engaged in the trafficking of drugs.
"Hello! How are you doing Sophia?" I greeted her. She seemed surprised. I knew her name. Guess boys always try to search for what they want.
"I`m doing great," She answered. She looked down and never put an eye on me.
"Why are you sitting here alone, while most of the students are in the field playing football, volleyball, netball, aren`t you a fan of any of the games?"
"I`m not interested to play any kind of games," She replied quickly.
"I prefer you to be in the field than sitting here alone, the games teacher does not recommend this at all, we can go together because I was heading there too and I thought it would be better if I accompany. I know you don`t have friends. I can be one."
She smiled.
I slowly went with her to the field, but then she had no games kit, neither did I. We went to the field and sat on the ground watching the the students playing and shouting. I looked at her when she was silent, and she never said a word. She looked at me and realised that i was looking at her too. She asked me my name, and why was I not playing any of the games.
That how the conversation started. She now started being open to me. She told me she liked to play basketball, in her previous school she was in her school team. This made me also to be open to her. We had an amazing conversation. I knew that she was so talkative, but she only talked to people who seemed to understand her.
People were so surprised how I managed to make a quick friendship with her. Sophia would not talk to most of the boys. Most of them would approach her, start flirting with her, and I guess is something that Sophia looked upon from those boys. This was different from me, I think that what made me get her trust that quick, and she knew I was the only boy she could trust.
We used to meet under the mango tree, which was just in front of the school block. I forgot to mention something, we were in boarding school. Girls had their own dorms a bit far from boys. This was so amazing, because I had the whole time in the world to make her believe that something would be between us.
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Days and months passed. I was so afraid to express my feelings to her. How could I told her that I wanted her to be my girlfriend? Yet many of the boys never managed to make friendship with her because of the same issues.
I started to avoid her. I would go break, even without passing across her class. I never even wanted to let her know what I was going through. By then she had some friends, One of them was called Tracy. A very cute girl who had also been admitted recently in our school. She was so hot as i can term her, but she was never hot like Sophia.
I decided to talk to Tracy after I realised she was her close friend. I told her about what I felt about Sophia. She asked why was I afraid to face her and tell her the truth. It was so hard for me. Thinking that I will break our friendship.
My friends knew what was going on. They knew because my whole character and behavior of being chicky and funny. It had been turned into the silent of the grave. I would not talk in class. I would late my Assistant Class Captain to take over the duties of the whole class. In the dormitory. I would only greet them, and lay on my bed looking at the white ceiling board. Wondering in my own world.
As time went. I knew this feeling would set me on fire. I decided to stand against my own fear. I knew i would lose her. Our friendship bond wasn`t gonna make it with such a silence. Many boys too, were after the same jewel!
One day as I was going outside of the class. Making my way out of the tuition block. I met her. She stared at me. I stood. I looked at her too. I abruptly told her that, i would like to talk to her. She never hesitated, She knew there was something wrong with me. She was eager to know what was it.
We went together to the basketball pitch.We sat around the pavements. Which were painted black at white that made the path ways looked so amazing. The same path ways would be cleaned everyday in the morning. The students who would come late to school, would be punished by cleaning the school compound. I was responsible for such kind of work. I would give each student their portion to work on. I would later come to check if the place had been cleaned up thoroughly.
"Sophia..." I started to talk to her. The voice was not clear. I cleared my throat.
"I know you have not been able to talk to me, to be honest I was the cause of us not communicating. I really do blame myself for that. I made you feel lonely, I made you feel so broke. I`m so sorry for that." I tried to let her understood why I had changed so suddenly. I thought she would say anything. She never said a word. She just looked at me while biting her lips.
It was a hard time for me to go on. I never knew how she was feeling about me. My thoughts were at race, while my heart was burning in flames. I felt the urge to hold her, hug her and tell her what i feel about her. This was not possible. I put more courage, and continued to talk to her.
"I know what I might say, may sound so offensive to you. I want you to understand, I don`t want you to hate me as you do to most of the boys in school. I don`t want you to break our friendship after I have told you what I feel about you. I want you to know, the moments that i was silent, never even want to see you. I was thinking on how i was going to express what I feel for you. I know it may sound crazy. We have been knowing each other for a short time, and such kind of feelings evolved so quick. Don`t feel like I just want to use you, being honest. I`m I love with you so much."
She looked at me and never said a word. She looked down. Her face frowned, in a way I never seen it before. I knew I had already annoyed her. I knew she will never want to talk to me anymore. Will she categorize me as the other boys in school? Will she accept my proposal? As I was thinking what to say next. She stood and walk away without even saying a word
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I was curious to know what she had decided. I was never at peace. My whole concentration in class was diverted. I never was able to listen to the lectures in class. I used to wake up very late for classes. I used to skip the morning preps too. The Morning preps, were supposed to start at exactly 5:30 am. I was not able to wake up at such a time.
I felt no need to continue with my studies. My esteem was so low. I guess this is why teachers in school kept on advising us not to engage in relationships. This would have great negative impact in our studies. I was in my own world. Sometimes I would just decide not to go class and spend the whole day in the school hall where I would write. I would write what I felt.
I used to find peace in writing. I had a diary, which I used only to write the things that were significant. The diary mostly involved love quotes, love stories and my own secrets that I would never allow anyone to know them. The secrets, carried the weaknesses, that I would never allow anyone to know.
Several weeks passed. I convinced myself I would be strong know matter what happened. "You have to appreciate the fact you are still alive and that what matters most. In this world you have to accept rejection and denial for you to move on. You will never always be accepted no matter how good you will be, before people."
I took back my responsibilities after two weeks. I focused much on my studies. I tried to forget even if she existed. It was noon when I was heading to the dining hall. I was alone, holding a novel in my hand. I saw Tracy, she seemed so happy.
"Hello, charles why are you so silent nowadays? Everyone is talking about you. Most of the student say that, it is not a usual thing for you to be like this, though I have known you so recently, it doesn`t mean I won`t ask you how you are doing."
"I`m fine Tracy, no need to worry about me." I replied as I continued to walk.
"Come on charles Have you forgotten what you told me some few weeks back? Are you turning against her!" She asked me loudly.
I stood and turned back to her. "I cannot turn against her, but I know she hates me, she do not see the good in me, nothing bad I ever did to her. If she finds it okay to be on her own it`s cool." I replied in a low voice, I never wanted some of my classmates who were passing to hear the conversation.
"Why are you giving up so easily? You should never give up on something that you want so badly. I know you, charles, you are so much in love with Sophia. I want to tell you that, she said she wants to talk to you. She was never able to come personally to you. She thinks that you are mad at her. She was so much afraid, Sophia thinks, she completely hurted your feelings. She is so much sorry."
Tracy walked away. I stood there frozen, filled with emotions.
I went to the dinning hall so happy. I knew that she had considered my request. My heart was enlighten, my face was filled with joy. That was the best feeling I ever felt the past two weeks. I now had hope, that everything will be alright.
The next day, was on Tuesday. The day begun so cool. I could hear noise from every part of the dormitory. My friends were shouting, talking about the football match that was played between Manchester United and Chelsea. I was not a fun of football, and I``m still not a fun. Some were putting on their uniforms readily for their classes.
I felt so light. It was like I had spent the whole night doing work out. I prepared myself and left the dormitory. I was the last to leave. The first lesson was mathematics. The teacher who taught us mathematics was so full of humor.
He really liked to tell stories. His lesson would be divided to two. The lesson only supposed to go for forty minutes. Those who were keen enough would find that, that teacher only used twenty minutes to teach Mathematics and the remaining twenty minutes to give out life skills. I really liked him, because sometimes he tried to make me understand that, a man should always be ready for anything. As a man responsibilities will always be there.
Time flew. The bell rang. You would hear noises all over the tuition block. Some students shouting, while others dragging their lockers, something that our principal really hated. If you would be found dragging lockers, you would spend the whole day in the field slashing.
I walked quickly outside the tuition block. As I was making my way to the canteen, I saw Sophia, she was sitting at the pavement. The same place we sat when we started talking. I never wanted her to see me. Unfortunately, she saw me. She called me.
It was so hard for me to resist her call. After all I was truly in love with her. I went close to her and sat by her side.
"I`m so sorry Charles, I never knew what to tell you, that why I walked away, I never wanted to annoy you. Please understand me. I know you are still mad at me." Sophia explained herself in a romantic manner, suggesting that she was so much in love too.
"It is okay."
"Is that what you all want to say?" She asked.
"The only thing right now I want to hear from you, is your final decision. Tell me, do you love me?"
"I still don`t know if I love you, but I feel something for you. I really don`t understand what I feel for you."
I was annoyed when I
heard her saying those words. I knew there was no chance for me. I tried to walk away. She held me back.She said, " I love you Abduljabbar."
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The relationship was so amazing everyone admired it. We loved each other so much. We were always available for each other. We would never let a day pass without us talking.
She made feel complete. I never thought to walk away from school even a single day. Though some days we would be allowed to go home, I would have never gone when Sophia was still in school.
We were not allowed as students to have a romantic relationship in school. I never cared, but the school was so strict. School captain, some used to call him the president of the school president used to appoint spies to write down those students who were dating in school.
If you would be found talking to a girl around six pm, you would be noted down by the spies. I never knew the spies though I was one of the prefects in school. This was a real secret. I never bothered to know them, because I was a class captain. I was a leader too.
It is so hard to reveal your fellow leader. As we know in schools sometimes we favor the people we work with.
The whole school knew Sophia and I were dating. No one could take us to the school principal. We were the best couple in school. We had some other students dating too, but their relationships compared to ours, we were the trending example of love in school.
During the weekends, we had entertainment within our school. All students would gather in the school hall where we would watch movies. The allocated time to watch movies was from seven pm to ten am where everyone would go back to their dormitories to sleep.
During this time, if you had your girlfriend, it would have been the perfect time to have fun, talk without restrictions, if you were clever enough you would do more. At this time the patron was busy in her room with her children singing for them lullaby.
Students took advantage of this time. Here, you would know people adequately when there are no restrictions. The world of school seemed so beautiful. Those who never used to like watching movies would be reading.
I used to let my girlfriend lay on my shoulder as we watched Indian movies. Most of the students enjoyed watching Indians movies. They had super love stories that were catchy. Emotionally and that would make one drop tears.
I remember we watched Aashiqui 2 together, I considered the best time we had in school together. I loved her so much. I used to think of her so much. She was all over my head, I never concentrated so much in class as I used to.
I would only think, of the time I was going out of the class to meet her. This made me change so much. I never was any longer responsible. I was obsessed. She was so much in love too. We became love birds. We were always together whenever we went, expect in the dormitory and washrooms.
We were inseparable. The bond was so strong. I would fight for her, she would do the same. I remember one day I almost beat my friend, he was flirting with my girlfriend and I couldn`t tolerate it. It was a habit and I had to stop it. I was short-tempered and that was my weakness.
She became the other weakness.
This made me lose focus on my studies. I remember I used to be Top five, but I dropped to position seven, and it went on until I was position Eleven is when I wake up from the love slumber.
Things started to take a negative turn. Challenges crept in. She was strong, she was performing well in class. I was the one having a problem. People started to talk of us in a negative way. The teachers also now started calling me in their offices. They would counsel me without knowing, what I was going through.
They thought, I was depressed, but I was in love, they never knew it. I held dearly to it. I was falling on the other side but rising on the love side. I was in my own heaven. I never wanted chaos.
Will I really make it out? Is the relationship going to be stable?
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We all have people whom we admire. We wish our relationship was like that of so and so. They seem to be happy together without any problems. You see them enjoying. Their posts in social media, you feel they are the perfect couples ever.
I would like to let you know that every relationship has it own fault. When you see people happy together it doesn't mean they do not face some shit. People go through a lot in their relationships, they just swallow up their shit and move on.
When you want to be happy in your relationship, you should ignore some of the things that will be happening. When you keep on trying to find fault in your partner, or trying to investigate your partner's connection, who she/he talks to, who he/she hangs with, this will be a point of bringing conflict in your relationship.
Don't go and check texts from his/her phone, just because you want to find out the people he or she talks to. Jealousy is good to some extend, but when it is excess it ruins. She/he said he loves you, then hold onto it, make her happy when you see she is also trying to do the same. Make it amazing. Trust your partner. This will be source of happiness to both of you.
When you are in a relationship don't expect that everyday, each one of you will wake up with joyous face. Sometimes everyone wakes up on their worst moods. They don't feel to talk to
anyone or greet anyone, but later during the day the mods will embark on normal.
Lovers will always fight for one or two reasons. I remember fighting with my bae just because who is supposed to text the other first. She insisted that I should take the fore front to do so. In real sense we both have to take initiative to text one another. People out there think that we are the happiest couples, when they see us walking in the streets laughing, holding hands,they think we are always in our right vows. A lot of shit do happen but we keep it that to ourselves, we sit down and solve the issues we have in decent way, we don't go putting petty issues in our hearts. This makes us the happiest couples.
You should hold on to your partner no matter how worst the situation. The problems will never be there everyday. The course of a true relationship will never run smoothly. You will have to be strong. We all expect the best in our relationships, we all want things to work out the way we want, but you also have to know that not all days things will work out.
You will have fights, you will even think of breaking up with your partner. I remember I was in this state, I spent hours thinking and tears doping. Love is so powerful. What comes from it needs a strong heart, weak hearts will always melt down. You might end up doing something that you will regret doing it in your life.
Shit do happen, but running away from it will never make it a solution, walking away from your partner will either be, stick with one another through your best and worst days. Challenges will always arise. The challenges are meant to make both of you strong, and teach you a life lesson. So that when you plan to make your life together, you should understand that shit will always happen.
Days and months went by. We continued to fall in love with each other so much. The extend of love and feelings was almost getting out of the edge of our skins. It was the best feeling, worth for our existence. The feelings became much bold. Nothing could be hidden from the two of us.
We yearned for more, we needed a physical contact. This was impossible to occur at the school compound. The feelings were so much that weakened her and I. Whenever we met, only smile and romantic hand shakes full of intimacy would follow. Love has a strong connection if it is real.
This is the period I found myself completely in love. Leave alone the relationship I had when I was in primary. Where I knew nothing much, than touching and hugging. The girl I had in primary was so beautiful too. She was a half cast of an Arab and Swahili. We meet in our primary school. We dated from class 5 to 8. Nothing much we would do than sharing food, and escort each other home.
The relationship between Sophia and I was mature. It had sense of intimacy. This made us to be in need of maximum privacy. We started meeting secretly when we had no classes. We would wonder in the field, sit in the trenches together. This was a cool place to sit when there was no rain. The trenches would be dry. The trenches were surrounded by tall tress, which give an inclusive shade.
We would share our family stories, how each of our parents would react when we fell in mistakes. We shared so much to a point, everyone knew about each other`s background.
The school rules and regulation did not allow a boy and a girl to be spotted speaking together at exactly 6 am. We never cared. We only allowed our feelings to drive us. One day, the old woman. The school matron saw us talking together at around 7am. She came and warned us. We never paid heed.
Students around the school realized that we were at danger. The school matron had reported us to the school principal. Some of my friends came to inform me. I was worried now! I knew it was a real issue and it will lead to something terrible. I started avoiding her. We talked about it. We had planned to stay away from each other until the issues of relationships in school subsided.
It was too hard for us. We were used to each other. The loneliness crept in. I started feeling like I was missing apart of me. The days that seemed to move in a flash, were now lagging behind. I could not stand the fact seeing her talking with other boys. This really hurted my feelings. At last I said,"Let whatever will happen, happen."
We continued hanging out as before. We thought nothing was going to happen until we were spotted again by the matron at the tuition block together. I remember it was on Friday. The next day which was Saturday we were all called to the principal`s office. We were all tensed. I was courageous enough not to care. I was only worried of her, forgetting that I also had my questions to answer and a punishment to be given.
We entered went to the principal`s office. We stood outside first. There was a visitor in his office so we had to wait until the visitor goes. We looked at each other for about one minute without saying a word. She started Asking,"Ara what will we say to the principal?"
"Nothing, we will wait for him to decide because we have gone against the school rules."
"I`m so sorry Ara, I have brought all these to you."
"Nothing you should be sorry about. If you love me hold onto me, we will get through this."
She held my hand looked into my eyes. She was so worried. I could tell how she reacted. After 5 minutes the visitor was out, the principal never realized that were outside waiting. I wanted to go into the office, but Sophia held my hand. She was so much afraid of what might come out of that office. We had no alternative. Even if we decided not to go in. We will still be found.
"Ara I love you so much." She said.
"I love you big Swerfie." That was her nick name. She loved it.
We enter in the principal`s office. It was my not my first time to enter the principal`s office. I entered the principal`s office to report some of the notorious students in my class. I took the list of noise makers to him when the teacher on duty or the class teacher was not available. Beside the the principal`s chairs there was 3 trophies. These trophies were won by mathematics student. I looked at the corner, I saw sticks that were used to punish the notorious students.
The principal gave us permission to sit down. We sat before him. He leaned on his black, leather chair and started turning right and left. He cleared his throat and starting asking.
"Are you the students that have decided that you will stay in this school with your own rules.?"
We remained silent, we never said a word.
He asked again,"I`m I talking to deaf people?"
"No sir," I replied.
"Is it true that the two are in a relationship?''
"No sir, we are only friends." She replied.
"When did you knew each other? Where did you two met?" The principal asked several questions at a go. This indicated a negative sign to us.
"We knew each other when were in primary school." I decide to lie. Sophia looked at me. She never expected this from me. She knew me as a honest person. What she never understood is that when it came to time of our safety we have to keep the good side of us away.
"The two of you have been seen several time together, on the time that is not recommended. We are not teaching students to be parents. We are educating student to have the best conduct. Do you want to portray the name of the school in a negative way?"
We kept quiet. The principal asked for my name and my ADM no. He pulled out a fulls-cap from his file. He started writing. Sophia looked so regretful. She started to cry. Tears rolling down from her pretty eyes. I was shocked too. I knew that was a letter for me to be expelled out of school. After two minutes the principal gave the paper with a stamp on it.
"I`m giving you 10 minutes, you should be out of this compound. From today hence forth you will be a day scholar. Go and pick whatever is yours in the dormitory and leave the school. As for the girl, you are going to have a punishment."
We left the principal`s office. I was so worried. I trembled within. I thought of what I was going to tell my sponsors. I knew I would lie my father and all will be fine. Outside the principal`s office Sophia held my hand. She pulled me closer and we kissed outside the office. I never felt anything, I was numb then. I held her back, though I was in hurrying to leave the school as I was instructed by the principle. I went down the stairs quickly as I was heading out of the tuition block.
Down the tuition block entry and exit, there was several students. They knew that I was going home. They saw the paper I was holding. I heard them talking about Sophia and I.
I went and packed everything that I knew I would use to prepare myself to come to school the coming Monday. I took my school uniforms which were about six pairs, my pair of shoes, shoe polish and my text books. It was dangerous to leave the books in the metal box.
I walked straight to the gate while my back pack was full. I was so sad, not because I had been suspended from the boarding school. I was afraid of the kind of life will Sophia have in school while I`m away. She was used to me. I felt the world was not fair at all. I developed hatred for the school. For everything that stood as an obstacles between the two of us.
When I reached at the gate. I showed the watchman the letter and passed. I heard someone calling my name while I was out of the school gate. It was her. She waved at me. I looked at her and turned away.
I arrived home safely with my heart on my palm. I never knew what to say. How could I tell my father that I had been suspended from school because I was involved in a relationship? How would I explain that I'm no longer going back to boarding?
My father received me without knowing what have been happening in school. I never gave him the letter. I kept it to myself. He asked why I was home that day, yet I was supposed to be at school then. I told him that I had missed home.
I stayed at home for about three days. This gave him a negative indication. He started questioning me again about my departure from school. I was stranded. I had no idea of how I could on how I could convince him to understand me.
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I brought up lame excuses so that he could transfer me to another school. In back of my mind I had the same idea of changing the school I was. I never liked it at the first place. I just got admitted because I had no another alternative. My sponsors had no enough time to look for a better high school for me.
What is offered to you take it, better a half bread than none. The following week that started I went back to school, but now as a day scholar. I used to wake up so early. Though my father never liked it, he was so much concerned of my safety since we used to live in a marginalized area with no security at all. I told him that I had to be in school on time. My father was pretty annoyed with me. I now had added another burden for him.
By then life was kinda rough. Paying our bills and make sure we get something to eat was the business of our daily life. I was not alone, I had siblings but they used to live with my mother. My parents had divorced since 2009. My dad had to take care of the family even if he had divorced with her.
It was like he was taking care of two houses. He found it hard giving me fare everyday. I started hating myself for such a huge problem I brought to my father. At the end of the day I said,"It is his responsibility."
Back in school was all chaos. I couldn't face her. I thought she was all the fault of what I had been through. She came to console me and asked me how my dad was doing. She knew I was staying with my dad only. I couldn't avoid her charm. Whenever I looked at her she drew me closer and even closer.
My heart was tied to her. All over a sudden we were all back to the normal lane. The different was that I wasn't able to spend more time with her. 5pm I had to be out of school compound. Student In school started talking and backbiting about us. Something they never understood is how I was a slave of her heart. I never cared.After all that is what humans always do.
Time was flying. It was in July 2016. I was in form two back then. Our candidates were preparing for the final exam. They planned a farewell party. The whole school had to contribute Ksh 50 and the officials were supposed to contribute 500 per head. I was one of the officials. I never contributed anything at all. We would be at the meeting and I would give thousands reason why I wasn't able to contribute.
In a period of two weeks time, the farewell party was held. The school was cleaned thoroughly. The hall was moped, the tables were cleaned. The decorations made the hall super amazing. In front of the wall of the wall there were white and blue curtain. The tables that were arranged in front were covered with blue and white coverings.
The bottles of Coca Cola and Mineral water were arranged in pattern at the table. The creates of Sodas were at the corner of the hall. Many schools had been invited. Girls and boys had prepared themselves adequately to receive these guests. Some planned to get new boyfriends and girlfriends. During such a function, it was the appropriate time to find your match.
I was helping the other officials to make sure that everything was in order. I had the responsibility to allocate students at the school gate where they would receive the visitors register them and usher them into the hall. Everyone was busy that day.
I remember I was heading to the tuition block when I met Sophia. She was so cool. That her usual nature. She had ironed her uniforms that fit so well in her slim body. She had worn a white hijab. That day she worn open shoes. She smiled and walked away to the dormitory.
She was in a good mood. Maybe it was all about the party that was going on. I went to the tuition block and pick my back pack which I had locked it in my locker. The tuition block was empty. No one was in the mood of learning that day. The atmosphere was of parting, celebrating and jumping all around the school compound.
I closed the class and walked out quickly. As I was walking towards the hall I saw students all over the school compound. They were in pairs, you would think it was a dating party. No teacher would bother you that day. The watchman never cared of who enters the school nor who leaves the school.
I took this as an amazing opportunity to hang out with my bae. I started looking for her. Later on after a thorough searching I found her behind the dormitory which was close to the back door of the hall.
"Hello! How are you doing?"
"I'm fine, as you can see me."
"The environment today seems so cool and everyone is happy, most people have been getting out of the school without any restriction, maybe we can make it out and have some fun." I said it while winking.
"It is a good idea, we can go and come back before the party is over." She said bravely.
This was made a plan. She yearned too much for privacy outside the school compound. I never hesitated. I really wanted it too. She quickly went to the dormitory and picked her bag. I also went to pick what we would use when we will be out for a short time.
I had Ksh 800 which is equivalent to 8 dollars which seems pretty much for a student. I put few clothes in the back and walked out of the dormitory. As a coincidence we both got out of the dormitory at the same time.
My friends asked me where I was going, but I kept it a secret. They knew I was leaving with Sophia since they also saw with her back pack. I was the first to leave the school compound and she followed back. The gate-man was not at the gate. This made it easy for us to walk out so easily.
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I remember the day that I ran away from school, we were a lot of students. We had even never changed our school uniform. We decided to go to the beach 🏖 and have some fun. My friends had their cameras, mobile phones and some had Bluetooth speakers 🔊.
We listen to music, ate pizza 🍕, we created humor amongst ourselves. The day seemed so great. The sun ☀ was at it considerable temperatures. The sand was warm, the water was so cool 😎. That was the best day ever when I think of the days when I was in high school. We were group of 5 naughty boys.
Sometimes might be in groups just discussing about girls.I surely knew that most of my friends have their girlfriends.I was the odd one out.I really used to hate such topics but I couldn`t walk away from such conversation.they would get deeply in conversation about the girls they have next door.They would at last pause a question to me.
"Charles just tell us the truth,have you have had a girlfriend?"They would ask me.
"Hey! John come one what kind of question are you trying to ask me?"I would reply furiously.
"Just answer the question charles,we all know that you don`t have a girlfriend.You are so shy to face any girl."
I would slowly walk away from them pretending to go to the wash room.They actually knew I was leaving secretly.They would just come by and stop me,and try to make to speak with any girl around just to intimidate me.I was tensed,I only said hi,and I kept silent.
honestly I used to like girls but not to be in an intimate relationship with them.This made some of my friend think negative of me.I used to tell them that I don`t want to have a girl whom I will hurt,Simple because they had more than one girl.They really did cheat to them.I felt pity for the girls who blindly fell in love with my friends.
That the nature,being a boy sometimes,especially a teenager.You would wan`t to take chance to do multiple of things at a go without realising the worst of it.I used to say i`ll never hurt any girl whom i will be having and any chik who agrees to be with me will be so happy.I used to care so much.
The thing that I would like the chiks to know is that most of the boys if they are actually in love with you,it is so true and real,they will wish to sacrifice anything for you,but the problem arise when,the same girls tend to change,is when most of the boys think to look for a safe place to hide.If it is your first love you will actually never think of seeking to keep your heart at a safe place.You would love deeply and hoping that,the same girl is the one you are going to marry.That so fun of it,But at the moment when ,we get hurt ,everything changes you become so cautious,you don`t love that deeply,you just care a little bit. That is the fear of being hurt again.Sometimes boys do cheat for a reason.
Hello!
I would like to talk about something that most of us should never ignore when we need our relationships to works out.As we know most of the relationships might end up just because of tiny,petty issues that you have been ignoring from your partner or you have been ignoring to do them.Love has to be a two way traffic,by than more fun will be created out of it,the more fun the more the bond of the relationship will be.
Here are the few things we should not ignore from our partner:-
1.NEVER FORGET TO TELL THEM HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM
Love is mainly based on how much we talk and do with our partners.Words are so powerful,words can create and can break,words can make your relationship hold on too strong or the same words can terminate it.Remember,the same words you used when you were flirting with her,use the same words everyday and try to remind them how important they are to you.Use the same words to make them feel loved and cared for still.Express your feelings whenever you have the chance to do so.If you used to tell her you loved her so much every morning ,continue to use the same word every now and then,this will actually remind her how it feels to be in love with you.this will remind her how much she has to do for you in your relationship.The same aspect if it continues it will make a diamond bond,so hard to break no matter which negative influence is in between the two of you.
2.CUDDLE THEM,HUG THEM,MAKE A CONTACT WHENEVER YOU ARE AROUND EACH OTHER..
This is so important in a relationship.If you have your partner close,holding her,touching her,hugging her,make her lay on you.Make sure you do anything possible to make her feel secure and safe when she is in your hands.Girls like the simple things,and the simple things are what make a girl fall for you deeply in love.We should never ignore this aspect.When we ignore it for about a week ,you will actually see a change in the behavior in the relationship and it won`t be that pleasing.The contact between you two creates a strong bond between you and your partner.It creates a memory,and it strengthen what you feel for one another.This is what brings about the urge to have one another.Now, tell me if this aspect is out.How will you bring the feelings between you and your partner?You will be actually going to an edge of losing your partner.
3.COME BEARING SIMPLE GIFTS AND SURPRISES.
We always see in the movies where lovers comes with flowers to their loved ones,They bring even a single rose to them and this amuse them.Something I would like you to know is that,the simple things that we think they don`t matter anymore in our relationships,they do matter a lot.It doesn`t need to be valentine when we rush for red flowers and buying gifts to our partners.Who said that valentine day is the only day people should be buying flowers or giving gifts to their partners? Everyday it has to be a valentine between you and your lover.If you are still healthy and strong never lose even a single second with your partner.Make her feel loved with simple surprises you do for her.Make her feel she has a man who is ready for her for the future.Make this a habit.Make a day,be it once a week,once a month,just pick a special day that she will always know that,that kind of a day is always special to her.This will actually haunt her whenever she is far from you when she reads at the calendar and find that the day you would always surprise her,she is not available for the surprise.
4.TELL HER,THAT YOU ALWAYS APPRECIATE HER EFFORT IN ANYTHING.
If your partner finds out that you always appreciate anything positive she does for you.She will always be happy to do anything for you.She will always ask you what you need,she will always want to know what is bothering you.Just because she knows there is someone appreciating every bit of thing that she does.This will make her even be more happy to offer any kind of help.this will actually made her love you most.A lady needs appreciation,no matter what small action she did for you.Doing this will actually enable you to win her heart.Use words like,"Thank you so much bae for your hand,I really appreciate your help,You are the best girl I ever had."Make her feel so comfortable with you.When she finds that you really don`t appreciate anything positive she does for you,and another of her male friend really appreciate even her sending a text message to him,do you think your relationship will be at a safe path?
5.GIVE HER SPACE,DON`T BE OVER PROTECTIVE,TOO JEALOUS.
You should be protective to anyone you love because you wouldn`t afford to lose them,you should always care about who she is always speaking to in her phone,you should also sometimes deny her do interact with certain people.It is so cute at sometimes to be jealous.I can`t let anyone flirt with my bae while am around,i can`t let anyone touch my girlfriend when I`m around her.This is what i call being protective,but it should not be excess to an extend that when she says hi to someone else you are already asking who he was.Remember before you met her,she had different friends,she had another man who actually is not you.So don`t go by and give her strict measure on who she should be saying hi too.When you pressure her too much she will start admiring how other girls are being treated with their boyfriends.She will even wish she never met you,just because of the simple things you put strict measure on.If she accepted to be your girlfriend,she said she loves you too,then you should trust her.You should realize that whatever she is doing is for better of both of you,let her play her part and play your part,you will never grab shoulders with one another.
We should always focus on thinking on positive things.Think positive,be healthy.You should not worry about the negatives.We should only create an atmosphere full of positive vibes.Do something with all your best and hope for the best to occur.Do something with your passion hoping you would achieve the best from it.If we live with this kind of attitude we will never get depressed at all.Most of the time people get depressed,because of getting worried on things that will never even come to happen in the near time,they get to store their emptiness and only thing negative things are going to happen to them.They don`t take a chance to speak it out with their closest people.The emotions accumulate to a higher stage,where now they cause depression.Something that only started at a negative attitude.
No matter how hard the situation is going to be in some stages of our lives,we should always have a positive attitude, that everything will work out well.Having this positive attitude keeps you energetic and keeps you ready to receive any challenge you are facing.This is the same attitude that will enable you to live happily.Rising up with a smile that is full of enthusiasm.
You have your girlfriend or wife.Don`t think negative of her.Don`t bring the feeling of doubt to her.Just trust her fully and believe that she is always doing the right thing.Suspecting her of infidelity will eventually make your relationship with her start to deteriorate.You won`t love her much as you used to love her in the beginning,you won`t care as you used to care.This negative feeling you always keep having about her will only rise chaos in your relationship.It will keep love away and only drive enmity in the relationship instead of peace and harmony.
I do agree sometimes we tend to realize that our partners are cheating.We will realize
when they now start changing their passwords in their cell phone,they will start hiding some texts from you,they will start acting differently,in away you never expected,but this does not mean you starting having negative attitudes towards them.Learn to let positive vibes flow.Be a man and confirm,ask her what is wrong,try to understand why she does so.This will create a good atmosphere for both of you.What I`m trying to emphasize here,try as much as possible to be always positive.Suspense always lead to vices.
Understand that your life was mean`t to be full of joy but not pain. Have a positive belief. Work out in a positive way,talk in a positive,live in a positive way and all will work out in a positive path.This is simple because positivity encourages a way for better enhancement of your current state,provides you with a reason to work more hard and smart to attain the best. People keep on trying even after their failure just because they have a positive vibe that what they are achieving currently it is not going to be the same they will achieve after five years to come.
LOVE IS SELFISH
Love is selfish,due to these reasons.You fall in love with a girl.You only want her.You cherish her.You take good care of her.She becomes the only thing that matters to you.She captures your heart.You capture her heart.You all now exist for one another.
A day passing without you seeing her,it makes your day a hell of a living.Your heart will burn up with desires wishing she was around.You will only want her to be there for you.You will do anything never to let her down.You will do anything to please her.Only her.Here i get a reason to say love is selfish.
You will walk thousands miles,while your heart is left behind.Behind to the girl, your love longs for.You are willing to make a contact with her,but there is no possibility.She does no```````t reach you out.You think she is busy with someone else.You have no chance of reaching out to her,she thinks too you are not thinking about her.She does not realise that you try so hard just to hear her voice.
Dark creeps in.You wish she was there for you.Only memory are there for you.The distance separates you.Miles away but only feelings for her exist.You see beautiful girls,with ambitions and future,but you are still attached to her and you only want her.Love is selfish.
Love needs care.Loves needs attention.Love needs both souls attached to each.When one detaches,love is gone.Love need connection from both ends.It does not care about the status.It does not care of the condition.It only exist without barriers and keeps going deep in to the souls.
Obsession occurs.Burning the heart.The cure is Love.Missing someone so deeply,not eyes can tell,not touch can tell,only the internal connection can quencher the thirst and cool the heart.Love is selfish.It only cares for it existence.It only focus on two.When love focus on more than two,then love dies.
Love sprouts in a daylight.With a minimum sunlight intensity,with a cool weather around it.With too much of the sunlight,love drops.
Love fights.You need someone so bad,She does not appear.You feel down,alone wondering.You feel empty around of thousands souls.You care for none.Do you know why?
Love is selfish.you spend time alone.Listening to the music alone.Sad songs,But in real sense you only care about the lyrics.You are hurt,yet you cannot move on.You only feel her.Only her.
What love taught me,
In the current world world, most of us never understand what love really means. We tend to fall in love without caution. We love unconditionally. We care too much. Without understanding the out come of its effect.
Love never chose where to grow, love does not care how it is propelled, love only cares how it is perceived. Teenagers mostly, do engage in relationships so easily. Without having a specific intention in the relationship, but only hoping that love will last forever.
Who ever said that love is always forever? Who ever said that every relationship will end up in a marriage? How many relationships have you been? How many relationships never worked out, because of one or two reason? I learnt a lot from love. Do you wanna know?
I remember back then when I was in high school. Very energetic and confidence. In our school there was a girl, who had been admitted so recently from another school. She was so beautiful. Her beauty is what really amazed me. It is not that I never met anyone beautiful like her. She was unique in her own way, and that what made me fall crazily for her without giving a second thought.
She always liked to sit alone during break time. She went to the dinning hall alone, She never had friends at first. She seemed never interested to interact with any girl or boy. Silent, and cool that how she was. She was a short girl, with a complexion of an Arab and African. Her skin color, you could tell she was a half cast.
She had big brown eyes, with long black hair. She was never slim or fat. Brilliant was her nature, I could hear this from her classmates talking about her. She was pretty good in business study.
Many boys were after her. I couldn`t stand that chance seeing her in someone`s else hands. I took initiative. One day as it was games time i saw her sitting alone at the basketball pitch. I stood aside for some seconds to think of how I`m going to start a conversation with her. I took advantage of my leadership. I was a very respected class captain. Most of the teachers recognized me as a student who is focused and moral upright, different from most of my school mates. They always caused chaos in school, smoking in school and some even engaged in the trafficking of drugs.
"Hello! How are you doing Sophia?" I greeted her. She seemed surprised. I knew her name. Guess boys always try to search for what they want.
"I`m doing great," She answered. She looked down and never put an eye on me.
"Why are you sitting here alone, while most of the students are in the field playing football, volleyball, netball, aren`t you a fan of any of the games?"
"I`m not interested to play any kind of games," She replied quickly.
"I prefer you to be in the field than sitting here alone, the games teacher does not recommend this at all, we can go together because I was heading there too and I thought it would be better if I accompany. I know you don`t have friends. I can be one."
She smiled.
I slowly went with her to the field, but then she had no games kit, neither did I. We went to the field and sat on the ground watching the the students playing and shouting. I looked at her when she was silent, and she never said a word. She looked at me and realised that i was looking at her too. She asked me my name, and why was I not playing any of the games.
That how the conversation started. She now started being open to me. She told me she liked to play basketball, in her previous school she was in her school team. This made me also to be open to her. We had an amazing conversation. I knew that she was so talkative, but she only talked to people who seemed to understand her.
People were so surprised how I managed to make a quick friendship with her. Sophia would not talk to most of the boys. Most of them would approach her, start flirting with her, and I guess is something that Sophia looked upon from those boys. This was different from me, I think that what made me get her trust that quick, and she knew I was the only boy she could trust.
We used to meet under the mango tree, which was just in front of the school block. I forgot to mention something, we were in boarding school. Girls had their own dorms a bit far from boys. This was so amazing, because I had the whole time in the world to make her believe that something would be between us.
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Days and months passed. I was so afraid to express my feelings to her. How could I told her that I wanted her to be my girlfriend? Yet many of the boys never managed to make friendship with her because of the same issues.
I started to avoid her. I would go break, even without passing across her class. I never even wanted to let her know what I was going through. By then she had some friends, One of them was called Tracy. A very cute girl who had also been admitted recently in our school. She was so hot as i can term her, but she was never hot like Sophia.
I decided to talk to Tracy after I realised she was her close friend. I told her about what I felt about Sophia. She asked why was I afraid to face her and tell her the truth. It was so hard for me. Thinking that I will break our friendship.
My friends knew what was going on. They knew because my whole character and behavior of being chicky and funny. It had been turned into the silent of the grave. I would not talk in class. I would late my Assistant Class Captain to take over the duties of the whole class. In the dormitory. I would only greet them, and lay on my bed looking at the white ceiling board. Wondering in my own world.
As time went. I knew this feeling would set me on fire. I decided to stand against my own fear. I knew i would lose her. Our friendship bond wasn`t gonna make it with such a silence. Many boys too, were after the same jewel!
One day as I was going outside of the class. Making my way out of the tuition block. I met her. She stared at me. I stood. I looked at her too. I abruptly told her that, i would like to talk to her. She never hesitated, She knew there was something wrong with me. She was eager to know what was it.
We went together to the basketball pitch.We sat around the pavements. Which were painted black at white that made the path ways looked so amazing. The same path ways would be cleaned everyday in the morning. The students who would come late to school, would be punished by cleaning the school compound. I was responsible for such kind of work. I would give each student their portion to work on. I would later come to check if the place had been cleaned up thoroughly.
"Sophia..." I started to talk to her. The voice was not clear. I cleared my throat.
"I know you have not been able to talk to me, to be honest I was the cause of us not communicating. I really do blame myself for that. I made you feel lonely, I made you feel so broke. I`m so sorry for that." I tried to let her understood why I had changed so suddenly. I thought she would say anything. She never said a word. She just looked at me while biting her lips.
It was a hard time for me to go on. I never knew how she was feeling about me. My thoughts were at race, while my heart was burning in flames. I felt the urge to hold her, hug her and tell her what i feel about her. This was not possible. I put more courage, and continued to talk to her.
"I know what I might say, may sound so offensive to you. I want you to understand, I don`t want you to hate me as you do to most of the boys in school. I don`t want you to break our friendship after I have told you what I feel about you. I want you to know, the moments that i was silent, never even want to see you. I was thinking on how i was going to express what I feel for you. I know it may sound crazy. We have been knowing each other for a short time, and such kind of feelings evolved so quick. Don`t feel like I just want to use you, being honest. I`m I love with you so much."
She looked at me and never said a word. She looked down. Her face frowned, in a way I never seen it before. I knew I had already annoyed her. I knew she will never want to talk to me anymore. Will she categorize me as the other boys in school? Will she accept my proposal? As I was thinking what to say next. She stood and walk away without even saying a word
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I was curious to know what she had decided. I was never at peace. My whole concentration in class was diverted. I never was able to listen to the lectures in class. I used to wake up very late for classes. I used to skip the morning preps too. The Morning preps, were supposed to start at exactly 5:30 am. I was not able to wake up at such a time.
I felt no need to continue with my studies. My esteem was so low. I guess this is why teachers in school kept on advising us not to engage in relationships. This would have great negative impact in our studies. I was in my own world. Sometimes I would just decide not to go class and spend the whole day in the school hall where I would write. I would write what I felt.
I used to find peace in writing. I had a diary, which I used only to write the things that were significant. The diary mostly involved love quotes, love stories and my own secrets that I would never allow anyone to know them. The secrets, carried the weaknesses, that I would never allow anyone to know.
Several weeks passed. I convinced myself I would be strong know matter what happened. "You have to appreciate the fact you are still alive and that what matters most. In this world you have to accept rejection and denial for you to move on. You will never always be accepted no matter how good you will be, before people."
I took back my responsibilities after two weeks. I focused much on my studies. I tried to forget even if she existed. It was noon when I was heading to the dining hall. I was alone, holding a novel in my hand. I saw Tracy, she seemed so happy.
"Hello, charles why are you so silent nowadays? Everyone is talking about you. Most of the student say that, it is not a usual thing for you to be like this, though I have known you so recently, it doesn`t mean I won`t ask you how you are doing."
"I`m fine Tracy, no need to worry about me." I replied as I continued to walk.
"Come on charles Have you forgotten what you told me some few weeks back? Are you turning against her!" She asked me loudly.
I stood and turned back to her. "I cannot turn against her, but I know she hates me, she do not see the good in me, nothing bad I ever did to her. If she finds it okay to be on her own it`s cool." I replied in a low voice, I never wanted some of my classmates who were passing to hear the conversation.
"Why are you giving up so easily? You should never give up on something that you want so badly. I know you, charles, you are so much in love with Sophia. I want to tell you that, she said she wants to talk to you. She was never able to come personally to you. She thinks that you are mad at her. She was so much afraid, Sophia thinks, she completely hurted your feelings. She is so much sorry."
Tracy walked away. I stood there frozen, filled with emotions.
I went to the dinning hall so happy. I knew that she had considered my request. My heart was enlighten, my face was filled with joy. That was the best feeling I ever felt the past two weeks. I now had hope, that everything will be alright.
The next day, was on Tuesday. The day begun so cool. I could hear noise from every part of the dormitory. My friends were shouting, talking about the football match that was played between Manchester United and Chelsea. I was not a fun of football, and I``m still not a fun. Some were putting on their uniforms readily for their classes.
I felt so light. It was like I had spent the whole night doing work out. I prepared myself and left the dormitory. I was the last to leave. The first lesson was mathematics. The teacher who taught us mathematics was so full of humor.
He really liked to tell stories. His lesson would be divided to two. The lesson only supposed to go for forty minutes. Those who were keen enough would find that, that teacher only used twenty minutes to teach Mathematics and the remaining twenty minutes to give out life skills. I really liked him, because sometimes he tried to make me understand that, a man should always be ready for anything. As a man responsibilities will always be there.
Time flew. The bell rang. You would hear noises all over the tuition block. Some students shouting, while others dragging their lockers, something that our principal really hated. If you would be found dragging lockers, you would spend the whole day in the field slashing.
I walked quickly outside the tuition block. As I was making my way to the canteen, I saw Sophia, she was sitting at the pavement. The same place we sat when we started talking. I never wanted her to see me. Unfortunately, she saw me. She called me.
It was so hard for me to resist her call. After all I was truly in love with her. I went close to her and sat by her side.
"I`m so sorry Charles, I never knew what to tell you, that why I walked away, I never wanted to annoy you. Please understand me. I know you are still mad at me." Sophia explained herself in a romantic manner, suggesting that she was so much in love too.
"It is okay."
"Is that what you all want to say?" She asked.
"The only thing right now I want to hear from you, is your final decision. Tell me, do you love me?"
"I still don`t know if I love you, but I feel something for you. I really don`t understand what I feel for you."
I was annoyed when I
heard her saying those words. I knew there was no chance for me. I tried to walk away. She held me back.She said, " I love you Abduljabbar."
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The relationship was so amazing everyone admired it. We loved each other so much. We were always available for each other. We would never let a day pass without us talking.
She made feel complete. I never thought to walk away from school even a single day. Though some days we would be allowed to go home, I would have never gone when Sophia was still in school.
We were not allowed as students to have a romantic relationship in school. I never cared, but the school was so strict. School captain, some used to call him the president of the school president used to appoint spies to write down those students who were dating in school.
If you would be found talking to a girl around six pm, you would be noted down by the spies. I never knew the spies though I was one of the prefects in school. This was a real secret. I never bothered to know them, because I was a class captain. I was a leader too.
It is so hard to reveal your fellow leader. As we know in schools sometimes we favor the people we work with.
The whole school knew Sophia and I were dating. No one could take us to the school principal. We were the best couple in school. We had some other students dating too, but their relationships compared to ours, we were the trending example of love in school.
During the weekends, we had entertainment within our school. All students would gather in the school hall where we would watch movies. The allocated time to watch movies was from seven pm to ten am where everyone would go back to their dormitories to sleep.
During this time, if you had your girlfriend, it would have been the perfect time to have fun, talk without restrictions, if you were clever enough you would do more. At this time the patron was busy in her room with her children singing for them lullaby.
Students took advantage of this time. Here, you would know people adequately when there are no restrictions. The world of school seemed so beautiful. Those who never used to like watching movies would be reading.
I used to let my girlfriend lay on my shoulder as we watched Indian movies. Most of the students enjoyed watching Indians movies. They had super love stories that were catchy. Emotionally and that would make one drop tears.
I remember we watched Aashiqui 2 together, I considered the best time we had in school together. I loved her so much. I used to think of her so much. She was all over my head, I never concentrated so much in class as I used to.
I would only think, of the time I was going out of the class to meet her. This made me change so much. I never was any longer responsible. I was obsessed. She was so much in love too. We became love birds. We were always together whenever we went, expect in the dormitory and washrooms.
We were inseparable. The bond was so strong. I would fight for her, she would do the same. I remember one day I almost beat my friend, he was flirting with my girlfriend and I couldn`t tolerate it. It was a habit and I had to stop it. I was short-tempered and that was my weakness.
She became the other weakness.
This made me lose focus on my studies. I remember I used to be Top five, but I dropped to position seven, and it went on until I was position Eleven is when I wake up from the love slumber.
Things started to take a negative turn. Challenges crept in. She was strong, she was performing well in class. I was the one having a problem. People started to talk of us in a negative way. The teachers also now started calling me in their offices. They would counsel me without knowing, what I was going through.
They thought, I was depressed, but I was in love, they never knew it. I held dearly to it. I was falling on the other side but rising on the love side. I was in my own heaven. I never wanted chaos.
Will I really make it out? Is the relationship going to be stable?
Wait for the next part. Thanks for reading.
We all have people whom we admire. We wish our relationship was like that of so and so. They seem to be happy together without any problems. You see them enjoying. Their posts in social media, you feel they are the perfect couples ever.
I would like to let you know that every relationship has it own fault. When you see people happy together it doesn't mean they do not face some shit. People go through a lot in their relationships, they just swallow up their shit and move on.
When you want to be happy in your relationship, you should ignore some of the things that will be happening. When you keep on trying to find fault in your partner, or trying to investigate your partner's connection, who she/he talks to, who he/she hangs with, this will be a point of bringing conflict in your relationship.
Don't go and check texts from his/her phone, just because you want to find out the people he or she talks to. Jealousy is good to some extend, but when it is excess it ruins. She/he said he loves you, then hold onto it, make her happy when you see she is also trying to do the same. Make it amazing. Trust your partner. This will be source of happiness to both of you.
When you are in a relationship don't expect that everyday, each one of you will wake up with joyous face. Sometimes everyone wakes up on their worst moods. They don't feel to talk to
anyone or greet anyone, but later during the day the mods will embark on normal.
Lovers will always fight for one or two reasons. I remember fighting with my bae just because who is supposed to text the other first. She insisted that I should take the fore front to do so. In real sense we both have to take initiative to text one another. People out there think that we are the happiest couples, when they see us walking in the streets laughing, holding hands,they think we are always in our right vows. A lot of shit do happen but we keep it that to ourselves, we sit down and solve the issues we have in decent way, we don't go putting petty issues in our hearts. This makes us the happiest couples.
You should hold on to your partner no matter how worst the situation. The problems will never be there everyday. The course of a true relationship will never run smoothly. You will have to be strong. We all expect the best in our relationships, we all want things to work out the way we want, but you also have to know that not all days things will work out.
You will have fights, you will even think of breaking up with your partner. I remember I was in this state, I spent hours thinking and tears doping. Love is so powerful. What comes from it needs a strong heart, weak hearts will always melt down. You might end up doing something that you will regret doing it in your life.
Shit do happen, but running away from it will never make it a solution, walking away from your partner will either be, stick with one another through your best and worst days. Challenges will always arise. The challenges are meant to make both of you strong, and teach you a life lesson. So that when you plan to make your life together, you should understand that shit will always happen.
Days and months went by. We continued to fall in love with each other so much. The extend of love and feelings was almost getting out of the edge of our skins. It was the best feeling, worth for our existence. The feelings became much bold. Nothing could be hidden from the two of us.
We yearned for more, we needed a physical contact. This was impossible to occur at the school compound. The feelings were so much that weakened her and I. Whenever we met, only smile and romantic hand shakes full of intimacy would follow. Love has a strong connection if it is real.
This is the period I found myself completely in love. Leave alone the relationship I had when I was in primary. Where I knew nothing much, than touching and hugging. The girl I had in primary was so beautiful too. She was a half cast of an Arab and Swahili. We meet in our primary school. We dated from class 5 to 8. Nothing much we would do than sharing food, and escort each other home.
The relationship between Sophia and I was mature. It had sense of intimacy. This made us to be in need of maximum privacy. We started meeting secretly when we had no classes. We would wonder in the field, sit in the trenches together. This was a cool place to sit when there was no rain. The trenches would be dry. The trenches were surrounded by tall tress, which give an inclusive shade.
We would share our family stories, how each of our parents would react when we fell in mistakes. We shared so much to a point, everyone knew about each other`s background.
The school rules and regulation did not allow a boy and a girl to be spotted speaking together at exactly 6 am. We never cared. We only allowed our feelings to drive us. One day, the old woman. The school matron saw us talking together at around 7am. She came and warned us. We never paid heed.
Students around the school realized that we were at danger. The school matron had reported us to the school principal. Some of my friends came to inform me. I was worried now! I knew it was a real issue and it will lead to something terrible. I started avoiding her. We talked about it. We had planned to stay away from each other until the issues of relationships in school subsided.
It was too hard for us. We were used to each other. The loneliness crept in. I started feeling like I was missing apart of me. The days that seemed to move in a flash, were now lagging behind. I could not stand the fact seeing her talking with other boys. This really hurted my feelings. At last I said,"Let whatever will happen, happen."
We continued hanging out as before. We thought nothing was going to happen until we were spotted again by the matron at the tuition block together. I remember it was on Friday. The next day which was Saturday we were all called to the principal`s office. We were all tensed. I was courageous enough not to care. I was only worried of her, forgetting that I also had my questions to answer and a punishment to be given.
We entered went to the principal`s office. We stood outside first. There was a visitor in his office so we had to wait until the visitor goes. We looked at each other for about one minute without saying a word. She started Asking,"Ara what will we say to the principal?"
"Nothing, we will wait for him to decide because we have gone against the school rules."
"I`m so sorry Ara, I have brought all these to you."
"Nothing you should be sorry about. If you love me hold onto me, we will get through this."
She held my hand looked into my eyes. She was so worried. I could tell how she reacted. After 5 minutes the visitor was out, the principal never realized that were outside waiting. I wanted to go into the office, but Sophia held my hand. She was so much afraid of what might come out of that office. We had no alternative. Even if we decided not to go in. We will still be found.
"Ara I love you so much." She said.
"I love you big Swerfie." That was her nick name. She loved it.
We enter in the principal`s office. It was my not my first time to enter the principal`s office. I entered the principal`s office to report some of the notorious students in my class. I took the list of noise makers to him when the teacher on duty or the class teacher was not available. Beside the the principal`s chairs there was 3 trophies. These trophies were won by mathematics student. I looked at the corner, I saw sticks that were used to punish the notorious students.
The principal gave us permission to sit down. We sat before him. He leaned on his black, leather chair and started turning right and left. He cleared his throat and starting asking.
"Are you the students that have decided that you will stay in this school with your own rules.?"
We remained silent, we never said a word.
He asked again,"I`m I talking to deaf people?"
"No sir," I replied.
"Is it true that the two are in a relationship?''
"No sir, we are only friends." She replied.
"When did you knew each other? Where did you two met?" The principal asked several questions at a go. This indicated a negative sign to us.
"We knew each other when were in primary school." I decide to lie. Sophia looked at me. She never expected this from me. She knew me as a honest person. What she never understood is that when it came to time of our safety we have to keep the good side of us away.
"The two of you have been seen several time together, on the time that is not recommended. We are not teaching students to be parents. We are educating student to have the best conduct. Do you want to portray the name of the school in a negative way?"
We kept quiet. The principal asked for my name and my ADM no. He pulled out a fulls-cap from his file. He started writing. Sophia looked so regretful. She started to cry. Tears rolling down from her pretty eyes. I was shocked too. I knew that was a letter for me to be expelled out of school. After two minutes the principal gave the paper with a stamp on it.
"I`m giving you 10 minutes, you should be out of this compound. From today hence forth you will be a day scholar. Go and pick whatever is yours in the dormitory and leave the school. As for the girl, you are going to have a punishment."
We left the principal`s office. I was so worried. I trembled within. I thought of what I was going to tell my sponsors. I knew I would lie my father and all will be fine. Outside the principal`s office Sophia held my hand. She pulled me closer and we kissed outside the office. I never felt anything, I was numb then. I held her back, though I was in hurrying to leave the school as I was instructed by the principle. I went down the stairs quickly as I was heading out of the tuition block.
Down the tuition block entry and exit, there was several students. They knew that I was going home. They saw the paper I was holding. I heard them talking about Sophia and I.
I went and packed everything that I knew I would use to prepare myself to come to school the coming Monday. I took my school uniforms which were about six pairs, my pair of shoes, shoe polish and my text books. It was dangerous to leave the books in the metal box.
I walked straight to the gate while my back pack was full. I was so sad, not because I had been suspended from the boarding school. I was afraid of the kind of life will Sophia have in school while I`m away. She was used to me. I felt the world was not fair at all. I developed hatred for the school. For everything that stood as an obstacles between the two of us.
When I reached at the gate. I showed the watchman the letter and passed. I heard someone calling my name while I was out of the school gate. It was her. She waved at me. I looked at her and turned away.
I arrived home safely with my heart on my palm. I never knew what to say. How could I tell my father that I had been suspended from school because I was involved in a relationship? How would I explain that I'm no longer going back to boarding?
My father received me without knowing what have been happening in school. I never gave him the letter. I kept it to myself. He asked why I was home that day, yet I was supposed to be at school then. I told him that I had missed home.
I stayed at home for about three days. This gave him a negative indication. He started questioning me again about my departure from school. I was stranded. I had no idea of how I could on how I could convince him to understand me.
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I brought up lame excuses so that he could transfer me to another school. In back of my mind I had the same idea of changing the school I was. I never liked it at the first place. I just got admitted because I had no another alternative. My sponsors had no enough time to look for a better high school for me.
What is offered to you take it, better a half bread than none. The following week that started I went back to school, but now as a day scholar. I used to wake up so early. Though my father never liked it, he was so much concerned of my safety since we used to live in a marginalized area with no security at all. I told him that I had to be in school on time. My father was pretty annoyed with me. I now had added another burden for him.
By then life was kinda rough. Paying our bills and make sure we get something to eat was the business of our daily life. I was not alone, I had siblings but they used to live with my mother. My parents had divorced since 2009. My dad had to take care of the family even if he had divorced with her.
It was like he was taking care of two houses. He found it hard giving me fare everyday. I started hating myself for such a huge problem I brought to my father. At the end of the day I said,"It is his responsibility."
Back in school was all chaos. I couldn't face her. I thought she was all the fault of what I had been through. She came to console me and asked me how my dad was doing. She knew I was staying with my dad only. I couldn't avoid her charm. Whenever I looked at her she drew me closer and even closer.
My heart was tied to her. All over a sudden we were all back to the normal lane. The different was that I wasn't able to spend more time with her. 5pm I had to be out of school compound. Student In school started talking and backbiting about us. Something they never understood is how I was a slave of her heart. I never cared.After all that is what humans always do.
Time was flying. It was in July 2016. I was in form two back then. Our candidates were preparing for the final exam. They planned a farewell party. The whole school had to contribute Ksh 50 and the officials were supposed to contribute 500 per head. I was one of the officials. I never contributed anything at all. We would be at the meeting and I would give thousands reason why I wasn't able to contribute.
In a period of two weeks time, the farewell party was held. The school was cleaned thoroughly. The hall was moped, the tables were cleaned. The decorations made the hall super amazing. In front of the wall of the wall there were white and blue curtain. The tables that were arranged in front were covered with blue and white coverings.
The bottles of Coca Cola and Mineral water were arranged in pattern at the table. The creates of Sodas were at the corner of the hall. Many schools had been invited. Girls and boys had prepared themselves adequately to receive these guests. Some planned to get new boyfriends and girlfriends. During such a function, it was the appropriate time to find your match.
I was helping the other officials to make sure that everything was in order. I had the responsibility to allocate students at the school gate where they would receive the visitors register them and usher them into the hall. Everyone was busy that day.
I remember I was heading to the tuition block when I met Sophia. She was so cool. That her usual nature. She had ironed her uniforms that fit so well in her slim body. She had worn a white hijab. That day she worn open shoes. She smiled and walked away to the dormitory.
She was in a good mood. Maybe it was all about the party that was going on. I went to the tuition block and pick my back pack which I had locked it in my locker. The tuition block was empty. No one was in the mood of learning that day. The atmosphere was of parting, celebrating and jumping all around the school compound.
I closed the class and walked out quickly. As I was walking towards the hall I saw students all over the school compound. They were in pairs, you would think it was a dating party. No teacher would bother you that day. The watchman never cared of who enters the school nor who leaves the school.
I took this as an amazing opportunity to hang out with my bae. I started looking for her. Later on after a thorough searching I found her behind the dormitory which was close to the back door of the hall.
"Hello! How are you doing?"
"I'm fine, as you can see me."
"The environment today seems so cool and everyone is happy, most people have been getting out of the school without any restriction, maybe we can make it out and have some fun." I said it while winking.
"It is a good idea, we can go and come back before the party is over." She said bravely.
This was made a plan. She yearned too much for privacy outside the school compound. I never hesitated. I really wanted it too. She quickly went to the dormitory and picked her bag. I also went to pick what we would use when we will be out for a short time.
I had Ksh 800 which is equivalent to 8 dollars which seems pretty much for a student. I put few clothes in the back and walked out of the dormitory. As a coincidence we both got out of the dormitory at the same time.
My friends asked me where I was going, but I kept it a secret. They knew I was leaving with Sophia since they also saw with her back pack. I was the first to leave the school compound and she followed back. The gate-man was not at the gate. This made it easy for us to walk out so easily.
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I remember the day that I ran away from school, we were a lot of students. We had even never changed our school uniform. We decided to go to the beach 🏖 and have some fun. My friends had their cameras, mobile phones and some had Bluetooth speakers 🔊.
We listen to music, ate pizza 🍕, we created humor amongst ourselves. The day seemed so great. The sun ☀ was at it considerable temperatures. The sand was warm, the water was so cool 😎. That was the best day ever when I think of the days when I was in high school. We were group of 5 naughty boys.
Sometimes might be in groups just discussing about girls.I surely knew that most of my friends have their girlfriends.I was the odd one out.I really used to hate such topics but I couldn`t walk away from such conversation.they would get deeply in conversation about the girls they have next door.They would at last pause a question to me.
"Charles just tell us the truth,have you have had a girlfriend?"They would ask me.
"Hey! John come one what kind of question are you trying to ask me?"I would reply furiously.
"Just answer the question charles,we all know that you don`t have a girlfriend.You are so shy to face any girl."
I would slowly walk away from them pretending to go to the wash room.They actually knew I was leaving secretly.They would just come by and stop me,and try to make to speak with any girl around just to intimidate me.I was tensed,I only said hi,and I kept silent.
honestly I used to like girls but not to be in an intimate relationship with them.This made some of my friend think negative of me.I used to tell them that I don`t want to have a girl whom I will hurt,Simple because they had more than one girl.They really did cheat to them.I felt pity for the girls who blindly fell in love with my friends.
That the nature,being a boy sometimes,especially a teenager.You would wan`t to take chance to do multiple of things at a go without realising the worst of it.I used to say i`ll never hurt any girl whom i will be having and any chik who agrees to be with me will be so happy.I used to care so much.
The thing that I would like the chiks to know is that most of the boys if they are actually in love with you,it is so true and real,they will wish to sacrifice anything for you,but the problem arise when,the same girls tend to change,is when most of the boys think to look for a safe place to hide.If it is your first love you will actually never think of seeking to keep your heart at a safe place.You would love deeply and hoping that,the same girl is the one you are going to marry.That so fun of it,But at the moment when ,we get hurt ,everything changes you become so cautious,you don`t love that deeply,you just care a little bit. That is the fear of being hurt again.Sometimes boys do cheat for a reason.
Hello!
I would like to talk about something that most of us should never ignore when we need our relationships to works out.As we know most of the relationships might end up just because of tiny,petty issues that you have been ignoring from your partner or you have been ignoring to do them.Love has to be a two way traffic,by than more fun will be created out of it,the more fun the more the bond of the relationship will be.
Here are the few things we should not ignore from our partner:-
1.NEVER FORGET TO TELL THEM HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM
Love is mainly based on how much we talk and do with our partners.Words are so powerful,words can create and can break,words can make your relationship hold on too strong or the same words can terminate it.Remember,the same words you used when you were flirting with her,use the same words everyday and try to remind them how important they are to you.Use the same words to make them feel loved and cared for still.Express your feelings whenever you have the chance to do so.If you used to tell her you loved her so much every morning ,continue to use the same word every now and then,this will actually remind her how it feels to be in love with you.this will remind her how much she has to do for you in your relationship.The same aspect if it continues it will make a diamond bond,so hard to break no matter which negative influence is in between the two of you.
2.CUDDLE THEM,HUG THEM,MAKE A CONTACT WHENEVER YOU ARE AROUND EACH OTHER..
This is so important in a relationship.If you have your partner close,holding her,touching her,hugging her,make her lay on you.Make sure you do anything possible to make her feel secure and safe when she is in your hands.Girls like the simple things,and the simple things are what make a girl fall for you deeply in love.We should never ignore this aspect.When we ignore it for about a week ,you will actually see a change in the behavior in the relationship and it won`t be that pleasing.The contact between you two creates a strong bond between you and your partner.It creates a memory,and it strengthen what you feel for one another.This is what brings about the urge to have one another.Now, tell me if this aspect is out.How will you bring the feelings between you and your partner?You will be actually going to an edge of losing your partner.
3.COME BEARING SIMPLE GIFTS AND SURPRISES.
We always see in the movies where lovers comes with flowers to their loved ones,They bring even a single rose to them and this amuse them.Something I would like you to know is that,the simple things that we think they don`t matter anymore in our relationships,they do matter a lot.It doesn`t need to be valentine when we rush for red flowers and buying gifts to our partners.Who said that valentine day is the only day people should be buying flowers or giving gifts to their partners? Everyday it has to be a valentine between you and your lover.If you are still healthy and strong never lose even a single second with your partner.Make her feel loved with simple surprises you do for her.Make her feel she has a man who is ready for her for the future.Make this a habit.Make a day,be it once a week,once a month,just pick a special day that she will always know that,that kind of a day is always special to her.This will actually haunt her whenever she is far from you when she reads at the calendar and find that the day you would always surprise her,she is not available for the surprise.
4.TELL HER,THAT YOU ALWAYS APPRECIATE HER EFFORT IN ANYTHING.
If your partner finds out that you always appreciate anything positive she does for you.She will always be happy to do anything for you.She will always ask you what you need,she will always want to know what is bothering you.Just because she knows there is someone appreciating every bit of thing that she does.This will make her even be more happy to offer any kind of help.this will actually made her love you most.A lady needs appreciation,no matter what small action she did for you.Doing this will actually enable you to win her heart.Use words like,"Thank you so much bae for your hand,I really appreciate your help,You are the best girl I ever had."Make her feel so comfortable with you.When she finds that you really don`t appreciate anything positive she does for you,and another of her male friend really appreciate even her sending a text message to him,do you think your relationship will be at a safe path?
5.GIVE HER SPACE,DON`T BE OVER PROTECTIVE,TOO JEALOUS.
You should be protective to anyone you love because you wouldn`t afford to lose them,you should always care about who she is always speaking to in her phone,you should also sometimes deny her do interact with certain people.It is so cute at sometimes to be jealous.I can`t let anyone flirt with my bae while am around,i can`t let anyone touch my girlfriend when I`m around her.This is what i call being protective,but it should not be excess to an extend that when she says hi to someone else you are already asking who he was.Remember before you met her,she had different friends,she had another man who actually is not you.So don`t go by and give her strict measure on who she should be saying hi too.When you pressure her too much she will start admiring how other girls are being treated with their boyfriends.She will even wish she never met you,just because of the simple things you put strict measure on.If she accepted to be your girlfriend,she said she loves you too,then you should trust her.You should realize that whatever she is doing is for better of both of you,let her play her part and play your part,you will never grab shoulders with one another.
We should always focus on thinking on positive things.Think positive,be healthy.You should not worry about the negatives.We should only create an atmosphere full of positive vibes.Do something with all your best and hope for the best to occur.Do something with your passion hoping you would achieve the best from it.If we live with this kind of attitude we will never get depressed at all.Most of the time people get depressed,because of getting worried on things that will never even come to happen in the near time,they get to store their emptiness and only thing negative things are going to happen to them.They don`t take a chance to speak it out with their closest people.The emotions accumulate to a higher stage,where now they cause depression.Something that only started at a negative attitude.
No matter how hard the situation is going to be in some stages of our lives,we should always have a positive attitude, that everything will work out well.Having this positive attitude keeps you energetic and keeps you ready to receive any challenge you are facing.This is the same attitude that will enable you to live happily.Rising up with a smile that is full of enthusiasm.
You have your girlfriend or wife.Don`t think negative of her.Don`t bring the feeling of doubt to her.Just trust her fully and believe that she is always doing the right thing.Suspecting her of infidelity will eventually make your relationship with her start to deteriorate.You won`t love her much as you used to love her in the beginning,you won`t care as you used to care.This negative feeling you always keep having about her will only rise chaos in your relationship.It will keep love away and only drive enmity in the relationship instead of peace and harmony.
I do agree sometimes we tend to realize that our partners are cheating.We will realize
when they now start changing their passwords in their cell phone,they will start hiding some texts from you,they will start acting differently,in away you never expected,but this does not mean you starting having negative attitudes towards them.Learn to let positive vibes flow.Be a man and confirm,ask her what is wrong,try to understand why she does so.This will create a good atmosphere for both of you.What I`m trying to emphasize here,try as much as possible to be always positive.Suspense always lead to vices.
Understand that your life was mean`t to be full of joy but not pain. Have a positive belief. Work out in a positive way,talk in a positive,live in a positive way and all will work out in a positive path.This is simple because positivity encourages a way for better enhancement of your current state,provides you with a reason to work more hard and smart to attain the best. People keep on trying even after their failure just because they have a positive vibe that what they are achieving currently it is not going to be the same they will achieve after five years to come.
LOVE IS SELFISH
Love is selfish,due to these reasons.You fall in love with a girl.You only want her.You cherish her.You take good care of her.She becomes the only thing that matters to you.She captures your heart.You capture her heart.You all now exist for one another.
A day passing without you seeing her,it makes your day a hell of a living.Your heart will burn up with desires wishing she was around.You will only want her to be there for you.You will do anything never to let her down.You will do anything to please her.Only her.Here i get a reason to say love is selfish.
You will walk thousands miles,while your heart is left behind.Behind to the girl, your love longs for.You are willing to make a contact with her,but there is no possibility.She does no```````t reach you out.You think she is busy with someone else.You have no chance of reaching out to her,she thinks too you are not thinking about her.She does not realise that you try so hard just to hear her voice.
Dark creeps in.You wish she was there for you.Only memory are there for you.The distance separates you.Miles away but only feelings for her exist.You see beautiful girls,with ambitions and future,but you are still attached to her and you only want her.Love is selfish.
Love needs care.Loves needs attention.Love needs both souls attached to each.When one detaches,love is gone.Love need connection from both ends.It does not care about the status.It does not care of the condition.It only exist without barriers and keeps going deep in to the souls.
Obsession occurs.Burning the heart.The cure is Love.Missing someone so deeply,not eyes can tell,not touch can tell,only the internal connection can quencher the thirst and cool the heart.Love is selfish.It only cares for it existence.It only focus on two.When love focus on more than two,then love dies.
Love sprouts in a daylight.With a minimum sunlight intensity,with a cool weather around it.With too much of the sunlight,love drops.
Love fights.You need someone so bad,She does not appear.You feel down,alone wondering.You feel empty around of thousands souls.You care for none.Do you know why?
Love is selfish.you spend time alone.Listening to the music alone.Sad songs,But in real sense you only care about the lyrics.You are hurt,yet you cannot move on.You only feel her.Only her.
What love taught me,
In the current world world, most of us never understand what love really means. We tend to fall in love without caution. We love unconditionally. We care too much. Without understanding the out come of its effect.
Love never chose where to grow, love does not care how it is propelled, love only cares how it is perceived. Teenagers mostly, do engage in relationships so easily. Without having a specific intention in the relationship, but only hoping that love will last forever.
Who ever said that love is always forever? Who ever said that every relationship will end up in a marriage? How many relationships have you been? How many relationships never worked out, because of one or two reason? I learnt a lot from love. Do you wanna know?
I remember back then when I was in high school. Very energetic and confidence. In our school there was a girl, who had been admitted so recently from another school. She was so beautiful. Her beauty is what really amazed me. It is not that I never met anyone beautiful like her. She was unique in her own way, and that what made me fall crazily for her without giving a second thought.
She always liked to sit alone during break time. She went to the dinning hall alone, She never had friends at first. She seemed never interested to interact with any girl or boy. Silent, and cool that how she was. She was a short girl, with a complexion of an Arab and African. Her skin color, you could tell she was a half cast.
She had big brown eyes, with long black hair. She was never slim or fat. Brilliant was her nature, I could hear this from her classmates talking about her. She was pretty good in business study.
Many boys were after her. I couldn`t stand that chance seeing her in someone`s else hands. I took initiative. One day as it was games time i saw her sitting alone at the basketball pitch. I stood aside for some seconds to think of how I`m going to start a conversation with her. I took advantage of my leadership. I was a very respected class captain. Most of the teachers recognized me as a student who is focused and moral upright, different from most of my school mates. They always caused chaos in school, smoking in school and some even engaged in the trafficking of drugs.
"Hello! How are you doing Sophia?" I greeted her. She seemed surprised. I knew her name. Guess boys always try to search for what they want.
"I`m doing great," She answered. She looked down and never put an eye on me.
"Why are you sitting here alone, while most of the students are in the field playing football, volleyball, netball, aren`t you a fan of any of the games?"
"I`m not interested to play any kind of games," She replied quickly.
"I prefer you to be in the field than sitting here alone, the games teacher does not recommend this at all, we can go together because I was heading there too and I thought it would be better if I accompany. I know you don`t have friends. I can be one."
She smiled.
I slowly went with her to the field, but then she had no games kit, neither did I. We went to the field and sat on the ground watching the the students playing and shouting. I looked at her when she was silent, and she never said a word. She looked at me and realised that i was looking at her too. She asked me my name, and why was I not playing any of the games.
That how the conversation started. She now started being open to me. She told me she liked to play basketball, in her previous school she was in her school team. This made me also to be open to her. We had an amazing conversation. I knew that she was so talkative, but she only talked to people who seemed to understand her.
People were so surprised how I managed to make a quick friendship with her. Sophia would not talk to most of the boys. Most of them would approach her, start flirting with her, and I guess is something that Sophia looked upon from those boys. This was different from me, I think that what made me get her trust that quick, and she knew I was the only boy she could trust.
We used to meet under the mango tree, which was just in front of the school block. I forgot to mention something, we were in boarding school. Girls had their own dorms a bit far from boys. This was so amazing, because I had the whole time in the world to make her believe that something would be between us.
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Days and months passed. I was so afraid to express my feelings to her. How could I told her that I wanted her to be my girlfriend? Yet many of the boys never managed to make friendship with her because of the same issues.
I started to avoid her. I would go break, even without passing across her class. I never even wanted to let her know what I was going through. By then she had some friends, One of them was called Tracy. A very cute girl who had also been admitted recently in our school. She was so hot as i can term her, but she was never hot like Sophia.
I decided to talk to Tracy after I realised she was her close friend. I told her about what I felt about Sophia. She asked why was I afraid to face her and tell her the truth. It was so hard for me. Thinking that I will break our friendship.
My friends knew what was going on. They knew because my whole character and behavior of being chicky and funny. It had been turned into the silent of the grave. I would not talk in class. I would late my Assistant Class Captain to take over the duties of the whole class. In the dormitory. I would only greet them, and lay on my bed looking at the white ceiling board. Wondering in my own world.
As time went. I knew this feeling would set me on fire. I decided to stand against my own fear. I knew i would lose her. Our friendship bond wasn`t gonna make it with such a silence. Many boys too, were after the same jewel!
One day as I was going outside of the class. Making my way out of the tuition block. I met her. She stared at me. I stood. I looked at her too. I abruptly told her that, i would like to talk to her. She never hesitated, She knew there was something wrong with me. She was eager to know what was it.
We went together to the basketball pitch.We sat around the pavements. Which were painted black at white that made the path ways looked so amazing. The same path ways would be cleaned everyday in the morning. The students who would come late to school, would be punished by cleaning the school compound. I was responsible for such kind of work. I would give each student their portion to work on. I would later come to check if the place had been cleaned up thoroughly.
"Sophia..." I started to talk to her. The voice was not clear. I cleared my throat.
"I know you have not been able to talk to me, to be honest I was the cause of us not communicating. I really do blame myself for that. I made you feel lonely, I made you feel so broke. I`m so sorry for that." I tried to let her understood why I had changed so suddenly. I thought she would say anything. She never said a word. She just looked at me while biting her lips.
It was a hard time for me to go on. I never knew how she was feeling about me. My thoughts were at race, while my heart was burning in flames. I felt the urge to hold her, hug her and tell her what i feel about her. This was not possible. I put more courage, and continued to talk to her.
"I know what I might say, may sound so offensive to you. I want you to understand, I don`t want you to hate me as you do to most of the boys in school. I don`t want you to break our friendship after I have told you what I feel about you. I want you to know, the moments that i was silent, never even want to see you. I was thinking on how i was going to express what I feel for you. I know it may sound crazy. We have been knowing each other for a short time, and such kind of feelings evolved so quick. Don`t feel like I just want to use you, being honest. I`m I love with you so much."
She looked at me and never said a word. She looked down. Her face frowned, in a way I never seen it before. I knew I had already annoyed her. I knew she will never want to talk to me anymore. Will she categorize me as the other boys in school? Will she accept my proposal? As I was thinking what to say next. She stood and walk away without even saying a word
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I was curious to know what she had decided. I was never at peace. My whole concentration in class was diverted. I never was able to listen to the lectures in class. I used to wake up very late for classes. I used to skip the morning preps too. The Morning preps, were supposed to start at exactly 5:30 am. I was not able to wake up at such a time.
I felt no need to continue with my studies. My esteem was so low. I guess this is why teachers in school kept on advising us not to engage in relationships. This would have great negative impact in our studies. I was in my own world. Sometimes I would just decide not to go class and spend the whole day in the school hall where I would write. I would write what I felt.
I used to find peace in writing. I had a diary, which I used only to write the things that were significant. The diary mostly involved love quotes, love stories and my own secrets that I would never allow anyone to know them. The secrets, carried the weaknesses, that I would never allow anyone to know.
Several weeks passed. I convinced myself I would be strong know matter what happened. "You have to appreciate the fact you are still alive and that what matters most. In this world you have to accept rejection and denial for you to move on. You will never always be accepted no matter how good you will be, before people."
I took back my responsibilities after two weeks. I focused much on my studies. I tried to forget even if she existed. It was noon when I was heading to the dining hall. I was alone, holding a novel in my hand. I saw Tracy, she seemed so happy.
"Hello, charles why are you so silent nowadays? Everyone is talking about you. Most of the student say that, it is not a usual thing for you to be like this, though I have known you so recently, it doesn`t mean I won`t ask you how you are doing."
"I`m fine Tracy, no need to worry about me." I replied as I continued to walk.
"Come on charles Have you forgotten what you told me some few weeks back? Are you turning against her!" She asked me loudly.
I stood and turned back to her. "I cannot turn against her, but I know she hates me, she do not see the good in me, nothing bad I ever did to her. If she finds it okay to be on her own it`s cool." I replied in a low voice, I never wanted some of my classmates who were passing to hear the conversation.
"Why are you giving up so easily? You should never give up on something that you want so badly. I know you, charles, you are so much in love with Sophia. I want to tell you that, she said she wants to talk to you. She was never able to come personally to you. She thinks that you are mad at her. She was so much afraid, Sophia thinks, she completely hurted your feelings. She is so much sorry."
Tracy walked away. I stood there frozen, filled with emotions.
I went to the dinning hall so happy. I knew that she had considered my request. My heart was enlighten, my face was filled with joy. That was the best feeling I ever felt the past two weeks. I now had hope, that everything will be alright.
The next day, was on Tuesday. The day begun so cool. I could hear noise from every part of the dormitory. My friends were shouting, talking about the football match that was played between Manchester United and Chelsea. I was not a fun of football, and I``m still not a fun. Some were putting on their uniforms readily for their classes.
I felt so light. It was like I had spent the whole night doing work out. I prepared myself and left the dormitory. I was the last to leave. The first lesson was mathematics. The teacher who taught us mathematics was so full of humor.
He really liked to tell stories. His lesson would be divided to two. The lesson only supposed to go for forty minutes. Those who were keen enough would find that, that teacher only used twenty minutes to teach Mathematics and the remaining twenty minutes to give out life skills. I really liked him, because sometimes he tried to make me understand that, a man should always be ready for anything. As a man responsibilities will always be there.
Time flew. The bell rang. You would hear noises all over the tuition block. Some students shouting, while others dragging their lockers, something that our principal really hated. If you would be found dragging lockers, you would spend the whole day in the field slashing.
I walked quickly outside the tuition block. As I was making my way to the canteen, I saw Sophia, she was sitting at the pavement. The same place we sat when we started talking. I never wanted her to see me. Unfortunately, she saw me. She called me.
It was so hard for me to resist her call. After all I was truly in love with her. I went close to her and sat by her side.
"I`m so sorry Charles, I never knew what to tell you, that why I walked away, I never wanted to annoy you. Please understand me. I know you are still mad at me." Sophia explained herself in a romantic manner, suggesting that she was so much in love too.
"It is okay."
"Is that what you all want to say?" She asked.
"The only thing right now I want to hear from you, is your final decision. Tell me, do you love me?"
"I still don`t know if I love you, but I feel something for you. I really don`t understand what I feel for you."
I was annoyed when I
heard her saying those words. I knew there was no chance for me. I tried to walk away. She held me back.She said, " I love you Abduljabbar."
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The relationship was so amazing everyone admired it. We loved each other so much. We were always available for each other. We would never let a day pass without us talking.
She made feel complete. I never thought to walk away from school even a single day. Though some days we would be allowed to go home, I would have never gone when Sophia was still in school.
We were not allowed as students to have a romantic relationship in school. I never cared, but the school was so strict. School captain, some used to call him the president of the school president used to appoint spies to write down those students who were dating in school.
If you would be found talking to a girl around six pm, you would be noted down by the spies. I never knew the spies though I was one of the prefects in school. This was a real secret. I never bothered to know them, because I was a class captain. I was a leader too.
It is so hard to reveal your fellow leader. As we know in schools sometimes we favor the people we work with.
The whole school knew Sophia and I were dating. No one could take us to the school principal. We were the best couple in school. We had some other students dating too, but their relationships compared to ours, we were the trending example of love in school.
During the weekends, we had entertainment within our school. All students would gather in the school hall where we would watch movies. The allocated time to watch movies was from seven pm to ten am where everyone would go back to their dormitories to sleep.
During this time, if you had your girlfriend, it would have been the perfect time to have fun, talk without restrictions, if you were clever enough you would do more. At this time the patron was busy in her room with her children singing for them lullaby.
Students took advantage of this time. Here, you would know people adequately when there are no restrictions. The world of school seemed so beautiful. Those who never used to like watching movies would be reading.
I used to let my girlfriend lay on my shoulder as we watched Indian movies. Most of the students enjoyed watching Indians movies. They had super love stories that were catchy. Emotionally and that would make one drop tears.
I remember we watched Aashiqui 2 together, I considered the best time we had in school together. I loved her so much. I used to think of her so much. She was all over my head, I never concentrated so much in class as I used to.
I would only think, of the time I was going out of the class to meet her. This made me change so much. I never was any longer responsible. I was obsessed. She was so much in love too. We became love birds. We were always together whenever we went, expect in the dormitory and washrooms.
We were inseparable. The bond was so strong. I would fight for her, she would do the same. I remember one day I almost beat my friend, he was flirting with my girlfriend and I couldn`t tolerate it. It was a habit and I had to stop it. I was short-tempered and that was my weakness.
She became the other weakness.
This made me lose focus on my studies. I remember I used to be Top five, but I dropped to position seven, and it went on until I was position Eleven is when I wake up from the love slumber.
Things started to take a negative turn. Challenges crept in. She was strong, she was performing well in class. I was the one having a problem. People started to talk of us in a negative way. The teachers also now started calling me in their offices. They would counsel me without knowing, what I was going through.
They thought, I was depressed, but I was in love, they never knew it. I held dearly to it. I was falling on the other side but rising on the love side. I was in my own heaven. I never wanted chaos.
Will I really make it out? Is the relationship going to be stable?
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We all have people whom we admire. We wish our relationship was like that of so and so. They seem to be happy together without any problems. You see them enjoying. Their posts in social media, you feel they are the perfect couples ever.
I would like to let you know that every relationship has it own fault. When you see people happy together it doesn't mean they do not face some shit. People go through a lot in their relationships, they just swallow up their shit and move on.
When you want to be happy in your relationship, you should ignore some of the things that will be happening. When you keep on trying to find fault in your partner, or trying to investigate your partner's connection, who she/he talks to, who he/she hangs with, this will be a point of bringing conflict in your relationship.
Don't go and check texts from his/her phone, just because you want to find out the people he or she talks to. Jealousy is good to some extend, but when it is excess it ruins. She/he said he loves you, then hold onto it, make her happy when you see she is also trying to do the same. Make it amazing. Trust your partner. This will be source of happiness to both of you.
When you are in a relationship don't expect that everyday, each one of you will wake up with joyous face. Sometimes everyone wakes up on their worst moods. They don't feel to talk to
anyone or greet anyone, but later during the day the mods will embark on normal.
Lovers will always fight for one or two reasons. I remember fighting with my bae just because who is supposed to text the other first. She insisted that I should take the fore front to do so. In real sense we both have to take initiative to text one another. People out there think that we are the happiest couples, when they see us walking in the streets laughing, holding hands,they think we are always in our right vows. A lot of shit do happen but we keep it that to ourselves, we sit down and solve the issues we have in decent way, we don't go putting petty issues in our hearts. This makes us the happiest couples.
You should hold on to your partner no matter how worst the situation. The problems will never be there everyday. The course of a true relationship will never run smoothly. You will have to be strong. We all expect the best in our relationships, we all want things to work out the way we want, but you also have to know that not all days things will work out.
You will have fights, you will even think of breaking up with your partner. I remember I was in this state, I spent hours thinking and tears doping. Love is so powerful. What comes from it needs a strong heart, weak hearts will always melt down. You might end up doing something that you will regret doing it in your life.
Shit do happen, but running away from it will never make it a solution, walking away from your partner will either be, stick with one another through your best and worst days. Challenges will always arise. The challenges are meant to make both of you strong, and teach you a life lesson. So that when you plan to make your life together, you should understand that shit will always happen.
Days and months went by. We continued to fall in love with each other so much. The extend of love and feelings was almost getting out of the edge of our skins. It was the best feeling, worth for our existence. The feelings became much bold. Nothing could be hidden from the two of us.
We yearned for more, we needed a physical contact. This was impossible to occur at the school compound. The feelings were so much that weakened her and I. Whenever we met, only smile and romantic hand shakes full of intimacy would follow. Love has a strong connection if it is real.
This is the period I found myself completely in love. Leave alone the relationship I had when I was in primary. Where I knew nothing much, than touching and hugging. The girl I had in primary was so beautiful too. She was a half cast of an Arab and Swahili. We meet in our primary school. We dated from class 5 to 8. Nothing much we would do than sharing food, and escort each other home.
The relationship between Sophia and I was mature. It had sense of intimacy. This made us to be in need of maximum privacy. We started meeting secretly when we had no classes. We would wonder in the field, sit in the trenches together. This was a cool place to sit when there was no rain. The trenches would be dry. The trenches were surrounded by tall tress, which give an inclusive shade.
We would share our family stories, how each of our parents would react when we fell in mistakes. We shared so much to a point, everyone knew about each other`s background.
The school rules and regulation did not allow a boy and a girl to be spotted speaking together at exactly 6 am. We never cared. We only allowed our feelings to drive us. One day, the old woman. The school matron saw us talking together at around 7am. She came and warned us. We never paid heed.
Students around the school realized that we were at danger. The school matron had reported us to the school principal. Some of my friends came to inform me. I was worried now! I knew it was a real issue and it will lead to something terrible. I started avoiding her. We talked about it. We had planned to stay away from each other until the issues of relationships in school subsided.
It was too hard for us. We were used to each other. The loneliness crept in. I started feeling like I was missing apart of me. The days that seemed to move in a flash, were now lagging behind. I could not stand the fact seeing her talking with other boys. This really hurted my feelings. At last I said,"Let whatever will happen, happen."
We continued hanging out as before. We thought nothing was going to happen until we were spotted again by the matron at the tuition block together. I remember it was on Friday. The next day which was Saturday we were all called to the principal`s office. We were all tensed. I was courageous enough not to care. I was only worried of her, forgetting that I also had my questions to answer and a punishment to be given.
We entered went to the principal`s office. We stood outside first. There was a visitor in his office so we had to wait until the visitor goes. We looked at each other for about one minute without saying a word. She started Asking,"Ara what will we say to the principal?"
"Nothing, we will wait for him to decide because we have gone against the school rules."
"I`m so sorry Ara, I have brought all these to you."
"Nothing you should be sorry about. If you love me hold onto me, we will get through this."
She held my hand looked into my eyes. She was so worried. I could tell how she reacted. After 5 minutes the visitor was out, the principal never realized that were outside waiting. I wanted to go into the office, but Sophia held my hand. She was so much afraid of what might come out of that office. We had no alternative. Even if we decided not to go in. We will still be found.
"Ara I love you so much." She said.
"I love you big Swerfie." That was her nick name. She loved it.
We enter in the principal`s office. It was my not my first time to enter the principal`s office. I entered the principal`s office to report some of the notorious students in my class. I took the list of noise makers to him when the teacher on duty or the class teacher was not available. Beside the the principal`s chairs there was 3 trophies. These trophies were won by mathematics student. I looked at the corner, I saw sticks that were used to punish the notorious students.
The principal gave us permission to sit down. We sat before him. He leaned on his black, leather chair and started turning right and left. He cleared his throat and starting asking.
"Are you the students that have decided that you will stay in this school with your own rules.?"
We remained silent, we never said a word.
He asked again,"I`m I talking to deaf people?"
"No sir," I replied.
"Is it true that the two are in a relationship?''
"No sir, we are only friends." She replied.
"When did you knew each other? Where did you two met?" The principal asked several questions at a go. This indicated a negative sign to us.
"We knew each other when were in primary school." I decide to lie. Sophia looked at me. She never expected this from me. She knew me as a honest person. What she never understood is that when it came to time of our safety we have to keep the good side of us away.
"The two of you have been seen several time together, on the time that is not recommended. We are not teaching students to be parents. We are educating student to have the best conduct. Do you want to portray the name of the school in a negative way?"
We kept quiet. The principal asked for my name and my ADM no. He pulled out a fulls-cap from his file. He started writing. Sophia looked so regretful. She started to cry. Tears rolling down from her pretty eyes. I was shocked too. I knew that was a letter for me to be expelled out of school. After two minutes the principal gave the paper with a stamp on it.
"I`m giving you 10 minutes, you should be out of this compound. From today hence forth you will be a day scholar. Go and pick whatever is yours in the dormitory and leave the school. As for the girl, you are going to have a punishment."
We left the principal`s office. I was so worried. I trembled within. I thought of what I was going to tell my sponsors. I knew I would lie my father and all will be fine. Outside the principal`s office Sophia held my hand. She pulled me closer and we kissed outside the office. I never felt anything, I was numb then. I held her back, though I was in hurrying to leave the school as I was instructed by the principle. I went down the stairs quickly as I was heading out of the tuition block.
Down the tuition block entry and exit, there was several students. They knew that I was going home. They saw the paper I was holding. I heard them talking about Sophia and I.
I went and packed everything that I knew I would use to prepare myself to come to school the coming Monday. I took my school uniforms which were about six pairs, my pair of shoes, shoe polish and my text books. It was dangerous to leave the books in the metal box.
I walked straight to the gate while my back pack was full. I was so sad, not because I had been suspended from the boarding school. I was afraid of the kind of life will Sophia have in school while I`m away. She was used to me. I felt the world was not fair at all. I developed hatred for the school. For everything that stood as an obstacles between the two of us.
When I reached at the gate. I showed the watchman the letter and passed. I heard someone calling my name while I was out of the school gate. It was her. She waved at me. I looked at her and turned away.
I arrived home safely with my heart on my palm. I never knew what to say. How could I tell my father that I had been suspended from school because I was involved in a relationship? How would I explain that I'm no longer going back to boarding?
My father received me without knowing what have been happening in school. I never gave him the letter. I kept it to myself. He asked why I was home that day, yet I was supposed to be at school then. I told him that I had missed home.
I stayed at home for about three days. This gave him a negative indication. He started questioning me again about my departure from school. I was stranded. I had no idea of how I could on how I could convince him to understand me.
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I brought up lame excuses so that he could transfer me to another school. In back of my mind I had the same idea of changing the school I was. I never liked it at the first place. I just got admitted because I had no another alternative. My sponsors had no enough time to look for a better high school for me.
What is offered to you take it, better a half bread than none. The following week that started I went back to school, but now as a day scholar. I used to wake up so early. Though my father never liked it, he was so much concerned of my safety since we used to live in a marginalized area with no security at all. I told him that I had to be in school on time. My father was pretty annoyed with me. I now had added another burden for him.
By then life was kinda rough. Paying our bills and make sure we get something to eat was the business of our daily life. I was not alone, I had siblings but they used to live with my mother. My parents had divorced since 2009. My dad had to take care of the family even if he had divorced with her.
It was like he was taking care of two houses. He found it hard giving me fare everyday. I started hating myself for such a huge problem I brought to my father. At the end of the day I said,"It is his responsibility."
Back in school was all chaos. I couldn't face her. I thought she was all the fault of what I had been through. She came to console me and asked me how my dad was doing. She knew I was staying with my dad only. I couldn't avoid her charm. Whenever I looked at her she drew me closer and even closer.
My heart was tied to her. All over a sudden we were all back to the normal lane. The different was that I wasn't able to spend more time with her. 5pm I had to be out of school compound. Student In school started talking and backbiting about us. Something they never understood is how I was a slave of her heart. I never cared.After all that is what humans always do.
Time was flying. It was in July 2016. I was in form two back then. Our candidates were preparing for the final exam. They planned a farewell party. The whole school had to contribute Ksh 50 and the officials were supposed to contribute 500 per head. I was one of the officials. I never contributed anything at all. We would be at the meeting and I would give thousands reason why I wasn't able to contribute.
In a period of two weeks time, the farewell party was held. The school was cleaned thoroughly. The hall was moped, the tables were cleaned. The decorations made the hall super amazing. In front of the wall of the wall there were white and blue curtain. The tables that were arranged in front were covered with blue and white coverings.
The bottles of Coca Cola and Mineral water were arranged in pattern at the table. The creates of Sodas were at the corner of the hall. Many schools had been invited. Girls and boys had prepared themselves adequately to receive these guests. Some planned to get new boyfriends and girlfriends. During such a function, it was the appropriate time to find your match.
I was helping the other officials to make sure that everything was in order. I had the responsibility to allocate students at the school gate where they would receive the visitors register them and usher them into the hall. Everyone was busy that day.
I remember I was heading to the tuition block when I met Sophia. She was so cool. That her usual nature. She had ironed her uniforms that fit so well in her slim body. She had worn a white hijab. That day she worn open shoes. She smiled and walked away to the dormitory.
She was in a good mood. Maybe it was all about the party that was going on. I went to the tuition block and pick my back pack which I had locked it in my locker. The tuition block was empty. No one was in the mood of learning that day. The atmosphere was of parting, celebrating and jumping all around the school compound.
I closed the class and walked out quickly. As I was walking towards the hall I saw students all over the school compound. They were in pairs, you would think it was a dating party. No teacher would bother you that day. The watchman never cared of who enters the school nor who leaves the school.
I took this as an amazing opportunity to hang out with my bae. I started looking for her. Later on after a thorough searching I found her behind the dormitory which was close to the back door of the hall.
"Hello! How are you doing?"
"I'm fine, as you can see me."
"The environment today seems so cool and everyone is happy, most people have been getting out of the school without any restriction, maybe we can make it out and have some fun." I said it while winking.
"It is a good idea, we can go and come back before the party is over." She said bravely.
This was made a plan. She yearned too much for privacy outside the school compound. I never hesitated. I really wanted it too. She quickly went to the dormitory and picked her bag. I also went to pick what we would use when we will be out for a short time.
I had Ksh 800 which is equivalent to 8 dollars which seems pretty much for a student. I put few clothes in the back and walked out of the dormitory. As a coincidence we both got out of the dormitory at the same time.
My friends asked me where I was going, but I kept it a secret. They knew I was leaving with Sophia since they also saw with her back pack. I was the first to leave the school compound and she followed back. The gate-man was not at the gate. This made it easy for us to walk out so easily.
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I remember the day that I ran away from school, we were a lot of students. We had even never changed our school uniform. We decided to go to the beach 🏖 and have some fun. My friends had their cameras, mobile phones and some had Bluetooth speakers 🔊.
We listen to music, ate pizza 🍕, we created humor amongst ourselves. The day seemed so great. The sun ☀ was at it considerable temperatures. The sand was warm, the water was so cool 😎. That was the best day ever when I think of the days when I was in high school. We were group of 5 naughty boys.
Sometimes might be in groups just discussing about girls.I surely knew that most of my friends have their girlfriends.I was the odd one out.I really used to hate such topics but I couldn`t walk away from such conversation.they would get deeply in conversation about the girls they have next door.They would at last pause a question to me.
"Charles just tell us the truth,have you have had a girlfriend?"They would ask me.
"Hey! John come one what kind of question are you trying to ask me?"I would reply furiously.
"Just answer the question charles,we all know that you don`t have a girlfriend.You are so shy to face any girl."
I would slowly walk away from them pretending to go to the wash room.They actually knew I was leaving secretly.They would just come by and stop me,and try to make to speak with any girl around just to intimidate me.I was tensed,I only said hi,and I kept silent.
honestly I used to like girls but not to be in an intimate relationship with them.This made some of my friend think negative of me.I used to tell them that I don`t want to have a girl whom I will hurt,Simple because they had more than one girl.They really did cheat to them.I felt pity for the girls who blindly fell in love with my friends.
That the nature,being a boy sometimes,especially a teenager.You would wan`t to take chance to do multiple of things at a go without realising the worst of it.I used to say i`ll never hurt any girl whom i will be having and any chik who agrees to be with me will be so happy.I used to care so much.
The thing that I would like the chiks to know is that most of the boys if they are actually in love with you,it is so true and real,they will wish to sacr ifice anything for you,but the problem arise when,the same girls tend to change,is when most of the boys think to look for a safe place to hide.If it is your first love you will actually never think of seeking to keep your heart at a safe place.You would love deeply and hoping that,the same girl is the one you are going to marry.That so fun of it,But at the moment when ,we get hurt ,everything changes you become so cautious,you don`t love that deeply,you just care a little bit. That is the fear of being hurt again.Sometimes boys do cheat for a reason.
Hello!
I would like to talk about something that most of us should never ignore when we need our relationships to works out.As we know most of the relationships might end up just because of tiny,petty issues that you have been ignoring from your partner or you have been ignoring to do them.Love has to be a two way traffic,by than more fun will be created out of it,the more fun the more the bond of the relationship will be.
Here are the few things we should not ignore from our partner:-
1.NEVER FORGET TO TELL THEM HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM
Love is mainly based on how much we talk and do with our partners.Words are so powerful,words can create and can break,words can make your relationship hold on too strong or the same words can terminate it.Remember,the same words you used when you were flirting with her,use the same words everyday and try to remind them how important they are to you.Use the same words to make them feel loved and cared for still.Express your feelings whenever you have the chance to do so.If you used to tell her you loved her so much every morning ,continue to use the same word every now and then,this will actually remind her how it feels to be in love with you.this will remind her how much she has to do for you in your relationship.The same aspect if it continues it will make a diamond bond,so hard to break no matter which negative influence is in between the two of you.
2.CUDDLE THEM,HUG THEM,MAKE A CONTACT WHENEVER YOU ARE AROUND EACH OTHER..
This is so important in a relationship.If you have your partner close,holding her,touching her,hugging her,make her lay on you.Make sure you do anything possible to make her feel secure and safe when she is in your hands.Girls like the simple things,and the simple things are what make a girl fall for you deeply in love.We should never ignore this aspect.When we ignore it for about a week ,you will actually see a change in the behavior in the relationship and it won`t be that pleasing.The contact between you two creates a strong bond between you and your partner.It creates a memory,and it strengthen what you feel for one another.This is what brings about the urge to have one another.Now, tell me if this aspect is out.How will you bring the feelings between you and your partner?You will be actually going to an edge of losing your partner.
3.COME BEARING SIMPLE GIFTS AND SURPRISES.
We always see in the movies where lovers comes with flowers to their loved ones,They bring even a single rose to them and this amuse them.Something I would like you to know is that,the simple things that we think they don`t matter anymore in our relationships,they do matter a lot.It doesn`t need to be valentine when we rush for red flowers and buying gifts to our partners.Who said that valentine day is the only day people should be buying flowers or giving gifts to their partners? Everyday it has to be a valentine between you and your lover.If you are still healthy and strong never lose even a single second with your partner.Make her feel loved with simple surprises you do for her.Make her feel she has a man who is ready for her for the future.Make this a habit.Make a day,be it once a week,once a month,just pick a special day that she will always know that,that kind of a day is always special to her.This will actually haunt her whenever she is far from you when she reads at the calendar and find that the day you would always surprise her,she is not available for the surprise.
4.TELL HER,THAT YOU ALWAYS APPRECIATE HER EFFORT IN ANYTHING.
If your partner finds out that you always appreciate anything positive she does for you.She will always be happy to do anything for you.She will always ask you what you need,she will always want to know what is bothering you.Just because she knows there is someone appreciating every bit of thing that she does.This will make her even be more happy to offer any kind of help.this will actually made her love you most.A lady needs appreciation,no matter what small action she did for you.Doing this will actually enable you to win her heart.Use words like,"Thank you so much bae for your hand,I really appreciate your help,You are the best girl I ever had."Make her feel so comfortable with you.When she finds that you really don`t appreciate anything positive she does for you,and another of her male friend really appreciate even her sending a text message to him,do you think your relationship will be at a safe path?
5.GIVE HER SPACE,DON`T BE OVER PROTECTIVE,TOO JEALOUS.
You should be protective to anyone you love because you wouldn`t afford to lose them,you should always care about who she is always speaking to in her phone,you should also sometimes deny her do interact with certain people.It is so cute at sometimes to be jealous.I can`t let anyone flirt with my bae while am around,i can`t let anyone touch my girlfriend when I`m around her.This is what i call being protective,but it should not be excess to an extend that when she says hi to someone else you are already asking who he was.Remember before you met her,she had different friends,she had another man who actually is not you.So don`t go by and give her strict measure on who she should be saying hi too.When you pressure her too much she will start admiring how other girls are being treated with their boyfriends.She will even wish she never met you,just because of the simple things you put strict measure on.If she accepted to be your girlfriend,she said she loves you too,then you should trust her.You should realize that whatever she is doing is for better of both of you,let her play her part and play your part,you will never grab shoulders with one another.
We should always focus on thinking on positive things.Think positive,be healthy.You should not worry about the negatives.We should only create an atmosphere full of positive vibes.Do something with all your best and hope for the best to occur.Do something with your passion hoping you would achieve the best from it.If we live with this kind of attitude we will never get depressed at all.Most of the time people get depressed,because of getting worried on things that will never even come to happen in the near time,they get to store their emptiness and only thing negative things are going to happen to them.They don`t take a chance to speak it out with their closest people.The emotions accumulate to a higher stage,where now they cause depression.Something that only started at a negative attitude.
No matter how hard the situation is going to be in some stages of our lives,we should always have a positive attitude, that everything will work out well.Having this positive attitude keeps you energetic and keeps you ready to receive any challenge you are facing.This is the same attitude that will enable you to live happily.Rising up with a smile that is full of enthusiasm.
You have your girlfriend or wife.Don`t think negative of her.Don`t bring the feeling of doubt to her.Just trust her fully and believe that she is always doing the right thing.Suspecting her of infidelity will eventually make your relationship with her start to deteriorate.You won`t love her much as you used to love her in the beginning,you won`t care as you used to care.This negative feeling you always keep having about her will only rise chaos in your relationship.It will keep love away and only drive enmity in the relationship instead of peace and harmony.
I do agree sometimes we tend to realize that our partners are cheating.We will realize
when they now start changing their passwords in their cell phone,they will start hiding some texts from you,they will start acting differently,in away you never expected,but this does not mean you starting having negative attitudes towards them.Learn to let positive vibes flow.Be a man and confirm,ask her what is wrong,try to understand why she does so.This will create a good atmosphere for both of you.What I`m trying to emphasize here,try as much as possible to be always positive.Suspense always lead to vices.
Understand that your life was mean`t to be full of joy but not pain. Have a positive belief. Work out in a positive way,talk in a positive,live in a positive way and all will work out in a positive path.This is simple because positivity encourages a way for better enhancement of your current state,provides you with a reason to work more hard and smart to attain the best. People keep on trying even after their failure just because they have a positive vibe that what they are achieving currently it is not going to be the same they will achieve after five years to come.
LOVE IS SELFISH
Love is selfish,due to these reasons.You fall in love with a girl.You only want her.You cherish her.You take good care of her.She becomes the only thing that matters to you.She captures your heart.You capture her heart.You all now exist for one another.
A day passing without you seeing her,it makes your day a hell of a living.Your heart will burn up with desires wishing she was around.You will only want her to be there for you.You will do anything never to let her down.You will do anything to please her.Only her.Here i get a reason to say love is selfish.
You will walk thousands miles,while your heart is left behind.Behind to the girl, your love longs for.You are willing to make a contact with her,but there is no possibility.She does no```````t reach you out.You think she is busy with someone else.You have no chance of reaching out to her,she thinks too you are not thinking about her.She does not realise that you try so hard just to hear her voice.
Dark creeps in.You wish she was there for you.Only memory are there for you.The distance separates you.Miles away but only feelings for her exist.You see beautiful girls,with ambitions and future,but you are still attached to her and you only want her.Love is selfish.
Love needs care.Loves needs attention.Love needs both souls attached to each.When one detaches,love is gone.Love need connection from both ends.It does not care about the status.It does not care of the condition.It only exist without barriers and keeps going deep in to the souls.
Obsession occurs.Burning the heart.The cure is Love.Missing someone so deeply,not eyes can tell,not touch can tell,only the internal connection can quencher the thirst and cool the heart.Love is selfish.It only cares for it existence.It only focus on two.When love focus on more than two,then love dies.
Love sprouts in a daylight.With a minimum sunlight intensity,with a cool weather around it.With too much of the sunlight,love drops.
Love fights.You need someone so bad,She does not appear.You feel down,alone wondering.You feel empty around of thousands souls.You care for none.Do you know why?
Love is selfish.you spend time alone.Listening to the music alone.Sad songs,But in real sense you only care about the lyrics.You are hurt,yet you cannot move on.You only feel her.Only her.
What love taught me,
In the current world world, most of us never understand what love really means. We tend to fall in love without caution. We love unconditionally. We care too much. Without understanding the out come of its effect.
Love never chose where to grow, love does not care how it is propelled, love only cares how it is perceived. Teenagers mostly, do engage in relationships so easily. Without having a specific intention in the relationship, but only hoping that love will last forever.
Who ever said that love is always forever? Who ever said that every relationship will end up in a marriage? How many relationships have you been? How many relationships never worked out, because of one or two reason? I learnt a lot from love. Do you wanna know?
I remember back then when I was in high school. Very energetic and confidence. In our school there was a girl, who had been admitted so recently from another school. She was so beautiful. Her beauty is what really amazed me. It is not that I never met anyone beautiful like her. She was unique in her own way, and that what made me fall crazily for her without giving a second thought.
She always liked to sit alone during break time. She went to the dinning hall alone, She never had friends at first. She seemed never interested to interact with any girl or boy. Silent, and cool that how she was. She was a short girl, with a complexion of an Arab and African. Her skin color, you could tell she was a half cast.
She had big brown eyes, with long black hair. She was never slim or fat. Brilliant was her nature, I could hear this from her classmates talking about her. She was pretty good in business study.
Many boys were after her. I couldn`t stand that chance seeing her in someone`s else hands. I took initiative. One day as it was games time i saw her sitting alone at the basketball pitch. I stood aside for some seconds to think of how I`m going to start a conversation with her. I took advantage of my leadership. I was a very respected class captain. Most of the teachers recognized me as a student who is focused and moral upright, different from most of my school mates. They always caused chaos in school, smoking in school and some even engaged in the trafficking of drugs.
"Hello! How are you doing Sophia?" I greeted her. She seemed surprised. I knew her name. Guess boys always try to search for what they want.
"I`m doing great," She answered. She looked down and never put an eye on me.
"Why are you sitting here alone, while most of the students are in the field playing football, volleyball, netball, aren`t you a fan of any of the games?"
"I`m not interested to play any kind of games," She replied quickly.
"I prefer you to be in the field than sitting here alone, the games teacher does not recommend this at all, we can go together because I was heading there too and I thought it would be better if I accompany. I know you don`t have friends. I can be one."
She smiled.
I slowly went with her to the field, but then she had no games kit, neither did I. We went to the field and sat on the ground watching the the students playing and shouting. I looked at her when she was silent, and she never said a word. She looked at me and realised that i was looking at her too. She asked me my name, and why was I not playing any of the games.
That how the conversation started. She now started being open to me. She told me she liked to play basketball, in her previous school she was in her school team. This made me also to be open to her. We had an amazing conversation. I knew that she was so talkative, but she only talked to people who seemed to understand her.
People were so surprised how I managed to make a quick friendship with her. Sophia would not talk to most of the boys. Most of them would approach her, start flirting with her, and I guess is something that Sophia looked upon from those boys. This was different from me, I think that what made me get her trust that quick, and she knew I was the only boy she could trust.
We used to meet under the mango tree, which was just in front of the school block. I forgot to mention something, we were in boarding school. Girls had their own dorms a bit far from boys. This was so amazing, because I had the whole time in the world to make her believe that something would be between us.
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Days and months passed. I was so afraid to express my feelings to her. How could I told her that I wanted her to be my girlfriend? Yet many of the boys never managed to make friendship with her because of the same issues.
I started to avoid her. I would go break, even without passing across her class. I never even wanted to let her know what I was going through. By then she had some friends, One of them was called Tracy. A very cute girl who had also been admitted recently in our school. She was so hot as i can term her, but she was never hot like Sophia.
I decided to talk to Tracy after I realised she was her close friend. I told her about what I felt about Sophia. She asked why was I afraid to face her and tell her the truth. It was so hard for me. Thinking that I will break our friendship.
My friends knew what was going on. They knew because my whole character and behavior of being chicky and funny. It had been turned into the silent of the grave. I would not talk in class. I would late my Assistant Class Captain to take over the duties of the whole class. In the dormitory. I would only greet them, and lay on my bed looking at the white ceiling board. Wondering in my own world.
As time went. I knew this feeling would set me on fire. I decided to stand against my own fear. I knew i would lose her. Our friendship bond wasn`t gonna make it with such a silence. Many boys too, were after the same jewel!
One day as I was going outside of the class. Making my way out of the tuition block. I met her. She stared at me. I stood. I looked at her too. I abruptly told her that, i would like to talk to her. She never hesitated, She knew there was something wrong with me. She was eager to know what was it.
We went together to the basketball pitch.We sat around the pavements. Which were painted black at white that made the path ways looked so amazing. The same path ways would be cleaned everyday in the morning. The students who would come late to school, would be punished by cleaning the school compound. I was responsible for such kind of work. I would give each student their portion to work on. I would later come to check if the place had been cleaned up thoroughly.
"Sophia..." I started to talk to her. The voice was not clear. I cleared my throat.
"I know you have not been able to talk to me, to be honest I was the cause of us not communicating. I really do blame myself for that. I made you feel lonely, I made you feel so broke. I`m so sorry for that." I tried to let her understood why I had changed so suddenly. I thought she would say anything. She never said a word. She just looked at me while biting her lips.
It was a hard time for me to go on. I never knew how she was feeling about me. My thoughts were at race, while my heart was burning in flames. I felt the urge to hold her, hug her and tell her what i feel about her. This was not possible. I put more courage, and continued to talk to her.
"I know what I might say, may sound so offensive to you. I want you to understand, I don`t want you to hate me as you do to most of the boys in school. I don`t want you to break our friendship after I have told you what I feel about you. I want you to know, the moments that i was silent, never even want to see you. I was thinking on how i was going to express what I feel for you. I know it may sound crazy. We have been knowing each other for a short time, and such kind of feelings evolved so quick. Don`t feel like I just want to use you, being honest. I`m I love with you so much."
She looked at me and never said a word. She looked down. Her face frowned, in a way I never seen it before. I knew I had already annoyed her. I knew she will never want to talk to me anymore. Will she categorize me as the other boys in school? Will she accept my proposal? As I was thinking what to say next. She stood and walk away without even saying a word
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I was curious to know what she had decided. I was never at peace. My whole concentration in class was diverted. I never was able to listen to the lectures in class. I used to wake up very late for classes. I used to skip the morning preps too. The Morning preps, were supposed to start at exactly 5:30 am. I was not able to wake up at such a time.
I felt no need to continue with my studies. My esteem was so low. I guess this is why teachers in school kept on advising us not to engage in relationships. This would have great negative impact in our studies. I was in my own world. Sometimes I would just decide not to go class and spend the whole day in the school hall where I would write. I would write what I felt.
I used to find peace in writing. I had a diary, which I used only to write the things that were significant. The diary mostly involved love quotes, love stories and my own secrets that I would never allow anyone to know them. The secrets, carried the weaknesses, that I would never allow anyone to know.
Several weeks passed. I convinced myself I would be strong know matter what happened. "You have to appreciate the fact you are still alive and that what matters most. In this world you have to accept rejection and denial for you to move on. You will never always be accepted no matter how good you will be, before people."
I took back my responsibilities after two weeks. I focused much on my studies. I tried to forget even if she existed. It was noon when I was heading to the dining hall. I was alone, holding a novel in my hand. I saw Tracy, she seemed so happy.
"Hello, charles why are you so silent nowadays? Everyone is talking about you. Most of the student say that, it is not a usual thing for you to be like this, though I have known you so recently, it doesn`t mean I won`t ask you how you are doing."
"I`m fine Tracy, no need to worry about me." I replied as I continued to walk.
"Come on charles Have you forgotten what you told me some few weeks back? Are you turning against her!" She asked me loudly.
I stood and turned back to her. "I cannot turn against her, but I know she hates me, she do not see the good in me, nothing bad I ever did to her. If she finds it okay to be on her own it`s cool." I replied in a low voice, I never wanted some of my classmates who were passing to hear the conversation.
"Why are you giving up so easily? You should never give up on something that you want so badly. I know you, charles, you are so much in love with Sophia. I want to tell you that, she said she wants to talk to you. She was never able to come personally to you. She thinks that you are mad at her. She was so much afraid, Sophia thinks, she completely hurted your feelings. She is so much sorry."
Tracy walked away. I stood there frozen, filled with emotions.
I went to the dinning hall so happy. I knew that she had considered my request. My heart was enlighten, my face was filled with joy. That was the best feeling I ever felt the past two weeks. I now had hope, that everything will be alright.
The next day, was on Tuesday. The day begun so cool. I could hear noise from every part of the dormitory. My friends were shouting, talking about the football match that was played between Manchester United and Chelsea. I was not a fun of football, and I``m still not a fun. Some were putting on their uniforms readily for their classes.
I felt so light. It was like I had spent the whole night doing work out. I prepared myself and left the dormitory. I was the last to leave. The first lesson was mathematics. The teacher who taught us mathematics was so full of humor.
He really liked to tell stories. His lesson would be divided to two. The lesson only supposed to go for forty minutes. Those who were keen enough would find that, that teacher only used twenty minutes to teach Mathematics and the remaining twenty minutes to give out life skills. I really liked him, because sometimes he tried to make me understand that, a man should always be ready for anything. As a man responsibilities will always be there.
Time flew. The bell rang. You would hear noises all over the tuition block. Some students shouting, while others dragging their lockers, something that our principal really hated. If you would be found dragging lockers, you would spend the whole day in the field slashing.
I walked quickly outside the tuition block. As I was making my way to the canteen, I saw Sophia, she was sitting at the pavement. The same place we sat when we started talking. I never wanted her to see me. Unfortunately, she saw me. She called me.
It was so hard for me to resist her call. After all I was truly in love with her. I went close to her and sat by her side.
"I`m so sorry Charles, I never knew what to tell you, that why I walked away, I never wanted to annoy you. Please understand me. I know you are still mad at me." Sophia explained herself in a romantic manner, suggesting that she was so much in love too.
"It is okay."
"Is that what you all want to say?" She asked.
"The only thing right now I want to hear from you, is your final decision. Tell me, do you love me?"
"I still don`t know if I love you, but I feel something for you. I really don`t understand what I feel for you."
I was annoyed when I
heard her saying those words. I knew there was no chance for me. I tried to walk away. She held me back.She said, " I love you Abduljabbar."
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The relationship was so amazing everyone admired it. We loved each other so much. We were always available for each other. We would never let a day pass without us talking.
She made feel complete. I never thought to walk away from school even a single day. Though some days we would be allowed to go home, I would have never gone when Sophia was still in school.
We were not allowed as students to have a romantic relationship in school. I never cared, but the school was so strict. School captain, some used to call him the president of the school president used to appoint spies to write down those students who were dating in school.
If you would be found talking to a girl around six pm, you would be noted down by the spies. I never knew the spies though I was one of the prefects in school. This was a real secret. I never bothered to know them, because I was a class captain. I was a leader too.
It is so hard to reveal your fellow leader. As we know in schools sometimes we favor the people we work with.
The whole school knew Sophia and I were dating. No one could take us to the school principal. We were the best couple in school. We had some other students dating too, but their relationships compared to ours, we were the trending example of love in school.
During the weekends, we had entertainment within our school. All students would gather in the school hall where we would watch movies. The allocated time to watch movies was from seven pm to ten am where everyone would go back to their dormitories to sleep.
During this time, if you had your girlfriend, it would have been the perfect time to have fun, talk without restrictions, if you were clever enough you would do more. At this time the patron was busy in her room with her children singing for them lullaby.
Students took advantage of this time. Here, you would know people adequately when there are no restrictions. The world of school seemed so beautiful. Those who never used to like watching movies would be reading.
I used to let my girlfriend lay on my shoulder as we watched Indian movies. Most of the students enjoyed watching Indians movies. They had super love stories that were catchy. Emotionally and that would make one drop tears.
I remember we watched Aashiqui 2 together, I considered the best time we had in school together. I loved her so much. I used to think of her so much. She was all over my head, I never concentrated so much in class as I used to.
I would only think, of the time I was going out of the class to meet her. This made me change so much. I never was any longer responsible. I was obsessed. She was so much in love too. We became love birds. We were always together whenever we went, expect in the dormitory and washrooms.
We were inseparable. The bond was so strong. I would fight for her, she would do the same. I remember one day I almost beat my friend, he was flirting with my girlfriend and I couldn`t tolerate it. It was a habit and I had to stop it. I was short-tempered and that was my weakness.
She became the other weakness.
This made me lose focus on my studies. I remember I used to be Top five, but I dropped to position seven, and it went on until I was position Eleven is when I wake up from the love slumber.
Things started to take a negative turn. Challenges crept in. She was strong, she was performing well in class. I was the one having a problem. People started to talk of us in a negative way. The teachers also now started calling me in their offices. They would counsel me without knowing, what I was going through.
They thought, I was depressed, but I was in love, they never knew it. I held dearly to it. I was falling on the other side but rising on the love side. I was in my own heaven. I never wanted chaos.
Will I really make it out? Is the relationship going to be stable?
Wait for the next part. Thanks for reading.
We all have people whom we admire. We wish our relationship was like that of so and so. They seem to be happy together without any problems. You see them enjoying. Their posts in social media, you feel they are the perfect couples ever.
I would like to let you know that every relationship has it own fault. When you see people happy together it doesn't mean they do not face some shit. People go through a lot in their relationships, they just swallow up their shit and move on.
When you want to be happy in your relationship, you should ignore some of the things that will be happening. When you keep on trying to find fault in your partner, or trying to investigate your partner's connection, who she/he talks to, who he/she hangs with, this will be a point of bringing conflict in your relationship.
Don't go and check texts from his/her phone, just because you want to find out the people he or she talks to. Jealousy is good to some extend, but when it is excess it ruins. She/he said he loves you, then hold onto it, make her happy when you see she is also trying to do the same. Make it amazing. Trust your partner. This will be source of happiness to both of you.
When you are in a relationship don't expect that everyday, each one of you will wake up with joyous face. Sometimes everyone wakes up on their worst moods. They don't feel to talk to
anyone or greet anyone, but later during the day the mods will embark on normal.
Lovers will always fight for one or two reasons. I remember fighting with my bae just because who is supposed to text the other first. She insisted that I should take the fore front to do so. In real sense we both have to take initiative to text one another. People out there think that we are the happiest couples, when they see us walking in the streets laughing, holding hands,they think we are always in our right vows. A lot of shit do happen but we keep it that to ourselves, we sit down and solve the issues we have in decent way, we don't go putting petty issues in our hearts. This makes us the happiest couples.
You should hold on to your partner no matter how worst the situation. The problems will never be there everyday. The course of a true relationship will never run smoothly. You will have to be strong. We all expect the best in our relationships, we all want things to work out the way we want, but you also have to know that not all days things will work out.
You will have fights, you will even think of breaking up with your partner. I remember I was in this state, I spent hours thinking and tears doping. Love is so powerful. What comes from it needs a strong heart, weak hearts will always melt down. You might end up doing something that you will regret doing it in your life.
Shit do happen, but running away from it will never make it a solution, walking away from your partner will either be, stick with one another through your best and worst days. Challenges will always arise. The challenges are meant to make both of you strong, and teach you a life lesson. So that when you plan to make your life together, you should understand that shit will always happen.
Days and months went by. We continued to fall in love with each other so much. The extend of love and feelings was almost getting out of the edge of our skins. It was the best feeling, worth for our existence. The feelings became much bold. Nothing could be hidden from the two of us.
We yearned for more, we needed a physical contact. This was impossible to occur at the school compound. The feelings were so much that weakened her and I. Whenever we met, only smile and romantic hand shakes full of intimacy would follow. Love has a strong connection if it is real.
This is the period I found myself completely in love. Leave alone the relationship I had when I was in primary. Where I knew nothing much, than touching and hugging. The girl I had in primary was so beautiful too. She was a half cast of an Arab and Swahili. We meet in our primary school. We dated from class 5 to 8. Nothing much we would do than sharing food, and escort each other home.
The relationship between Sophia and I was mature. It had sense of intimacy. This made us to be in need of maximum privacy. We started meeting secretly when we had no classes. We would wonder in the field, sit in the trenches together. This was a cool place to sit when there was no rain. The trenches would be dry. The trenches were surrounded by tall tress, which give an inclusive shade.
We would share our family stories, how each of our parents would react when we fell in mistakes. We shared so much to a point, everyone knew about each other`s background.
The school rules and regulation did not allow a boy and a girl to be spotted speaking together at exactly 6 am. We never cared. We only allowed our feelings to drive us. One day, the old woman. The school matron saw us talking together at around 7am. She came and warned us. We never paid heed.
Students around the school realized that we were at danger. The school matron had reported us to the school principal. Some of my friends came to inform me. I was worried now! I knew it was a real issue and it will lead to something terrible. I started avoiding her. We talked about it. We had planned to stay away from each other until the issues of relationships in school subsided.
It was too hard for us. We were used to each other. The loneliness crept in. I started feeling like I was missing apart of me. The days that seemed to move in a flash, were now lagging behind. I could not stand the fact seeing her talking with other boys. This really hurted my feelings. At last I said,"Let whatever will happen, happen."
We continued hanging out as before. We thought nothing was going to happen until we were spotted again by the matron at the tuition block together. I remember it was on Friday. The next day which was Saturday we were all called to the principal`s office. We were all tensed. I was courageous enough not to care. I was only worried of her, forgetting that I also had my questions to answer and a punishment to be given.
We entered went to the principal`s office. We stood outside first. There was a visitor in his office so we had to wait until the visitor goes. We looked at each other for about one minute without saying a word. She started Asking,"Ara what will we say to the principal?"
"Nothing, we will wait for him to decide because we have gone against the school rules."
"I`m so sorry Ara, I have brought all these to you."
"Nothing you should be sorry about. If you love me hold onto me, we will get through this."
She held my hand looked into my eyes. She was so worried. I could tell how she reacted. After 5 minutes the visitor was out, the principal never realized that were outside waiting. I wanted to go into the office, but Sophia held my hand. She was so much afraid of what might come out of that office. We had no alternative. Even if we decided not to go in. We will still be found.
"Ara I love you so much." She said.
"I love you big Swerfie." That was her nick name. She loved it.
We enter in the principal`s office. It was my not my first time to enter the principal`s office. I entered the principal`s office to report some of the notorious students in my class. I took the list of noise makers to him when the teacher on duty or the class teacher was not available. Beside the the principal`s chairs there was 3 trophies. These trophies were won by mathematics student. I looked at the corner, I saw sticks that were used to punish the notorious students.
The principal gave us permission to sit down. We sat before him. He leaned on his black, leather chair and started turning right and left. He cleared his throat and starting asking.
"Are you the students that have decided that you will stay in this school with your own rules.?"
We remained silent, we never said a word.
He asked again,"I`m I talking to deaf people?"
"No sir," I replied.
"Is it true that the two are in a relationship?''
"No sir, we are only friends." She replied.
"When did you knew each other? Where did you two met?" The principal asked several questions at a go. This indicated a negative sign to us.
"We knew each other when were in primary school." I decide to lie. Sophia looked at me. She never expected this from me. She knew me as a honest person. What she never understood is that when it came to time of our safety we have to keep the good side of us away.
"The two of you have been seen several time together, on the time that is not recommended. We are not teaching students to be parents. We are educating student to have the best conduct. Do you want to portray the name of the school in a negative way?"
We kept quiet. The principal asked for my name and my ADM no. He pulled out a fulls-cap from his file. He started writing. Sophia looked so regretful. She started to cry. Tears rolling down from her pretty eyes. I was shocked too. I knew that was a letter for me to be expelled out of school. After two minutes the principal gave the paper with a stamp on it.
"I`m giving you 10 minutes, you should be out of this compound. From today hence forth you will be a day scholar. Go and pick whatever is yours in the dormitory and leave the school. As for the girl, you are going to have a punishment."
We left the principal`s office. I was so worried. I trembled within. I thought of what I was going to tell my sponsors. I knew I would lie my father and all will be fine. Outside the principal`s office Sophia held my hand. She pulled me closer and we kissed outside the office. I never felt anything, I was numb then. I held her back, though I was in hurrying to leave the school as I was instructed by the principle. I went down the stairs quickly as I was heading out of the tuition block.
Down the tuition block entry and exit, there was several students. They knew that I was going home. They saw the paper I was holding. I heard them talking about Sophia and I.
I went and packed everything that I knew I would use to prepare myself to come to school the coming Monday. I took my school uniforms which were about six pairs, my pair of shoes, shoe polish and my text books. It was dangerous to leave the books in the metal box.
I walked straight to the gate while my back pack was full. I was so sad, not because I had been suspended from the boarding school. I was afraid of the kind of life will Sophia have in school while I`m away. She was used to me. I felt the world was not fair at all. I developed hatred for the school. For everything that stood as an obstacles between the two of us.
When I reached at the gate. I showed the watchman the letter and passed. I heard someone calling my name while I was out of the school gate. It was her. She waved at me. I looked at her and turned away.
I arrived home safely with my heart on my palm. I never knew what to say. How could I tell my father that I had been suspended from school because I was involved in a relationship? How would I explain that I'm no longer going back to boarding?
My father received me without knowing what have been happening in school. I never gave him the letter. I kept it to myself. He asked why I was home that day, yet I was supposed to be at school then. I told him that I had missed home.
I stayed at home for about three days. This gave him a negative indication. He started questioning me again about my departure from school. I was stranded. I had no idea of how I could on how I could convince him to understand me.
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I brought up lame excuses so that he could transfer me to another school. In back of my mind I had the same idea of changing the school I was. I never liked it at the first place. I just got admitted because I had no another alternative. My sponsors had no enough time to look for a better high school for me.
What is offered to you take it, better a half bread than none. The following week that started I went back to school, but now as a day scholar. I used to wake up so early. Though my father never liked it, he was so much concerned of my safety since we used to live in a marginalized area with no security at all. I told him that I had to be in school on time. My father was pretty annoyed with me. I now had added another burden for him.
By then life was kinda rough. Paying our bills and make sure we get something to eat was the business of our daily life. I was not alone, I had siblings but they used to live with my mother. My parents had divorced since 2009. My dad had to take care of the family even if he had divorced with her.
It was like he was taking care of two houses. He found it hard giving me fare everyday. I started hating myself for such a huge problem I brought to my father. At the end of the day I said,"It is his responsibility."
Back in school was all chaos. I couldn't face her. I thought she was all the fault of what I had been through. She came to console me and asked me how my dad was doing. She knew I was staying with my dad only. I couldn't avoid her charm. Whenever I looked at her she drew me closer and even closer.
My heart was tied to her. All over a sudden we were all back to the normal lane. The different was that I wasn't able to spend more time with her. 5pm I had to be out of school compound. Student In school started talking and backbiting about us. Something they never understood is how I was a slave of her heart. I never cared.After all that is what humans always do.
Time was flying. It was in July 2016. I was in form two back then. Our candidates were preparing for the final exam. They planned a farewell party. The whole school had to contribute Ksh 50 and the officials were supposed to contribute 500 per head. I was one of the officials. I never contributed anything at all. We would be at the meeting and I would give thousands reason why I wasn't able to contribute.
In a period of two weeks time, the farewell party was held. The school was cleaned thoroughly. The hall was moped, the tables were cleaned. The decorations made the hall super amazing. In front of the wall of the wall there were white and blue curtain. The tables that were arranged in front were covered with blue and white coverings.
The bottles of Coca Cola and Mineral water were arranged in pattern at the table. The creates of Sodas were at the corner of the hall. Many schools had been invited. Girls and boys had prepared themselves adequately to receive these guests. Some planned to get new boyfriends and girlfriends. During such a function, it was the appropriate time to find your match.
I was helping the other officials to make sure that everything was in order. I had the responsibility to allocate students at the school gate where they would receive the visitors register them and usher them into the hall. Everyone was busy that day.
I remember I was heading to the tuition block when I met Sophia. She was so cool. That her usual nature. She had ironed her uniforms that fit so well in her slim body. She had worn a white hijab. That day she worn open shoes. She smiled and walked away to the dormitory.
She was in a good mood. Maybe it was all about the party that was going on. I went to the tuition block and pick my back pack which I had locked it in my locker. The tuition block was empty. No one was in the mood of learning that day. The atmosphere was of parting, celebrating and jumping all around the school compound.
I closed the class and walked out quickly. As I was walking towards the hall I saw students all over the school compound. They were in pairs, you would think it was a dating party. No teacher would bother you that day. The watchman never cared of who enters the school nor who leaves the school.
I took this as an amazing opportunity to hang out with my bae. I started looking for her. Later on after a thorough searching I found her behind the dormitory which was close to the back door of the hall.
"Hello! How are you doing?"
"I'm fine, as you can see me."
"The environment today seems so cool and everyone is happy, most people have been getting out of the school without any restriction, maybe we can make it out and have some fun." I said it while winking.
"It is a good idea, we can go and come back before the party is over." She said bravely.
This was made a plan. She yearned too much for privacy outside the school compound. I never hesitated. I really wanted it too. She quickly went to the dormitory and picked her bag. I also went to pick what we would use when we will be out for a short time.
I had Ksh 800 which is equivalent to 8 dollars which seems pretty much for a student. I put few clothes in the back and walked out of the dormitory. As a coincidence we both got out of the dormitory at the same time.
My friends asked me where I was going, but I kept it a secret. They knew I was leaving with Sophia since they also saw with her back pack. I was the first to leave the school compound and she followed back. The gate-man was not at the gate. This made it easy for us to walk out so easily.
You want to know the whole story? Wait for part VII. Stick around.
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